Am I mad? Am I mad that I am mad? Thats the true question.

As soon as I say anything about anything good on here it always goes away.

Maybe with this I won't neglect lj.

Posted via LjBeetle

I feigned understanding rather than ask elucidation

So I lied hard. Well thats unfair I think I was being lied to. Actually I have no clue what happened. Sigh

I sometimes refuse to let myself believe something good could happen to me. It is I think.

Desperately trying not to look a gift horse in the mouth.

I need to get back on the wagon.

Its crazy how fast someone can go from friend to dirty piece of shit thief in my eyes.

I was reading some of my older entries and about 4 years ago I wrote: My whole life hurts

that is still true of today haha