OH, so now I understand why I feel like shit lately, it's retrograde. Fuck. This last week or so has been hell for me and I'm not close to my monthly at all, I was like WTF, why am I feeling so down on myself and being really pessimistic about my effort in life. Agggh. Well, its good to know I'm not the only one in a hole right now. Whatever, I'll just drink it off, that always works, right?
Well, drinking doesn't help in the long run, but it often does make retrogrades pass more pleasantly. More than anything, SLACK. Stay home. Do little domestic things that please you; work on pointless art projects that probably won't be any good, just for the fun of it (I like coloring, myself). And now that most of the socializing hardcore is over with, I can hopefully chill - and if I can't, oh well... try to make the best of it... it will pass.
Duality is my superhero/supervillain name (I'm not either, and not both, thus Duality). Niki was my favorite too. More real than the others and all to recognizable sometimes.
Sometimes we just have to shut our brains off before we think too much. Smoke a bowl and let it all go up with the wisps. Tomorrow is another day, to be handled hopefully better rather than worse than today. I think there is a lot of good in you and the first step to knowing you're not totally fucked up is wondering if you might be... Broken people don't say "I'm broken" just like crazy people don't say "I'm crazy." There is still more rationale than nonsense in there, and this funk will pass, hopefully sooner rather than later.
Have a good lazy Sunday, regenerate... you deserve it. ♥
Well, Niki isn't my favorite (I waver between Sylar, Nathan, and HRG) but a lot of fans really dislike her and dis her storyline; I think the writing could have been better and I wish she'd had more screentime and explication, but her character's problems really resonated with me (the other character I identify with is Peter, of course, because I'm way too emotionally sensitive to what's going on with other people... and I wonder if it holds me back, or if it actually gives me power that less sensitive people don't have.)
I do feel better now, and I will feel even better after a proper night's sleep. Nothing has ended; there's just been a speedbump, and I missed an opportunity that might not have been a good one, anyway.
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Sometimes we just have to shut our brains off before we think too much. Smoke a bowl and let it all go up with the wisps. Tomorrow is another day, to be handled hopefully better rather than worse than today. I think there is a lot of good in you and the first step to knowing you're not totally fucked up is wondering if you might be... Broken people don't say "I'm broken" just like crazy people don't say "I'm crazy." There is still more rationale than nonsense in there, and this funk will pass, hopefully sooner rather than later.
Have a good lazy Sunday, regenerate... you deserve it. ♥
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I do feel better now, and I will feel even better after a proper night's sleep. Nothing has ended; there's just been a speedbump, and I missed an opportunity that might not have been a good one, anyway.
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