This is why I don't follow the news, even if my family yells at me for it. Why stay in touch with things I have no control over? Others' drama and pain? Show me the good things instead. I'd rather be conscious of good things I have no control over.
Super happy for you - that the kids are insanely awesome, that money is stabilizing for your family. This is good. Pam was telling me yesterday the most important thing is to not get caught up in the down part. Note that it is there, it will pass. It won't last forever. Just part of the ebb and flow of life.
right after i wrote this entry i knew you would say how you never watch the news and why, just knowing you were going to comment on it made me feel defensive. i may not have been watching the news, it was probably on while i cooked dinner or gary was watching but i tuned into the "a two year old wandered from home" part, i looked in and saw his photo: super smiley with big teeth, golden hair and wide blue eyes. i didn't really see the little boy, i saw Buddy. i double checked the story on line hoping they caught up to him before... it would be too late, but they didn't and now they don't have their Buddy. i prayed for them. the outside world leaks in to me and people seem to say i shouldn't let it, but people also say i should live in that world too, instead of just my own. its good that avoiding the news is a functional way for you to not be bogged down, i'm glad for you. that doesn't work here.
I realized I did not respond to this in a phone conversation,which my brain had told me I had (?).
My message above could have been boiled down to "I totally relate. I found the only way to cope for me was to turn off the TV". It's not an attack on you...I'm curious if you feel judged or wronged or what you perceive I was saying underneath that that would cause you to feel defensive?
And even without TV, I still get in it sometimes. When Steve Irwin died, I was a wreck for weeks. And I hadn't even watched Croc Hunter since my teens.
before i entered in the ENTRY i knew you'd pipe in with "i avoid the news", i felt defensive because avoiding discomfort was not the point of the entry. i have emotional dis-regulation, i will have wild mood swings even without ANY outside influence. aside from that i feel like without a statement of "oh, that *was* sad" or "i know how you feel" or the like your reply was you telling me how *you* handle this sort of thing... i wasnt asking for advice. i "get" to feel what i feel, i felt like your response made my entry about you, what you would do, your ego. dude, Steve Irwin? i didn't even know he was on tv that long. I dont Want to block out the outside world. i don't mind that its not always rosey
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Super happy for you - that the kids are insanely awesome, that money is stabilizing for your family. This is good.
Pam was telling me yesterday the most important thing is to not get caught up in the down part. Note that it is there, it will pass. It won't last forever. Just part of the ebb and flow of life.
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the outside world leaks in to me and people seem to say i shouldn't let it, but people also say i should live in that world too, instead of just my own.
its good that avoiding the news is a functional way for you to not be bogged down, i'm glad for you. that doesn't work here.
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My message above could have been boiled down to "I totally relate. I found the only way to cope for me was to turn off the TV". It's not an attack on you...I'm curious if you feel judged or wronged or what you perceive I was saying underneath that that would cause you to feel defensive?
And even without TV, I still get in it sometimes. When Steve Irwin died, I was a wreck for weeks. And I hadn't even watched Croc Hunter since my teens.
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dude, Steve Irwin? i didn't even know he was on tv that long.
I dont Want to block out the outside world. i don't mind that its not always rosey
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