..i'm in love

this fucking sucks.  i feel like shit.  i've done a lot, but it feels like i haven't done enough.  i just want to be left alone.  there are sometimes i don't like talking, that i don't want to speak.  i just want to be left alone.  i need to be intoxicated, innebriated and fucked up beyond recollection.  3 more days until i'm out this place.  i'm ( Read more... )

disconnected.  disassociated.  discombobulated.

why can't i fuckin' sleep?
oh, i forgot
i'm on a rocky road
waiting for some smoooth sailing

loosing control never felt so good.

there's something about this town that throws me off balance.  every time i'm back in franklin, i feel the same sense of nostalgia coupled with depression.  this is stupid.  i need my life back.

The perfect environment in an automobile ever experienced.

The outside is a crisp 58degrees.  The front two windows of the AventeXD were 3/8's open.  The HVAC was set to hot all the way on number 2 and with vents to the leg and face areas open and faced towards the body.  While traveling at approximately 45MPH and placing the head in the middle of ( Read more... )

fuck that.

i forget everything. not because it just happens, but because it has to happen. our memories only bring about false comforts, joys and sorrows. why would anyone want memories? i want the real thing. and i want it all the time. everything in this life is material. lost your cell phone? buy a new one. dog dies? buy a new one. lost your arm? get a ( Read more... )

i guess this is what it feels like to be in a whole i dug myself.

even if i did have an enemy, i would never wish heartache upon them

I am tired, Beloved,
of chafing my heart against
the want of you;
of squeezing it into little inkdrops,
And posting it.

and as an afterthought, whoever said 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' had never been in love