I have extremely mixed feelings about the mommy track. Friends from college are getting tenure and taking sabbaticals and getting second master's degrees or post-doc certificates or grants for their fancy scientific research. My baby brother is a Real Live Author. And I? Have been working at the same elementary school for TWELVE YEARS, albeit in different roles. I have 3 kids and I earned my National Boards. Sometimes I feel like a total rockstar, sometimes I feel like a walking stereotype.
The truth is somewhere in between, of course. I know I'm making a difference for more than my family, but I'd like to think a little bigger. Here's hoping that can come later. After a day of teaching and parenting, I don't have any creative energy left to actually create. The teacher schedule is great for bonding with the kids, but sometimes I'd rather spend the time in a Cognitive Sciences PhD of my own.
I think I'd feel better about derailing things now if I'd actually achieved something before. Yeah, I have two degrees, but I've not really done anything with either of them. I give myself some slack, knowing that I was fighting serious health and other crises for so long, but still. I was a prodigy. I was supposed to be ruling the world by now. :/
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The truth is somewhere in between, of course. I know I'm making a difference for more than my family, but I'd like to think a little bigger. Here's hoping that can come later. After a day of teaching and parenting, I don't have any creative energy left to actually create. The teacher schedule is great for bonding with the kids, but sometimes I'd rather spend the time in a Cognitive Sciences PhD of my own.
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