LOVE AFFAIR [one shot]
A/N: Okay. I know I shouldn't be doing this.. but i really can't get my mind off this one.. its been weighing on my mind for too long that i felt that if i don't write about this, it will be a problem for me in the future and its bad especially when remaining exams are just days away and my graduation is still far from happening and still clouded at this moment :( Mah~ I hope you enjoy this one!
LOVE AFFAIR
Jun stared for a moment at the girl who had just gone out of the black car parked in front of his own car. She was wearing a red dress cut shortly a few inches above her knee with a slit that exposed most of her skin. As she waited for her companion to come out of the car, Jun can't help but to admire the lady whose face is so pretty; but he wasn't the only one who admired her, for that very moment, every person-from men to women, who happened to pass by seemed to wonder who that girl is. Some even took a moment just to peek at her, a guy was smacked on the head by his girlfriend when he looked back just to take a glimpse of her. Jun smiled on the thought. Suddenly, there was a change in the girl's expression when the passenger's door opened and a man too old to become her lover emerged. She was standing with her back facing him so Jun did not happen to see her exact reaction but it did not prevented him to have a glimpse on the man's face which made his jaw dropped and his face creased. He heard a loud gasped inside the car which made him remember that Aiba was sitting beside him.
"I-isn't that- S-sho--ssho--chan's d-daaa-" but before the older member could finished his statement, the youngest member of ARASHI was already outside of the car, storming his way towards the "couple" whose confusion was evident the moment Jun appeared in front of them. The next thing Aiba knew, Jun was on his way back to his car, dragging the girl, rather harshly, with him.
"Get in!" Jun motioned the girl to get inside the car, but when the girl tried to force her hand off his grip, he had no choice but to shove her in.
"What's your problem?!" the girl said icily to Jun who's still outside, blocking her in case she attempted to escape.
"Aiba, you wanna drive my car right? Now's your chance" Jun told Aiba as he secured the door's lock before going to the other side to sit at the passenger side. With his current temper, it is not advisable to drive.
When at last seated, Jun turned to the girl sitting at the back. The girl probably sensed him staring because she suddenly give off a cold-hearted look.
"Would you mind telling me what's going on?" she said coldly not breaking her eye contact with Jun.
Jun was almost startled by this that he placed his hand on his forehead to keep his mind off his silly thoughts. He had to stay calm and remember that the girl was one of the kinds which he wouldn't dare touch, Over His Dead Body. Just the thought of it made his insides churn, how much more if its the deed itself?
"How much do you need to leave that man?" Jun heard himself ask. He didn't know what had gotten to him, or why he actually had the urge to do that, but he believed it was the right thing to do.
"Huh? What do you mean?" the girl asked innocently still wearing that cold expression.
"Dont "huh" me! I know your kind, woman!" Jun snapped. It was irritating that the girl denied it, but what irritated him more was that he was starting to doubt his own instincts. To add to his own dismay, the girl laughed mockingly.
"Oh! Why? Can you afford me?" She asked sarcastically. At first, she wanted to explain herself but the guy's temper was getting on her nerves that she chose to play the kind of girl he thought she was: a whore.
"Why woman? I wouldn't have drag you here if I can't. Besides. you don't look that expensive to me as how you think you are." Jun said bitterly. It was never his attitude to treat a girl in that manner but something about her was forcing him to.
"Huh! Don't be too full of yourself. That man pays really big, not even an inch of what you have to offer me." She played along. This time it was Jun's turn to laugh.
"Don't be so sure b1tch! I'll pay twice, no, thrice the amount of what that man was paying you. If that what it takes for you to leave him." He told her. As much as possible he didn't want to mention the man's name, for it will mean trouble if Sho would hear about his dad's affair. Best to stop the fire before it ignites.
"Oh, is that so? How could you possibly do that? Are you some kind of drug lord? Or perhaps a son of a mafia?" She inquired, for she wondered where the man's confidence was coming from or why was he acting like that of a king.
"Whoah?! Y-y-you don't know me?" Jun did not expect that coming from her. It came as a shock to him that there is someone from, of all places, Tokyo, who don't know him or even just a slight idea.
"Why? Should I know you? I really don't get it. You're the one who suddenly dragged me here and you expect me to know you? What are you? A moron?" She asked irritably. Its seemed she's right about the guy being too full of himself.
"Anou~ Sorry for interrupting-" Aiba stopped the car in a nearby lot before turning his attention to them, but before he could actually say his concern, the girl at the back widened her eyes as he recognized the guy behind the steering wheel.
"Kyaa~ Aiba-kun! You're Aiba right?" She gasped and then smiled. She couldn't believe that she's meeting the guy in person which left her to wonder who actually was that annoying guy beside him.
"Uwaa~ you know me?" Aiba asked, uncertain because he's more terrified about Jun's reaction. He couldn't placed how come the girl was able to recognize him right away yet does not even have a single hint as to who Jun is.
"Of course! Im always fond of animals that's why when I watched your show, I was instantly drawn to it. Sugoi! I did not expect to meet you like this. But why are you with~?" She couldn't fish out her thoughts because she suddenly remembered that Aiba's a member of a famous group, "Are? I remembered! you're that DoS member!" She said sarcastically turning to Jun whose face wrinkled upon hearing her tone.
"Not too comfortable there are we? So! Back to the topic, now that you know who I am, do we have a deal?" Jun asked impatiently.
"Not quite Mr. DoS. On one condition" She challenged.
"Oh! I din't know that even your kind had demands. i thought that-" but he was cut in midsentence.
"Of course! we're people too you know." She said matter of factly. Although she wasn't expecting that she can really pull that kind of act.
"So what it is?" Jun asked.
"From the looks of it, even if you pay me, you rather not touch me right? After all you refer me as "those kinds" which showed that even you can't stomach making out with me. If you think I will stop seeing Sakurai-san because you asked me to, I can't do that. I still have some important things to do with him. I will loose a fortune if I do that." She explained.
"What? What do you mean you can do that? You're worse than i thought you are! You're impossible b1tch." Jun shook his head in disbelief. He was totally losing it, the girl was making the matters worse. Seemed he entangled himself to a dangerous situation. But he also knew that there was no way he could backed out now.
"Oh! I thought you'll do anything just to make me leave that man? Or you rather leave me alone, let me go on with my work and pretend that this conversation never happened." She retorted. It was more challenging than she thought it would be.
"Fine. What do you want b1tch?"
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"Masami-chan, my coffee ne~?" Sho asked the moment he entered their green room.
"Hai. Ohayou Sakurai-san" She bowed at him before approaching the coffee table. It was almost a month since he asked Jun to arrange for her to become a P.A.
With some glaring and threatening, she made the DoS member to agree with her, as it was his fault in the first place for assuming that he was that kind of girl.
"How many times Mi-chan? I told you right? call me Sho." Sho told their P.A. He didn't know why, but the moment she entered the green room something about her told him that he could trust her.
"Ah.. sorry Sho-chan, I always forgot." Here's your coffee." She told him and handed the mug.
"Thanks."
Jun furrowed his eyebrows at the scene. The girl was impossible. He didn't know how she's able to stomach lying in front of her former lover's son, and worse, all the guys seemed fond of her, even Aiba who's with him that night he witnessed something despicable.
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"Isn't that your P.A?" their Manager asked him. They were currently on a nearby cafe waiting for the service to arrive. "Wait, isn't that Sho's dad? Why is she with him?" Manager-san asked his eyes on the girl who bowed her head at the man who uttered something to Masami before he entered his car.
Jun's eyes widened at the scene in front of him. It was a tough luck and for the first time, he was thankful that their manager was quite forgetful that he forgot about it the moment their service arrived.
That bitch! She'll gonna pay for this later! He thought before entering their service.
"Are? where's Mi-chan?" Ohno asked.
"She said she'll be late." Jun lied as he closed the door immediately in case Masami was still there in front of the cafe,
Few hours later..
"Mi-chan, what happened? You are so late! I didn't know that you could be that irresponsible! Where have you been? Jun told us that you're gonna be late, but i did not expect it to be this late." Nino scolded.
"Sorry.." Masami bowed her head. She felt stupid at the moment. She did not know why she chose to be silent. A while ago she was sure that Jun saw her that's why it surprised her when Jun closed the door and the van left without her. That made her hate the guy, who until now thought she was a whore, even more.
"You looked like you're in pain" Aiba asked worriedly when he noticed the girl catching her breathe.
"I-i-m fine, thanks Aiba-kun" She pretended. The truth was, she can't breathe. And the air wasn't good at that part either.
"Oh, she's fine. mind you she's more than fine." Jun told them sarcastically.
"Hey, stop that will you? Guys, you call yourselves a man yet you can't forgive a girl? How rude." Sho defended her. "can't you see? She's had trouble breathing the moment she arrived. Honestly, its not that we need her service now right?" Sho preached before motioning Masami to sit. "Please rest Mi-chan" Sho said, pinching her cheek which blushed to a shade of rosy pink.
"Thanks Sho..but this is my work, so let me do it properly." She insisted and stood immediately to do some P.A works.
Sho stared seriously at the guys who immediately focus their attentions on different things, not wanting to meet the rapper's eyes for they knew what was he going to tell them: "You guys are stupid" Sho muttered under his breath.
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the clock reads 2am, yet Masami was disturbed by the continuous banging on her door. Unwillingly, she got up from her bed and headed to her apartment door without bothering to wear her robe.
Jun was distracted by the the image of the girl in front of him. he was expecting that she was already asleep and that he disturbed her, but did not expect that she was wearing flimsy clothes that anyone can see through her underclothes. Jun swallowed hard when he felt his body respond at the sight. The air was suddenly hot and the atmosphere give off some uneasy feeling.
"What do you want Matsujun? Isn't it enough for you that I was forced to ride that jammed bus just to be able to get to your location? And now, you're banging my door right at the moment when I was sleeping. Seriously, how long do you plan on torturing me before you get satisfied?" Masami's face creased when she saw who was her unwanted visitor.
"Oh! until you stop seeing that man! I told you didn't i? You broke your promise! look! the reason why I even got to the extent of asking Johnny to permit you to be our PA was that I thought you would keep your word, but how can I be that stupid? I knew it! I shouldn't have trusted your "kind" in the first place." Jun mocked her as if she was some kind of plague that he should be disposing.
"Oh i guess you saw that huh,, was that the reason why you pretended that you did not see me even if you did?" She asked calmly.
"Hell yeah! How do you supposed me to react on that? And you're not even surprised at all" Jun stormed his way inside her apartment, leaving her no choice but to follow him and closed the door behind her. But it was a wrong move because the moment she turn around, her eyes met Jun's piercing eyes that she literally moved back until her back was against the door which Jun saw as an opportunity for the man approached right away and grip her hand and pinned it against the door. As she struggled to get her hands off from his grip, it only made Jun grip her wrist more tightly that her hands gone white as soon as the blood was prevented from flowing through her veins. She glared at the man whose face was inches away from her that she could clearly smell the scent of alcohol in Jun's system.
"I don't know what your motives are b1tch, and I don't want to know either! but I assure you, I won't stop torturing you until the day you regret it, no, even if you say you regret it, that won't suffice. You're unforgivable! I won't stop until you shed blood tears." Jun threatened. "Why Masami? why? don't you like younger men? Why do you keep on clinging to Sho's dad?" Jun asked, his eyes full of hatred. "Fine, I'll do you some favor even if it meant breaking my promise with my own self not to touch any woman of your kind." And with that, Jun bridge the gap between them, and kissed her brutely, wounding her lips, until he actually tasted the blood from it. "Why Masami? Isn't this enough? Do you prefer an old man's kiss than this?" Jun asked her, his tongue forcing its way to open her half-opened mouth. "Do you prefer an old man's touch than this?" He asked as he brutally cupped her breast making her winced at the pain.
"Why that face bitch? Don't you enjoy it?" Jun said smugly, stopping for a moment on what he was doing. Masami did not reply. She expected Jun to hate him, but she didn't know that his hatred would gone to that extent. Her heart was aching, as she tried to breathe in some air, Jun stared at her coldly. Disgust mixed with hatred is written all over the man's face.
"Speechless are we? Dont give me that face Masami, I wouldn't be fooled by that again. Good for you, I was on the mood right now" Jun told her before pushing his body against her, making her feel that lower part of him that was already hard beneath his jeans. "So i think you'll do." Jun insulted her before ravishing her mouth again. "i'll do?" those words were enough to make her come to her senses. Even a whore would backed out hearing that insolent word. She tried to push the man, but Jun was too strong for her. If truth be told, she'll be more willing to give herself to Jun, but hearing his words, its just too much for her .She had lost her interest on the spot just by hearing those words. She didn't care anymore. .she's bound to lose it anyway, so why care if she lose it to the guy who at that moment thought of her as some kind of a dirty woman. She didn't care anymore. She wouldn't give a damn about it. With those thoughts, she just let him do her as he pleased. She didn't even bother to shed a single tear as pain seared through her entire body when Jun penetrated her.
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"damn!" Jun muttered. Memories of that night kept on haunting him. "Damn." He told himself again before heaving a sigh. He made himself believed that the reason why he'd done it was because he wanted to push her to her limits, but the truth is, he wanted her for himself. His ego can't take it when he saw how she was lovey-dovey with Sho's dad that night when he first saw her. No one knows how he felt stabbed that day when he saw her again with Sho's dad. But what pained him most was how he accused her of being a whore when in fact she's not, he realized that on the night when he stormed her apartment; for she was a virgin when he took her.
"Guys, my dad invited us for dinner, what do you think?"Sho asked them all of a sudden which snapped Jun out of his reverie.
"Uwaa~ let's go! let's go. Ne~ Ridaa, we'll go right?" Aiba asked Ohno excitedly.
"Um~ I guess its okay, but we have to check our schedule first." Ohno told the younger member.
"Tsk. Where is Mi-chan when we need her?" Nino blurted out of nowhere. Without the guys knowledge, he was actually trying to traced her for the past months. But the moments he arrived at her apartment, it had been emptied a day prior to his arrival.
"Yeah.. i wonder where she is now.. I mean she just suddenly disappeared two months ago without even leaving a word. I think we do need to find a replacement though.." Aiba felt sad at the moment. Although he had seen it with his own eyes, he still was not convinced that she was what Jun thought she was. The way she conversed with him, she seemed very intelligent.
"Hmm.. Its because you guys were so harsh to her." Sho scolded. "Remember? That happened after the day when all of you acted stupidly. Anyway, i already check our schedule and we're all free tonight."
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It was such a fine restaurant. As expected from Sho's dad, everything was at its finest. The ambience, the food, the lightings, all was thought out well.
"Dad, i thought you're inviting Ami-chan over? but how come she hasn't arrived yet? and it was the time for the second course." Sho's sister asked over the table.
"Ami-chan? Who's that?" Aiba was too curious to asked which earned him a stomped on the foot by Nino.
"Ah, she's a childhood friend. Ne~ nii-chan do you remember the girl whose parents' was ambushed by terrorist because they were witnesses of a brutal crime?" Mai asked Sho.
"Ah~hai. Wait, you have contact with her? But it was nearly 15 years since that." Sho asked, suddenly bothered by something he couldn't placed what.
"Nope, Dad did. He met her during her thesis defense where Dad was scouted to be one of the judges. Right dad?" the girl asked her father.
"Right. I couldn't believe it at first, but when I checked her profile., it was no mistake. It was Masami-chan." Sakurai-san told them.
"M-m-asami-chan?" it was Nino this time.
"Yes. That kid, no matter what happens, she wouldn't ask for assistance if she can help it. Matsumoto-san, Remember that night when you suddenly come across us and dragged her away from me? I was actually offering her some scholarship but she refused it saying it was out of her conviction to accept something without giving some effort; so when she told me that she manage to have some work, it took me days to actually get her to tell me where she's working. So when I learned that she's working with you, I was able to rest my mind a bit.But i thought you guys are with her? that's the reason why I invited you."
"Anou~ She's not our PA anymore.. " Aiba replied with the sad expression in his eyes.
"Eh? How long?" It was Sho's mom who asked this time.
"Two months.." Sho answered. "You know her too Mama?"
"Yes. You see, one of her professor was a friend of mine, so when I learned that she's been supporting herself for 8 years now, from highschool to college, I was moved by her guts that I actually offered to be her sponsor, but like what your dad told you, she also refused it." Sho's mom told them.
"Although, your mom and I believe that she probably don't want to bother us..as it was apparent that she longed for a family. So when she told me around that time, when she's still working as your PA, that being with you guys was like having a family, I was glad. But how come she quit?" the man asked them.
"Hmmm.. its our fault dad,. we're too harsh on~" Sho's voice trailed off because his attention was caught by a girl who had just entered the restaurant.
"Ami-chan!" Mai waved. Masami smiled when she recognized Mai, but her face immediately turned sour when she saw Jun.
The guys couldn't believe their eyes. After two months of not seeing her, Masami looked different from how they remembered her. The pretty face was still there, but her complexion was too pale that they actually did not recognize her until Mai waved her hands to the girl. She was too slim, probably lost 3-5kg from the last time they saw her. Her eyes was a little off because of the dark circles forming around her eyes. one word to describe her: STRESS.
"G-good evening" Masami bowed her head so low that it took her seconds to realized that she was bowing too long. "Hello Mai-chan, I missed you" She smiled at Mai who smiled back and motioned her to sit between Shu and her. "Hello Shu," She pinched the younger guy's cheek "Doing well?" The guy nodded.
"Good evening ARASHI-san, its been a while." She greet them formally which did not escape Sakuari-san's notice.
"Hey, why so formal child? And here i thought you'd be happy to see your former employers." Sakurai-san smiled at her.
"Because you did not mention that you're inviting them." Masami replied simply.
"Same thing as when you never mentioned that you quit your job as their PA. So we're even" the older man replied smartly. "I thought you're fond of them Ami-chan, so why quit?"
"Ah~ its stressing me out.. besides I'm not doing my job properly, I was even reprimanded because I was often late. " She lied. The truth is, she can't work with Jun around especially after what he did to her, but she can't tell them that.
"I never knew you were that irresponsible." Sakurai told her exactly the same words as Nino's from two months ago.
"Sorry.. well., I quit so they don't have to put up with an inefficient PA like me." she retorted.
"But what about your studies Ami-chan?" Sho's mom asked her worriedly.
"Um, barely surviving Ma'am. Don't worry, I manage to find some job so I probably can take the special exam." She smiled awkwardly. As much as she didn't want to lie, ARASHI's presence was making her to.
"Probably? But neechan, from the looks of it, that job was not doing any good to you. Look at you, no offense neechan, you're still pretty but i swear you're prettier 2 months ago and I say, you're glowing." Shu commented.
"Hey son, no swearing in front of dinner. But he's right you know, you looked exhausted and you're too pale." Sakurai observed.
"And the last time I checked you moved out of your apartment." Mai informed them.
"Eh? why is that dear?" Sho's mom asked who looked more worried than a while ago.
"Hmm, because I found some cheaper place, so i moved out. Besides, I don't have the leisure to pay that apartment especially when I still have my thesis to work at. Mah~ too much about me.. don't worry Yuko-san, I may not look like it, but I'm really fine.."
"But Mi-chan, what is your work now?" Aiba finally managed to ask her after contemplating for a while.
"oh, Aiba-kun I thought you probably know by now, in the first place that was how your youngest member thought of me the first time you both saw me right?" She replied with a weak smile. Aiba gasped and Jun's mouth was left gaping.
"Huh? what thought?" this time it was Nino who asked.
"Oh, funny Ninomiya-san, the first time they met me, Matsumoto-san thought i was some kind of whore, even Aiba-kun did. Well, I can't blame him though, because the scene he'd witnessed was when Sho-chan's dad hugged me,.but then, it was a fatherly hug." She told them, as if just telling some random story.
"Eh? Hontou? that was hilarious neechan..and I can't possibly imagine that Aiba-niichan thought that too." Shu remarked.
"Yeah.. pretty hilarious."
"So you're saying that NOW you're working as one?" Sakurai asked her seriously.
"Iie. Although the place I'm working at had that kind of reputation. I worked as a cashier, a janitress, and sometimes as a repair person. I'd rather die than worked as one Shuji-san. Besides, I shouldn't have worked with sweat and blood in pursuing my studies if I will just end up like one. So don't worry ne~" She still managed to say despite of her buckling knees. Talking to Sho's dad really scared her sometimes.
"No wonder you looked like a zombie to me Ami-chan, those kinds of work opened at night time right?. Shu was right, that place is no good for you." Mai told her. "Its Saturday tomorrow, why not sleep over?" Mai asked her which caught her off guard.
"Oh, that's right dear, I would love to if you agreed." Sho's mom said delightedly.
"Besides neechan, I do believe you really should have some rest." Shu pointed out.
"Um, okay. I guess it won't hurt If i ditch work for a day." Masami finally agreed.
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"You again? the last time you gate crashed was at my apartment. Its amazing how you're able to know my work place." She told him irritably. She did not know that Jun can be that annoying. Eversince he saw her during the dinner with Sho's family, and forced the guys to also sleep over at Sho's place, Jun never leave her after that. He even had the nerve to call her 'Masami' which was very intimate for her. It was really troublesome because she really had no idea how the guy was able to know her number, her email, her course, and recently her work place.
"Yes. I'm here. Just checking if you're telling the truth when you told them you were working as a cashier." Jun lied.
"and what do you say Matsumoto-san?" She challenged.
"Hmm.. well I guess its true. Although I doubt when I leave if its still the case, so I probably hang-out here for a while." Jun told her simply.
"Are you nuts? If someone recognized you, it'll cause gossips, especially in your reputation." She lectured.
"why Masami? Would you care if its the case?" Jun smirked at her.
"o-of course not! heh! this conversation wasn't going anywhere." She stuttered which made Jun broke into a wide grin.
"Well, see you around Masami." Jun said before leaving the counter.
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"I can't believe this! Even Sho's dad wasn't able to found out about this place, how come you're here?" Masami grunted at the man who was standing outside her apartment.
"Well, its easy, I just asked those guys from the neighborhood if they knew a pretty lady who live nearby, and its amazing that all of them point out here..seemed you're pretty famous huh? Now I'm jealous.."Jun muttered.
"Hey, move over will you? So that I could open the door." She told the guy who moved few steps away, giving her way to open the door. When she finally managed to go inside, she immediately closed the door, but Jun probably sensed this.
"Not too fast Masami."Jun chuckled before forcing his way inside. It was like a dejavu of that night. the only difference was that he was not there out of hatred.
"What do you want Matsumoto?"She said purposely omitting the word 'san'.
"Hmm, you know what I want."Jun told her honestly. before she could react, Jun claimed her lips which unlike before, she instinctlively reacted like how a normal girl will react, but instead of landing on the man's face, her hand was caught by Jun's hand. When she finally calmed down., Jun released her.
While still catching his breath, "I know its too late.. but I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry. I never meant it like that. It was never supposed to be like that.. but I was blinded that time by what I see."Jun told her.
"Blinded? and what now? You've seen? hah! "You think I'll accept that? Pathetic Matsumoto-san!"She bellowed. This time it was her turn to rage. "You don't know how much it hurt me when you insulted me like that. You don't know! That's why you don't have the right to judge me like what you did that night!
"Hey, I'm sorry.. I said I'm sorry.." jun could only say.. he knew its going to be a long way before she actually accept his apology.
"Who punched your light on?" She asked, still shaking in anger.
"The guys did. Sho hit me real hard. I still have the bruises if you wanna see. Aiba preached like a moron, but all he said was true. Ridaa comforted me but in the end, he called me idiot for doing so. and Nino, that brat won't talked to me unless I reconcile with you.. until now, he still refuses on talking to me, which was ironic because of all the guys he seemed to be the one who cared less when it concerned you, but we found out recently that for these past months, he had been trying to find you which suggested that he really cared.
"So are you saying that you're doing these because of them? You're hopeless Matsumoto, go home. just go home."this talk is useless." She reigned herself on the sofa.. she was too tired to stay on a standing position.
"Hopeless you say?"Jun furrowed his eyebrows. He didn't have even a single ounce of alcohol in his system, yet he's mind was dozing off. He didn't know why he felt frustrated hearing her say flatly to his face that he was hopeless. It cut deep within him. He did not wanted to force his way on her, but it was his only last chance to tell her what he really thought for he was no good at words, the more he talks, the more the situation get worse.
"Yeah, i'm hopeless!" He exclaimed before moving towards her. Masami moved back, still on a sitting position, until the back of her head hit dead end. Jun took this as an opportunity that he threw himself on top of her, pulled her closer , so that her body was pinned flatly against the soft cushion. He stayed on that position before looking straightly to her face. "im really hopeless..here i am on top of you, yet I couldn't say what I wanna say... Im doing what I thought was best in conveying my feelings toward you because I'm afraid that every word that will come out of my mouth might not exactly be the way as to how I wanted it to be.. as much as I wanted to express my feelings I end up messing it.. my mouth always get ahead of my mind that I speak without thinking and when I actually had the time to think, I couldn't simply withdraw the words that had been said..like that night when i banged your apartment door.. I made myself believe that I hated you because of what I thought you are but the truth was I hated myself for being jealous.. to the extent that I did what I did.. I'm always able to control myself, even when I'm drunk.. but that moment when you opened the door and you in your flimsy night dress appeared in front of me.. what man would not marvel how good it will be to feel and to hold the body of such a beautiful and dazzling lady,.. and my body responded right a way.. "Jun told her, putting the bits and pieces of his emotion onto every word that he uttered, hoping just hoping that he'll be able to reach out to her.
"You can't fool me Matsumoto" She told him without blinking. "You really are an actor.. I wonder how long did it took you to practice those lines."She said coldly.
"I probably am, but those were no lines from a drama or whatever,, those words comes from here. from here Masami." Jun told her, placing her hand on top of his chest. "I know I'd done you wrong..but I never expected you to be this heartless Masami."Jun stated. The pain in his chest was starting to affect his entire being that made it difficult for him to keep his cool.
"Im not heartless Matsumoto.. you are.. look.. you're just doing this to rub yourself off from the guilt you felt that night. Well, sorry to say, but you have to keep on regretting as long as you live Matsumoto, now would you please get off me?"
"Regret? I never said I regretted it! Well, at first I thought I regret it, but i thought it'll be unfair to the other party if I feel that way, especially when that party involved the girl I love..what am I supposed to do for you to believe me?" Jun asked in frustration.
"Its your problem not mine. "
"Hell yeah, its my problem, and here's what I plan: I won't get off you until you believed me. and have you forgotten? Im also capable on doing this" with that said, Jun kissed her hungrily, claiming and wanting while his hands traveled across her body which shivered on every part where his hands landed, sending sparks all over her entire being as the heat which was suppressed a while ago enclosed both their bodies.
Masami's defenses slowly melted away. somewhere in her heart she wanted to believe all the words that Jun had told her, but she was afraid because all Jun did was tell her how sorry he was.. but when he flatly stated that he never regretted doing it, her heart skipped a beat for that tiny hope it felt when the guy said those words. In order to comfort herself more, she pretended that she still doesn't care when in fact, her heart was leaping for joy the moment he told her about the girl he love. Because it amused her seeing Jun struggled for words, she did a little acting until she's finally able to assure herself that Jun really meant it...
"You don't know how happy I was that time when I found out that I am your first.. maybe to some it didn't matter, but for me it really mattered because that was when I was able to find the answer and realized what my true feelings are.."Jun told her afterwards.
"What if I am what you thought I was? Would you still care?" Masami qustioned him, although it really did not matter to her.
"first let me correct it, its not care, its LOVE. and to answer your question, I love you the moment I first saw you.. I was just clouded by my own thoughts,,"jun told her honestly.
"excuses.."Masami chuckled. "Its my turn.
"What turn?" Jun asked puzzled.
"Its my turn to explain myself."
"Oh no need Masami.. the moment you give yourself to me, I knew right away how you feel.."Jun told her confidently.
"Hey. Mr. DoS, you really are a conceited being."
"Well thank you my real beautiful b1tch."
"wow, are you telling me that Masami is a b1tch?"
"Nope. Im just wondering, your name suit you just fine. "REAL" "BEAUTIFUL" and my own personal b1tch."
"Why does "b1tch" sounded so good even if the meaning is bad?"She asked her amusedly.
"Well, its because I am the one who's speaking to you."
"You really are a DoS.conceited, too full of yourself...funny thing was, even knowing that, I still can't prevent myself from falling in love with you" Masami confessed which left Jun's mouth partially opened because of the shock., she took this as an opportunity and claimed his lips once more.
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LOVE AFFAIR
Jun stared for a moment at the girl who had just gone out of the black car parked in front of his own car. She was wearing a red dress cut shortly a few inches above her knee with a slit that exposed most of her skin. As she waited for her companion to come out of the car, Jun can't help but to admire the lady whose face is so pretty; but he wasn't the only one who admired her, for that very moment, every person-from men to women, who happened to pass by seemed to wonder who that girl is. Some even took a moment just to peek at her, a guy was smacked on the head by his girlfriend when he looked back just to take a glimpse of her. Jun smiled on the thought. Suddenly, there was a change in the girl's expression when the passenger's door opened and a man too old to become her lover emerged. She was standing with her back facing him so Jun did not happen to see her exact reaction but it did not prevented him to have a glimpse on the man's face which made his jaw dropped and his face creased. He heard a loud gasped inside the car which made him remember that Aiba was sitting beside him.
"I-isn't that- S-sho--ssho--chan's d-daaa-" but before the older member could finished his statement, the youngest member of ARASHI was already outside of the car, storming his way towards the "couple" whose confusion was evident the moment Jun appeared in front of them. The next thing Aiba knew, Jun was on his way back to his car, dragging the girl, rather harshly, with him.
"Get in!" Jun motioned the girl to get inside the car, but when the girl tried to force her hand off his grip, he had no choice but to shove her in.
"What's your problem?!" the girl said icily to Jun who's still outside, blocking her in case she attempted to escape.
"Aiba, you wanna drive my car right? Now's your chance" Jun told Aiba as he secured the door's lock before going to the other side to sit at the passenger side. With his current temper, it is not advisable to drive.
When at last seated, Jun turned to the girl sitting at the back. The girl probably sensed him staring because she suddenly give off a cold-hearted look.
"Would you mind telling me what's going on?" she said coldly not breaking her eye contact with Jun.
Jun was almost startled by this that he placed his hand on his forehead to keep his mind off his silly thoughts. He had to stay calm and remember that the girl was one of the kinds which he wouldn't dare touch, Over His Dead Body. Just the thought of it made his insides churn, how much more if its the deed itself?
"How much do you need to leave that man?" Jun heard himself ask. He didn't know what had gotten to him, or why he actually had the urge to do that, but he believed it was the right thing to do.
"Huh? What do you mean?" the girl asked innocently still wearing that cold expression.
"Dont "huh" me! I know your kind, woman!" Jun snapped. It was irritating that the girl denied it, but what irritated him more was that he was starting to doubt his own instincts. To add to his own dismay, the girl laughed mockingly.
"Oh! Why? Can you afford me?" She asked sarcastically. At first, she wanted to explain herself but the guy's temper was getting on her nerves that she chose to play the kind of girl he thought she was: a whore.
"Why woman? I wouldn't have drag you here if I can't. Besides. you don't look that expensive to me as how you think you are." Jun said bitterly. It was never his attitude to treat a girl in that manner but something about her was forcing him to.
"Huh! Don't be too full of yourself. That man pays really big, not even an inch of what you have to offer me." She played along. This time it was Jun's turn to laugh.
"Don't be so sure b1tch! I'll pay twice, no, thrice the amount of what that man was paying you. If that what it takes for you to leave him." He told her. As much as possible he didn't want to mention the man's name, for it will mean trouble if Sho would hear about his dad's affair. Best to stop the fire before it ignites.
"Oh, is that so? How could you possibly do that? Are you some kind of drug lord? Or perhaps a son of a mafia?" She inquired, for she wondered where the man's confidence was coming from or why was he acting like that of a king.
"Whoah?! Y-y-you don't know me?" Jun did not expect that coming from her. It came as a shock to him that there is someone from, of all places, Tokyo, who don't know him or even just a slight idea.
"Why? Should I know you? I really don't get it. You're the one who suddenly dragged me here and you expect me to know you? What are you? A moron?" She asked irritably. Its seemed she's right about the guy being too full of himself.
"Anou~ Sorry for interrupting-" Aiba stopped the car in a nearby lot before turning his attention to them, but before he could actually say his concern, the girl at the back widened her eyes as he recognized the guy behind the steering wheel.
"Kyaa~ Aiba-kun! You're Aiba right?" She gasped and then smiled. She couldn't believe that she's meeting the guy in person which left her to wonder who actually was that annoying guy beside him.
"Uwaa~ you know me?" Aiba asked, uncertain because he's more terrified about Jun's reaction. He couldn't placed how come the girl was able to recognize him right away yet does not even have a single hint as to who Jun is.
"Of course! Im always fond of animals that's why when I watched your show, I was instantly drawn to it. Sugoi! I did not expect to meet you like this. But why are you with~?" She couldn't fish out her thoughts because she suddenly remembered that Aiba's a member of a famous group, "Are? I remembered! you're that DoS member!" She said sarcastically turning to Jun whose face wrinkled upon hearing her tone.
"Not too comfortable there are we? So! Back to the topic, now that you know who I am, do we have a deal?" Jun asked impatiently.
"Not quite Mr. DoS. On one condition" She challenged.
"Oh! I din't know that even your kind had demands. i thought that-" but he was cut in midsentence.
"Of course! we're people too you know." She said matter of factly. Although she wasn't expecting that she can really pull that kind of act.
"So what it is?" Jun asked.
"From the looks of it, even if you pay me, you rather not touch me right? After all you refer me as "those kinds" which showed that even you can't stomach making out with me. If you think I will stop seeing Sakurai-san because you asked me to, I can't do that. I still have some important things to do with him. I will loose a fortune if I do that." She explained.
"What? What do you mean you can do that? You're worse than i thought you are! You're impossible b1tch." Jun shook his head in disbelief. He was totally losing it, the girl was making the matters worse. Seemed he entangled himself to a dangerous situation. But he also knew that there was no way he could backed out now.
"Oh! I thought you'll do anything just to make me leave that man? Or you rather leave me alone, let me go on with my work and pretend that this conversation never happened." She retorted. It was more challenging than she thought it would be.
"Fine. What do you want b1tch?"
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"Masami-chan, my coffee ne~?" Sho asked the moment he entered their green room.
"Hai. Ohayou Sakurai-san" She bowed at him before approaching the coffee table. It was almost a month since he asked Jun to arrange for her to become a P.A.
With some glaring and threatening, she made the DoS member to agree with her, as it was his fault in the first place for assuming that he was that kind of girl.
"How many times Mi-chan? I told you right? call me Sho." Sho told their P.A. He didn't know why, but the moment she entered the green room something about her told him that he could trust her.
"Ah.. sorry Sho-chan, I always forgot." Here's your coffee." She told him and handed the mug.
"Thanks."
Jun furrowed his eyebrows at the scene. The girl was impossible. He didn't know how she's able to stomach lying in front of her former lover's son, and worse, all the guys seemed fond of her, even Aiba who's with him that night he witnessed something despicable.
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"Isn't that your P.A?" their Manager asked him. They were currently on a nearby cafe waiting for the service to arrive. "Wait, isn't that Sho's dad? Why is she with him?" Manager-san asked his eyes on the girl who bowed her head at the man who uttered something to Masami before he entered his car.
Jun's eyes widened at the scene in front of him. It was a tough luck and for the first time, he was thankful that their manager was quite forgetful that he forgot about it the moment their service arrived.
That bitch! She'll gonna pay for this later! He thought before entering their service.
"Are? where's Mi-chan?" Ohno asked.
"She said she'll be late." Jun lied as he closed the door immediately in case Masami was still there in front of the cafe,
Few hours later..
"Mi-chan, what happened? You are so late! I didn't know that you could be that irresponsible! Where have you been? Jun told us that you're gonna be late, but i did not expect it to be this late." Nino scolded.
"Sorry.." Masami bowed her head. She felt stupid at the moment. She did not know why she chose to be silent. A while ago she was sure that Jun saw her that's why it surprised her when Jun closed the door and the van left without her. That made her hate the guy, who until now thought she was a whore, even more.
"You looked like you're in pain" Aiba asked worriedly when he noticed the girl catching her breathe.
"I-i-m fine, thanks Aiba-kun" She pretended. The truth was, she can't breathe. And the air wasn't good at that part either.
"Oh, she's fine. mind you she's more than fine." Jun told them sarcastically.
"Hey, stop that will you? Guys, you call yourselves a man yet you can't forgive a girl? How rude." Sho defended her. "can't you see? She's had trouble breathing the moment she arrived. Honestly, its not that we need her service now right?" Sho preached before motioning Masami to sit. "Please rest Mi-chan" Sho said, pinching her cheek which blushed to a shade of rosy pink.
"Thanks Sho..but this is my work, so let me do it properly." She insisted and stood immediately to do some P.A works.
Sho stared seriously at the guys who immediately focus their attentions on different things, not wanting to meet the rapper's eyes for they knew what was he going to tell them: "You guys are stupid" Sho muttered under his breath.
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the clock reads 2am, yet Masami was disturbed by the continuous banging on her door. Unwillingly, she got up from her bed and headed to her apartment door without bothering to wear her robe.
Jun was distracted by the the image of the girl in front of him. he was expecting that she was already asleep and that he disturbed her, but did not expect that she was wearing flimsy clothes that anyone can see through her underclothes. Jun swallowed hard when he felt his body respond at the sight. The air was suddenly hot and the atmosphere give off some uneasy feeling.
"What do you want Matsujun? Isn't it enough for you that I was forced to ride that jammed bus just to be able to get to your location? And now, you're banging my door right at the moment when I was sleeping. Seriously, how long do you plan on torturing me before you get satisfied?" Masami's face creased when she saw who was her unwanted visitor.
"Oh! until you stop seeing that man! I told you didn't i? You broke your promise! look! the reason why I even got to the extent of asking Johnny to permit you to be our PA was that I thought you would keep your word, but how can I be that stupid? I knew it! I shouldn't have trusted your "kind" in the first place." Jun mocked her as if she was some kind of plague that he should be disposing.
"Oh i guess you saw that huh,, was that the reason why you pretended that you did not see me even if you did?" She asked calmly.
"Hell yeah! How do you supposed me to react on that? And you're not even surprised at all" Jun stormed his way inside her apartment, leaving her no choice but to follow him and closed the door behind her. But it was a wrong move because the moment she turn around, her eyes met Jun's piercing eyes that she literally moved back until her back was against the door which Jun saw as an opportunity for the man approached right away and grip her hand and pinned it against the door. As she struggled to get her hands off from his grip, it only made Jun grip her wrist more tightly that her hands gone white as soon as the blood was prevented from flowing through her veins. She glared at the man whose face was inches away from her that she could clearly smell the scent of alcohol in Jun's system.
"I don't know what your motives are b1tch, and I don't want to know either! but I assure you, I won't stop torturing you until the day you regret it, no, even if you say you regret it, that won't suffice. You're unforgivable! I won't stop until you shed blood tears." Jun threatened. "Why Masami? why? don't you like younger men? Why do you keep on clinging to Sho's dad?" Jun asked, his eyes full of hatred. "Fine, I'll do you some favor even if it meant breaking my promise with my own self not to touch any woman of your kind." And with that, Jun bridge the gap between them, and kissed her brutely, wounding her lips, until he actually tasted the blood from it. "Why Masami? Isn't this enough? Do you prefer an old man's kiss than this?" Jun asked her, his tongue forcing its way to open her half-opened mouth. "Do you prefer an old man's touch than this?" He asked as he brutally cupped her breast making her winced at the pain.
"Why that face bitch? Don't you enjoy it?" Jun said smugly, stopping for a moment on what he was doing. Masami did not reply. She expected Jun to hate him, but she didn't know that his hatred would gone to that extent. Her heart was aching, as she tried to breathe in some air, Jun stared at her coldly. Disgust mixed with hatred is written all over the man's face.
"Speechless are we? Dont give me that face Masami, I wouldn't be fooled by that again. Good for you, I was on the mood right now" Jun told her before pushing his body against her, making her feel that lower part of him that was already hard beneath his jeans. "So i think you'll do." Jun insulted her before ravishing her mouth again. "i'll do?" those words were enough to make her come to her senses. Even a whore would backed out hearing that insolent word. She tried to push the man, but Jun was too strong for her. If truth be told, she'll be more willing to give herself to Jun, but hearing his words, its just too much for her .She had lost her interest on the spot just by hearing those words. She didn't care anymore. .she's bound to lose it anyway, so why care if she lose it to the guy who at that moment thought of her as some kind of a dirty woman. She didn't care anymore. She wouldn't give a damn about it. With those thoughts, she just let him do her as he pleased. She didn't even bother to shed a single tear as pain seared through her entire body when Jun penetrated her.
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"damn!" Jun muttered. Memories of that night kept on haunting him. "Damn." He told himself again before heaving a sigh. He made himself believed that the reason why he'd done it was because he wanted to push her to her limits, but the truth is, he wanted her for himself. His ego can't take it when he saw how she was lovey-dovey with Sho's dad that night when he first saw her. No one knows how he felt stabbed that day when he saw her again with Sho's dad. But what pained him most was how he accused her of being a whore when in fact she's not, he realized that on the night when he stormed her apartment; for she was a virgin when he took her.
"Guys, my dad invited us for dinner, what do you think?"Sho asked them all of a sudden which snapped Jun out of his reverie.
"Uwaa~ let's go! let's go. Ne~ Ridaa, we'll go right?" Aiba asked Ohno excitedly.
"Um~ I guess its okay, but we have to check our schedule first." Ohno told the younger member.
"Tsk. Where is Mi-chan when we need her?" Nino blurted out of nowhere. Without the guys knowledge, he was actually trying to traced her for the past months. But the moments he arrived at her apartment, it had been emptied a day prior to his arrival.
"Yeah.. i wonder where she is now.. I mean she just suddenly disappeared two months ago without even leaving a word. I think we do need to find a replacement though.." Aiba felt sad at the moment. Although he had seen it with his own eyes, he still was not convinced that she was what Jun thought she was. The way she conversed with him, she seemed very intelligent.
"Hmm.. Its because you guys were so harsh to her." Sho scolded. "Remember? That happened after the day when all of you acted stupidly. Anyway, i already check our schedule and we're all free tonight."
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It was such a fine restaurant. As expected from Sho's dad, everything was at its finest. The ambience, the food, the lightings, all was thought out well.
"Dad, i thought you're inviting Ami-chan over? but how come she hasn't arrived yet? and it was the time for the second course." Sho's sister asked over the table.
"Ami-chan? Who's that?" Aiba was too curious to asked which earned him a stomped on the foot by Nino.
"Ah, she's a childhood friend. Ne~ nii-chan do you remember the girl whose parents' was ambushed by terrorist because they were witnesses of a brutal crime?" Mai asked Sho.
"Ah~hai. Wait, you have contact with her? But it was nearly 15 years since that." Sho asked, suddenly bothered by something he couldn't placed what.
"Nope, Dad did. He met her during her thesis defense where Dad was scouted to be one of the judges. Right dad?" the girl asked her father.
"Right. I couldn't believe it at first, but when I checked her profile., it was no mistake. It was Masami-chan." Sakurai-san told them.
"M-m-asami-chan?" it was Nino this time.
"Yes. That kid, no matter what happens, she wouldn't ask for assistance if she can help it. Matsumoto-san, Remember that night when you suddenly come across us and dragged her away from me? I was actually offering her some scholarship but she refused it saying it was out of her conviction to accept something without giving some effort; so when she told me that she manage to have some work, it took me days to actually get her to tell me where she's working. So when I learned that she's working with you, I was able to rest my mind a bit.But i thought you guys are with her? that's the reason why I invited you."
"Anou~ She's not our PA anymore.. " Aiba replied with the sad expression in his eyes.
"Eh? How long?" It was Sho's mom who asked this time.
"Two months.." Sho answered. "You know her too Mama?"
"Yes. You see, one of her professor was a friend of mine, so when I learned that she's been supporting herself for 8 years now, from highschool to college, I was moved by her guts that I actually offered to be her sponsor, but like what your dad told you, she also refused it." Sho's mom told them.
"Although, your mom and I believe that she probably don't want to bother us..as it was apparent that she longed for a family. So when she told me around that time, when she's still working as your PA, that being with you guys was like having a family, I was glad. But how come she quit?" the man asked them.
"Hmmm.. its our fault dad,. we're too harsh on~" Sho's voice trailed off because his attention was caught by a girl who had just entered the restaurant.
"Ami-chan!" Mai waved. Masami smiled when she recognized Mai, but her face immediately turned sour when she saw Jun.
The guys couldn't believe their eyes. After two months of not seeing her, Masami looked different from how they remembered her. The pretty face was still there, but her complexion was too pale that they actually did not recognize her until Mai waved her hands to the girl. She was too slim, probably lost 3-5kg from the last time they saw her. Her eyes was a little off because of the dark circles forming around her eyes. one word to describe her: STRESS.
"G-good evening" Masami bowed her head so low that it took her seconds to realized that she was bowing too long. "Hello Mai-chan, I missed you" She smiled at Mai who smiled back and motioned her to sit between Shu and her. "Hello Shu," She pinched the younger guy's cheek "Doing well?" The guy nodded.
"Good evening ARASHI-san, its been a while." She greet them formally which did not escape Sakuari-san's notice.
"Hey, why so formal child? And here i thought you'd be happy to see your former employers." Sakurai-san smiled at her.
"Because you did not mention that you're inviting them." Masami replied simply.
"Same thing as when you never mentioned that you quit your job as their PA. So we're even" the older man replied smartly. "I thought you're fond of them Ami-chan, so why quit?"
"Ah~ its stressing me out.. besides I'm not doing my job properly, I was even reprimanded because I was often late. " She lied. The truth is, she can't work with Jun around especially after what he did to her, but she can't tell them that.
"I never knew you were that irresponsible." Sakurai told her exactly the same words as Nino's from two months ago.
"Sorry.. well., I quit so they don't have to put up with an inefficient PA like me." she retorted.
"But what about your studies Ami-chan?" Sho's mom asked her worriedly.
"Um, barely surviving Ma'am. Don't worry, I manage to find some job so I probably can take the special exam." She smiled awkwardly. As much as she didn't want to lie, ARASHI's presence was making her to.
"Probably? But neechan, from the looks of it, that job was not doing any good to you. Look at you, no offense neechan, you're still pretty but i swear you're prettier 2 months ago and I say, you're glowing." Shu commented.
"Hey son, no swearing in front of dinner. But he's right you know, you looked exhausted and you're too pale." Sakurai observed.
"And the last time I checked you moved out of your apartment." Mai informed them.
"Eh? why is that dear?" Sho's mom asked who looked more worried than a while ago.
"Hmm, because I found some cheaper place, so i moved out. Besides, I don't have the leisure to pay that apartment especially when I still have my thesis to work at. Mah~ too much about me.. don't worry Yuko-san, I may not look like it, but I'm really fine.."
"But Mi-chan, what is your work now?" Aiba finally managed to ask her after contemplating for a while.
"oh, Aiba-kun I thought you probably know by now, in the first place that was how your youngest member thought of me the first time you both saw me right?" She replied with a weak smile. Aiba gasped and Jun's mouth was left gaping.
"Huh? what thought?" this time it was Nino who asked.
"Oh, funny Ninomiya-san, the first time they met me, Matsumoto-san thought i was some kind of whore, even Aiba-kun did. Well, I can't blame him though, because the scene he'd witnessed was when Sho-chan's dad hugged me,.but then, it was a fatherly hug." She told them, as if just telling some random story.
"Eh? Hontou? that was hilarious neechan..and I can't possibly imagine that Aiba-niichan thought that too." Shu remarked.
"Yeah.. pretty hilarious."
"So you're saying that NOW you're working as one?" Sakurai asked her seriously.
"Iie. Although the place I'm working at had that kind of reputation. I worked as a cashier, a janitress, and sometimes as a repair person. I'd rather die than worked as one Shuji-san. Besides, I shouldn't have worked with sweat and blood in pursuing my studies if I will just end up like one. So don't worry ne~" She still managed to say despite of her buckling knees. Talking to Sho's dad really scared her sometimes.
"No wonder you looked like a zombie to me Ami-chan, those kinds of work opened at night time right?. Shu was right, that place is no good for you." Mai told her. "Its Saturday tomorrow, why not sleep over?" Mai asked her which caught her off guard.
"Oh, that's right dear, I would love to if you agreed." Sho's mom said delightedly.
"Besides neechan, I do believe you really should have some rest." Shu pointed out.
"Um, okay. I guess it won't hurt If i ditch work for a day." Masami finally agreed.
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"You again? the last time you gate crashed was at my apartment. Its amazing how you're able to know my work place." She told him irritably. She did not know that Jun can be that annoying. Eversince he saw her during the dinner with Sho's family, and forced the guys to also sleep over at Sho's place, Jun never leave her after that. He even had the nerve to call her 'Masami' which was very intimate for her. It was really troublesome because she really had no idea how the guy was able to know her number, her email, her course, and recently her work place.
"Yes. I'm here. Just checking if you're telling the truth when you told them you were working as a cashier." Jun lied.
"and what do you say Matsumoto-san?" She challenged.
"Hmm.. well I guess its true. Although I doubt when I leave if its still the case, so I probably hang-out here for a while." Jun told her simply.
"Are you nuts? If someone recognized you, it'll cause gossips, especially in your reputation." She lectured.
"why Masami? Would you care if its the case?" Jun smirked at her.
"o-of course not! heh! this conversation wasn't going anywhere." She stuttered which made Jun broke into a wide grin.
"Well, see you around Masami." Jun said before leaving the counter.
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"I can't believe this! Even Sho's dad wasn't able to found out about this place, how come you're here?" Masami grunted at the man who was standing outside her apartment.
"Well, its easy, I just asked those guys from the neighborhood if they knew a pretty lady who live nearby, and its amazing that all of them point out here..seemed you're pretty famous huh? Now I'm jealous.."Jun muttered.
"Hey, move over will you? So that I could open the door." She told the guy who moved few steps away, giving her way to open the door. When she finally managed to go inside, she immediately closed the door, but Jun probably sensed this.
"Not too fast Masami."Jun chuckled before forcing his way inside. It was like a dejavu of that night. the only difference was that he was not there out of hatred.
"What do you want Matsumoto?"She said purposely omitting the word 'san'.
"Hmm, you know what I want."Jun told her honestly. before she could react, Jun claimed her lips which unlike before, she instinctlively reacted like how a normal girl will react, but instead of landing on the man's face, her hand was caught by Jun's hand. When she finally calmed down., Jun released her.
While still catching his breath, "I know its too late.. but I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry. I never meant it like that. It was never supposed to be like that.. but I was blinded that time by what I see."Jun told her.
"Blinded? and what now? You've seen? hah! "You think I'll accept that? Pathetic Matsumoto-san!"She bellowed. This time it was her turn to rage. "You don't know how much it hurt me when you insulted me like that. You don't know! That's why you don't have the right to judge me like what you did that night!
"Hey, I'm sorry.. I said I'm sorry.." jun could only say.. he knew its going to be a long way before she actually accept his apology.
"Who punched your light on?" She asked, still shaking in anger.
"The guys did. Sho hit me real hard. I still have the bruises if you wanna see. Aiba preached like a moron, but all he said was true. Ridaa comforted me but in the end, he called me idiot for doing so. and Nino, that brat won't talked to me unless I reconcile with you.. until now, he still refuses on talking to me, which was ironic because of all the guys he seemed to be the one who cared less when it concerned you, but we found out recently that for these past months, he had been trying to find you which suggested that he really cared.
"So are you saying that you're doing these because of them? You're hopeless Matsumoto, go home. just go home."this talk is useless." She reigned herself on the sofa.. she was too tired to stay on a standing position.
"Hopeless you say?"Jun furrowed his eyebrows. He didn't have even a single ounce of alcohol in his system, yet he's mind was dozing off. He didn't know why he felt frustrated hearing her say flatly to his face that he was hopeless. It cut deep within him. He did not wanted to force his way on her, but it was his only last chance to tell her what he really thought for he was no good at words, the more he talks, the more the situation get worse.
"Yeah, i'm hopeless!" He exclaimed before moving towards her. Masami moved back, still on a sitting position, until the back of her head hit dead end. Jun took this as an opportunity that he threw himself on top of her, pulled her closer , so that her body was pinned flatly against the soft cushion. He stayed on that position before looking straightly to her face. "im really hopeless..here i am on top of you, yet I couldn't say what I wanna say... Im doing what I thought was best in conveying my feelings toward you because I'm afraid that every word that will come out of my mouth might not exactly be the way as to how I wanted it to be.. as much as I wanted to express my feelings I end up messing it.. my mouth always get ahead of my mind that I speak without thinking and when I actually had the time to think, I couldn't simply withdraw the words that had been said..like that night when i banged your apartment door.. I made myself believe that I hated you because of what I thought you are but the truth was I hated myself for being jealous.. to the extent that I did what I did.. I'm always able to control myself, even when I'm drunk.. but that moment when you opened the door and you in your flimsy night dress appeared in front of me.. what man would not marvel how good it will be to feel and to hold the body of such a beautiful and dazzling lady,.. and my body responded right a way.. "Jun told her, putting the bits and pieces of his emotion onto every word that he uttered, hoping just hoping that he'll be able to reach out to her.
"You can't fool me Matsumoto" She told him without blinking. "You really are an actor.. I wonder how long did it took you to practice those lines."She said coldly.
"I probably am, but those were no lines from a drama or whatever,, those words comes from here. from here Masami." Jun told her, placing her hand on top of his chest. "I know I'd done you wrong..but I never expected you to be this heartless Masami."Jun stated. The pain in his chest was starting to affect his entire being that made it difficult for him to keep his cool.
"Im not heartless Matsumoto.. you are.. look.. you're just doing this to rub yourself off from the guilt you felt that night. Well, sorry to say, but you have to keep on regretting as long as you live Matsumoto, now would you please get off me?"
"Regret? I never said I regretted it! Well, at first I thought I regret it, but i thought it'll be unfair to the other party if I feel that way, especially when that party involved the girl I love..what am I supposed to do for you to believe me?" Jun asked in frustration.
"Its your problem not mine. "
"Hell yeah, its my problem, and here's what I plan: I won't get off you until you believed me. and have you forgotten? Im also capable on doing this" with that said, Jun kissed her hungrily, claiming and wanting while his hands traveled across her body which shivered on every part where his hands landed, sending sparks all over her entire being as the heat which was suppressed a while ago enclosed both their bodies.
Masami's defenses slowly melted away. somewhere in her heart she wanted to believe all the words that Jun had told her, but she was afraid because all Jun did was tell her how sorry he was.. but when he flatly stated that he never regretted doing it, her heart skipped a beat for that tiny hope it felt when the guy said those words. In order to comfort herself more, she pretended that she still doesn't care when in fact, her heart was leaping for joy the moment he told her about the girl he love. Because it amused her seeing Jun struggled for words, she did a little acting until she's finally able to assure herself that Jun really meant it...
"You don't know how happy I was that time when I found out that I am your first.. maybe to some it didn't matter, but for me it really mattered because that was when I was able to find the answer and realized what my true feelings are.."Jun told her afterwards.
"What if I am what you thought I was? Would you still care?" Masami qustioned him, although it really did not matter to her.
"first let me correct it, its not care, its LOVE. and to answer your question, I love you the moment I first saw you.. I was just clouded by my own thoughts,,"jun told her honestly.
"excuses.."Masami chuckled. "Its my turn.
"What turn?" Jun asked puzzled.
"Its my turn to explain myself."
"Oh no need Masami.. the moment you give yourself to me, I knew right away how you feel.."Jun told her confidently.
"Hey. Mr. DoS, you really are a conceited being."
"Well thank you my real beautiful b1tch."
"wow, are you telling me that Masami is a b1tch?"
"Nope. Im just wondering, your name suit you just fine. "REAL" "BEAUTIFUL" and my own personal b1tch."
"Why does "b1tch" sounded so good even if the meaning is bad?"She asked her amusedly.
"Well, its because I am the one who's speaking to you."
"You really are a DoS.conceited, too full of yourself...funny thing was, even knowing that, I still can't prevent myself from falling in love with you" Masami confessed which left Jun's mouth partially opened because of the shock., she took this as an opportunity and claimed his lips once more.
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