First Prompt.! [one shot]
Heart Attack
What does it take to love a person when even the heart can't take it?
"The most interesting thing about heart transplant is that one completely loses his own heart and be replaced with someone else's yet still has the feeling for the same person he loves. This proves that love works in the minds of people and not in their hearts. Bottomline is that, Love is a state of mind you'll learn how to forget only if you try doing so.."
She continued to cry as she felt butterflies in her stomach after watching for the nth time the grey's anatomy episode which had that line said by Dr. Burke. that draw her back in between her reality and her insanity. Yes, you read it right: INSANITY.
Two years ago:
KYAAA~~
She stood up there in the crowd watching as she felt the need to cover her ears with both hands because her eardrums might split into pieces as she listened to the loud voices and cheers coming form the audience. ug-uh She though. Oh! How can my sis do this to me? And worse she'd left me alone here. She was no sucker for concerts and stuff which will disturb her so-called silence. let alone destroy her peace. What am I doing here anyway? She knew she could not have stayed, but she stayed out of curiosity. Yes, she's curious about how this group managed to capture every female's heart, how a group such as they could dominate the entire news, the tv, the advertisement, the magazines.. and for goodness sake, even libraries had a book which featured them. Yes, them: ARASHI.
As the crowd grew louder, she felt that it was probably the time for them to show up their faces in front of the camera and to their fans.Oh! how superficial.. She sighed in disbelief. She planned to leave after having a glimpse of their faces, yes, for once, she wanted to see them up close and [even from afar] personal. In the end, she was caught off guard and the rest was history.
well. not really a history, but for her, it was. For never did she expect that on that single moment, she'll instantly fell for him.
She was lost at what to do, for she was too struck to move. Yet she had no choice because the concert had ended a while ago.. but she was still there, outside the gate, wandering, contemplating, feeling despair because of the emotion that was flooding her entire being.. It was new to her and it scared her.
Like on the brink of having a heart attack wherein one can't hardly breathe. Her heart was palpitating and if her ribcage was not there, she swear, her heart could have jumped out of her chest. She placed her hand on her chest as if doing so would make the thumping to go back on its own pace. Her pulse wasn't on the normal state.
She was on that condition, when he found her. Yes, when he found her. Her near-attack-experience turned out to become the bridge to a friendship that she wanted so much to keep..so much that she had done everything, everything that he wanted..
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She lay awake in her bedroom, afraid that if she take a nap even for a minute, she would or might miss his call, for she knew quite well that he doesn't want waiting too long over a phone call. Honestly, she have been trying to forget him so many times.
Good lord knows how she survived those nearly-heart-attack, or those on-the-verge of having a heart attack, every time he spoke about his girl. Well. that was before, because recently, he doesn't have any girl. And he kept on telling her that she is his girl, though not that usual girlfriend-boyfriend relationship.. what they have, or what they will have is more of a satisfy-you, satisfy-me experience.
She condemned herself for her insanity, yet continued on what was offered or more appropriate to say, left? for her. She savored their moments together, despite having the same felling as that of a heart attack for every kiss that he made. Her heart beats fast whenever he's around. Her world moves slow everytime they were together. Its funny how those things get to affect her everyday life. As if her life had changed to every bits of pieces that she got to ponder whether she had made the right choices. Maybe because it was him.
She was suddenly snapped out of her own thoughts, when she heard her phone ringing- it was a mail..Her anticipation, turned to smile when she saw the sender's name. Her smile turned to laughter when she opened the mail. Her laughter turned to tears when she finally read the message. And her tears has finally ended when her heart slowed down its pace, and finally, after one loud thump! it stopped beating.
He stood there unable to comprehend what was happening at the moment. Just a moment ago he could hear her laughing, as in literally laughing when she opened her phone, and he witnessed how she turned out crying after reading his message. But what he couldn't grasp is the reality that after a moment of laughter, a moment of tears, she suddenly clutched her chest as if she was breaking, but it was not a dream.
For right there in front of his eyes, the girl she had met two years ago, lay peacefully, with one hand clutched in her chest and other hand on her phone. It was just then that he realized, the chest is where the heart is.
Slowly, just slowly, he approached the girl as tears started to flow in his eyes. He couldn't believe what happened, he just couldn't accept it. He reached the hand which was starting to lose its feeling. He caught her phone before it fell to the ground, the phone which he wished to disappear exactly at that moment as it reminded him how stupid he was for sending her that message. His message that took her life away from him, for he knew she would be surprised, for he knew, she would be upset, for he knew her heart can't take it.
For this is what he told her:
Im always kind and caring to every people I know, but with you, its different. I'm so lucky to have someone like you but I can't afford to lose you and I can't have you either.."
What does it take to love a person when even the heart can't take it?
"The most interesting thing about heart transplant is that one completely loses his own heart and be replaced with someone else's yet still has the feeling for the same person he loves. This proves that love works in the minds of people and not in their hearts. Bottomline is that, Love is a state of mind you'll learn how to forget only if you try doing so.."
She continued to cry as she felt butterflies in her stomach after watching for the nth time the grey's anatomy episode which had that line said by Dr. Burke. that draw her back in between her reality and her insanity. Yes, you read it right: INSANITY.
Two years ago:
KYAAA~~
She stood up there in the crowd watching as she felt the need to cover her ears with both hands because her eardrums might split into pieces as she listened to the loud voices and cheers coming form the audience. ug-uh She though. Oh! How can my sis do this to me? And worse she'd left me alone here. She was no sucker for concerts and stuff which will disturb her so-called silence. let alone destroy her peace. What am I doing here anyway? She knew she could not have stayed, but she stayed out of curiosity. Yes, she's curious about how this group managed to capture every female's heart, how a group such as they could dominate the entire news, the tv, the advertisement, the magazines.. and for goodness sake, even libraries had a book which featured them. Yes, them: ARASHI.
As the crowd grew louder, she felt that it was probably the time for them to show up their faces in front of the camera and to their fans.Oh! how superficial.. She sighed in disbelief. She planned to leave after having a glimpse of their faces, yes, for once, she wanted to see them up close and [even from afar] personal. In the end, she was caught off guard and the rest was history.
well. not really a history, but for her, it was. For never did she expect that on that single moment, she'll instantly fell for him.
She was lost at what to do, for she was too struck to move. Yet she had no choice because the concert had ended a while ago.. but she was still there, outside the gate, wandering, contemplating, feeling despair because of the emotion that was flooding her entire being.. It was new to her and it scared her.
Like on the brink of having a heart attack wherein one can't hardly breathe. Her heart was palpitating and if her ribcage was not there, she swear, her heart could have jumped out of her chest. She placed her hand on her chest as if doing so would make the thumping to go back on its own pace. Her pulse wasn't on the normal state.
She was on that condition, when he found her. Yes, when he found her. Her near-attack-experience turned out to become the bridge to a friendship that she wanted so much to keep..so much that she had done everything, everything that he wanted..
====================
She lay awake in her bedroom, afraid that if she take a nap even for a minute, she would or might miss his call, for she knew quite well that he doesn't want waiting too long over a phone call. Honestly, she have been trying to forget him so many times.
Good lord knows how she survived those nearly-heart-attack, or those on-the-verge of having a heart attack, every time he spoke about his girl. Well. that was before, because recently, he doesn't have any girl. And he kept on telling her that she is his girl, though not that usual girlfriend-boyfriend relationship.. what they have, or what they will have is more of a satisfy-you, satisfy-me experience.
She condemned herself for her insanity, yet continued on what was offered or more appropriate to say, left? for her. She savored their moments together, despite having the same felling as that of a heart attack for every kiss that he made. Her heart beats fast whenever he's around. Her world moves slow everytime they were together. Its funny how those things get to affect her everyday life. As if her life had changed to every bits of pieces that she got to ponder whether she had made the right choices. Maybe because it was him.
She was suddenly snapped out of her own thoughts, when she heard her phone ringing- it was a mail..Her anticipation, turned to smile when she saw the sender's name. Her smile turned to laughter when she opened the mail. Her laughter turned to tears when she finally read the message. And her tears has finally ended when her heart slowed down its pace, and finally, after one loud thump! it stopped beating.
He stood there unable to comprehend what was happening at the moment. Just a moment ago he could hear her laughing, as in literally laughing when she opened her phone, and he witnessed how she turned out crying after reading his message. But what he couldn't grasp is the reality that after a moment of laughter, a moment of tears, she suddenly clutched her chest as if she was breaking, but it was not a dream.
For right there in front of his eyes, the girl she had met two years ago, lay peacefully, with one hand clutched in her chest and other hand on her phone. It was just then that he realized, the chest is where the heart is.
Slowly, just slowly, he approached the girl as tears started to flow in his eyes. He couldn't believe what happened, he just couldn't accept it. He reached the hand which was starting to lose its feeling. He caught her phone before it fell to the ground, the phone which he wished to disappear exactly at that moment as it reminded him how stupid he was for sending her that message. His message that took her life away from him, for he knew she would be surprised, for he knew, she would be upset, for he knew her heart can't take it.
For this is what he told her:
Im always kind and caring to every people I know, but with you, its different. I'm so lucky to have someone like you but I can't afford to lose you and I can't have you either.."