I'm not amused anymore ( Read more... )

I am SO a lesbian now. Seriously.

I've got friends in all the right places....

Bad weekend. Boyfriend is douchebag.... but not really. More like 15 and scared of being kicked out of his clique. So edit: Boyfriend is ball-less. I'm actually kind of sad about this, he was a good candidate for me. Draco liked him. Kurt liked him. I was pretty fond of him my own damnself ( Read more... )

Can you actually be in a relationship when you never even get to see the other person? Does that really work? Because this is starting to get to me. Seriously get to me. At least once every 3 weeks would be nice.... And we are always too damned tired to talk to each other once I have actual minutes on my phone to do so. Blah ( Read more... )

I'm making offerings at the altar of lost opportunities today. I WANT him. Christmas really fucked me up. Seeing him all grown up. I still want him. All those childhood fantasies come true. And now that I can deal with it, I don't even exist. Goddammit.

I'm reading Bukowski again. Watched Wristcutters-A Love Story last night, loved it. Got my one month I'm kicking your ass out notice last night. I need money. And chocolate.

I think I'm falling into a hole I can't get out of. I'm scared I don't want to. Who the fuck am I now?

Things are good. Haha. Reading a lot. ALOT. Amazing how not having internet or cable can reawaken the bibliophile within. Babysitting as we speak. wishing I knew myself better than I do. Or maybe knew myself a little bit less. My new obsession: microbiology. Parasites and viruses and bacteria. I can't get enough. It's amazing. I wish I ( Read more... )

Kill me. Fucking kill me.