This seems pretty cut-and-dry to me. Your new lifestyle has caused termoil amongst some friends and, mostly, your mom. You're worried that having a boyfriend will only worsen things. Donovan is at school, a place where you know you have a support group. So you're worried that, by pursuing your gay lifestyle, you're going to ruin everything in your life. The way your mind sees it, the only way to prevent devastation is to "sacrifice" yourself by not being gay (meaning no lover). But you know you'll never be happy unless you live like you want to, so you're upset over losing the boy in the dream. The singing and the fantasy elements are just the best/most poignant way your mind can think to portray its fears.
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