Songfic - 『 Teardrops On My Guitar 』
Title: Teardrops On My Guitar
Pairings: One-sided Akame; hinted Pin
Summary: Kazuya is in love with his childhood friend Jin. But Jin has set his eyes on Yamashita, a fellow year mate.
「 Jin looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing…
Everything that we should be
I'll bet he’s beautiful, that boy he talks about
And he’s got everything that I have to live without 」
“Hey Kazu!” I heard Jin calling me as he tried to catch up with me in school corridor. “Do you have anything planned this afternoon?” he asks enthusiastically.
I shook my head. “No… I don’t. Why?”
“Care to join me later? Let’s go to this new karaoke place.”
“Just you and me?” I ask and he nods. “Okay. Sure, why not?” I say. “What time?”
“As soon as we get out of classes.” He says and spared his wrist watch a glance. “Look, I gotta go! If I’m late, Nagase-sensei will fry my ass!” he says as he rushes to his next class.
And he stops halfway, turning to me. “Oh, I forgot to tell you! Yamashita-kun is working there!” he smiles sweetly. “That’s the reason how I found out about the new place.” he says gushingly.
I felt my heart break into a million pieces… I should have known that was the case…
I force a smile and pasted it on my face. “Really? Then maybe you can talk to him later.” I say, forcing to keep said smile in my face.
He nods earnestly. “Deshou? Don’t you think he’s gonna find it weird though?”
I shook my head. “No, I don’t think so… We’ll talk later. See you at lunch!”
“Bye~!” he says, and disappears quickly.
「 Jin talks to me, I laugh because it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night 」
I ate the bento mom prepared for me while waiting for Jin to find me in the school cafeteria.
We’ve been neighbors for as long as I can remember. And we’ve been friends as well… And when we came to school, we had so many classes together. Wherever I turn and wherever I am, I see Jin smiling and waving at me since forever.
But everything changed when he saw Yamashita Tomohisa in 6th grade…
He says he finally knew how it felt to be in love.
I wonder if he feels the same tight and hurt feeling I experience whenever I see him…
“Hey,” I didn’t even notice him sitting down in front of me. I must have been really out of it thinking about our past together. “You look like you’re in deep thought… you didn’t even notice me calling you for a couple of times now.” Jin says worriedly.
I smile. “No… I was just thinking about the quiz I have on calc tomorrow.” I say softly.
I see him pout. “Are you sure it’s okay for you to come with me later?”
I nodded and smiled. “Don’t worry. I’m pretty sure I’ll ace the exam anyways. Unlike somebody here.” I tease him softly.
He smiles at me. It’s a smile that melts my heart every single time he graces me with it.
“Hey Jin!” Yamashita-kun saunters to our table, smiling softly. “And company.” He says, turning to me, forcing a smile on his smile. A smile I returned.
“Hey, Pi.” Jin beams at him and calls the other with that cute nickname. I tried to stop the urge to throw up. “What’s up?”
“I wanna know if you wanted to go out later? My shift got cancelled…” Yamapi says shyly.
My eyes went wide and I turned to glance at Jin.
I can definitely say that he’s very much willing to accept the invitation.
And my fear came true.
“Sure.”
「 He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do 」
“See you later then…” Yamapi replied and went back to his group of friends.
Catcalls can be heard in their table.
“Jin!” I say, a bit hurt because he didn’t even bother to ask me if I minded him canceling on me. “Didn’t you say earlier that we’ll go to that new karaoke place?”
Jin, who was following Yamashita-kun’s figure, turned to me. “Huh? What about it?”
I sigh. “Didn’t you say we we’re going to that new place you were telling me this morning?”
“Ahhh… Well it won't make sense if we go there and he’s not there right?” he smiles, quite an airhead… and insensitive. That’s how he is. I wish he would stop doing this to me.
I didn’t say anything. I just kept quiet and hope he’d notice I was hurting inside.
But he never does.
I stood up. “Hey, I need to go. Since we’re not going to that new place, I might as well study for the quiz tomorrow.”
“Ehhh? But it’s not even halfway through lunch!”
“You don’t care anyways.” I say as I pick up my things, walking out on him… hoping he’ll stop me.
But he didn’t.
I tried to stop the sobs that threatened to escape my throat. I walked even faster than I did before and entered the nearest restroom to compose myself.
I didn’t notice Junno, another childhood friend of ours, following suit.
“Hey, are you okay?” he asks me, patting me in the back.
I couldn’t hold back the tears, and so I embrace him. “Junno~” I cried and cried. With Junno trying to console me with his soothing words and gestures. “I wish I never knew him… it hurts so much… Junno… what should I do?”
“Shhh…” he says, rubbing my back in circles. “Don’t worry… you’ll get over him.”
「 Jin walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
He'd better hold him tight, give him all his love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know he's lucky ‘cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do 」
Dismissal came, and I was walking back to my house, feeling nothing but dejection. I was almost out of the school gate when I spied Yamashita-kun and Jin walking out together.
He looks so happy just by talking to Yamashita-kun… Happiness… something that I can never give him…
“I hope you’re happy.” I whisper softly.
「 So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into… 」
As soon as they were gone I walked, heading to the other direction.
“Tadaima!” I say as soon as I enter my house.
Empty. As usual… nothing out of the norm. I smile bitterly and walked to the direction of my room. “Okaeri, Kazuya.” I whispered.
I slumped on my bed. I’m so emotionally drained… I don’t even have the words to explain how hurt I am feeling.
But as Junno said, everything’s gonna be okay.
And I’d like to believe it will.
I accidentally looked at my study table.
There it was… a picture of Jin with that stupid baka smile of his.
I sighed and stood up. “I’ll get over you, I promise.” I said, picking the picture frame up.
I remember all the good times we’ve shared… and some bad times usually on my part. I smile bitterly… “I guess I needed to wake up from my fantasy huh? I can’t have you… that’s the fact.”
I stared at his picture still. After a few minutes, feeling a bit refreshed, I put the frame facedown. “And I need to start now.” I say softly, still staring at the said picture. “Yes, it’ll start now.” I say, picking the frame up and threw it in the trash can.
“Tomorrow’s gonna be a fresh start for me.” I say, lying down in my bed and closed my eyes.
「 Jin looks at me…
I fake a smile so he won't see… 」
“Hey,” Jin says the next morning.
I pretended not to notice him and just continued to walk.
“Ne, Kazu?” he calls me, catching up on my strides.
“Yes?” I say, unable to ignore him now.
“Are you mad at me?” he says, twiddling his thumbs together.
I smile.
A fake one of course… but unlike the previous ones I gave him, this time I’m feeling calm… almost as if I’m not hurting. “No. Do I have a reason to be angry at you?”
That’s right… I never had the reason to be jealous over you. The realization of it hurts… but it’s a step to recovery.
He gave a sigh of relief. “Uwaaah~! I thought for a moment there, that you were angry at me.”
I shake my head. “No I wasn’t…” I say. “Not anymore.” This time, I say softly, making sure that he doesn’t hear me.
“Kazu, Yama-” he started to say and I cut him off.
“Look, Jin. I have a quiz in five minutes. I’ll go first, okay?” I retorted and walked away.
Leaving him and the feeling I felt for him, smiling a bit…
I feel… really contented… and happy.
Finally, I’m starting to move on…
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A/N: There! A One-shot based on a song… technically I should call this a song fic but I don’t see me writing more of song fics so I’m gonna put this under one-shots. XD
Oh and the song is from Taylor Swift’s ‘Teardrops on my Guitar’ I kinda tweaked the names and pronouns to match it with the characters Drew to Jin, Girl to Boy… and the works. How do you like it? This is the result of me writing less than thirty minutes and half awake… I hope it’s really not that bad. In terms of content and grammar of course!
Another week at the office… I don’t think I’m gonna be alive after this week… I’ve got so many things to do… you don’t wanna know really… So that means I won't probably update within this week. And I won't be around MSN as long as I would normally… work sucks, in short.
I don't think I've got time to post it to the comms... because as of the moment, I'm really running late for work. So I'll do it later~ XD EDIT: I just posted it to the comms~
Anyways, do leave a comment if you have time?