I'm stilla round, I just get caught up in stuff sometimes. I can't get online for a while, and then I have the time again. It comes and go's. How you been doin? I saw a couple of pictures of you. The big smilin' one was great. I thought the water pictures were pretty cool too. I'm working two jobs and it keeps me hopping. WHat are you up too? How's your little boy doing? You still chasing that guy your in love with? Got any new prospects? I have to live life through your eyes, since I have no freakin' life of my own anymore...lol Just kidding, I'm going stir crazy ignore me.... L & K Rockxx
Re: Hi cutie!cyanide_spoonApril 22 2005, 18:47:25 UTC
i don't take any pictures anymore because i ruined my hair, it's not blond anymore and it looks like crap. and no. i've finally given up on that guy. he basically shattered the love i had for him by telling me last week that he loves me. but he's not in love, he doesn't want to be with me, i am his secret, nobody knows when he is with me. I had waited 2 years to hear that he loved me but it was followed by all this crap that i just didn't want to hear. It shocked me into this isolate phaze. i am a braindead mindless drone. Trust me you do not want to live life through my eyes. my day consists of coloring magazines and waiting until the moment when i can be knocked out. it's not a life, i don't even really exist anymore. i haven't left the house in the week. Im not sure why im telling you this i've pretty much given up on telling anyone anything because everyone just says oh you need to change, you need to enjoy life like it's just so fucking easy.
Woah, Then I'm not going to tell you to get over it then....;0) I have been in your situation, I guess I just haven't felt like anyone was worth the only real thing any of us have, which is biological life. No, life isn't easy, but then we were never promised that it was going to be. I don't know if you believe in God or Jesus, but if you read the bible, and study the translations, the promise is we would toil and sweat in the dirt until we died then we would turn back into the dirt we came from. So nothing to me is easy. I wish I could tell you things would be better with the next guy, or you wouldn't ever be hurt again, but you know it would be a lie. All you have is the next breath you take, adn someday yopu won't have that. Life is way to fragile to let bullshit drag you down. Find something that gives you joy, besides some stupid guy, and focus your mind on it. If you focus you can find something good in everything. Not all the time, but enough to keep you hanging on to life for another day. I'm thinking about you. I hope you
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L & K
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you're back :o)
Sent e-mail to you last week, assume that hotmail have deemed it to be junk or something as you don't seem to have received it yet :o(
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Where are you, I miss you!
*mmmmmwahhh*
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