cigarettes are sooo fucking funny.
i smoke them.

but.

i dont really get that """""relaxed, calm feeling""""" everyone talks about.

to me its more like a "i want to dieeeee feeling".

lol its not like "im calm, stressfree"

to me its more like "ah i dont wanna deal with stress im too into wanting to die right now"

yay cigs woohoo

there are so many people i knew since their first day at redondo high.
and eventhough i lost touch with alot of them,
id fucken kill for a ticket to watch them graduate tomorrow.

Ok well i think im going to start using livejournal again. i really like how all my old memories and stuff were all documented. and so i think i really wanna start this all again ( Read more... )

702 403 0422 is my new cell

call me sometime.
especially if i havent talked to you in a long time.

i miss you<3

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viva las vegas.

i never update. sorry.

julie and i are now in vegas in our hotel room.

i talked to mallory, which i havent done in a long time.

things are diffrent.

i<3julie.

i havent posted in forever.
heres my most recent picture


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i guess things have been pretty ok ( Read more... )

fun fun fun.
daniel came over.
i did _______.
marcela came over.
i did _____.
went out with my friends late at night.
drank and ______.

tonight was fun.

Livings not living [because of you].
memories and [letdowns] symbolized in tattoos.
yearning for death
still [yearning for love].
taking you with me
im now yearning of.
how sweet it could be
to watch you go before me.

drained by a whore.
i chose to confide in.
its mistake number 4.
and when her veins pour
it will be decided
[WHO DRAINED WHO MORE ( Read more... )