Drabble #353
Hello ~!
This is just some ficlet about Pi and how he dislikes … well, if you want to know please read =D
I’ll be happy if you like it but won’t be mad if you don’t ;)
It’s just something I wrote when I was upset about some things that someone said, which I realize I shuld not have given a damn about ^_^
# when you find yourself not being the first thought on their mind right after they wake anymore.
Hello ~!
This is just some ficlet about Pi and how he dislikes … well, if you want to know please read =D
I’ll be happy if you like it but won’t be mad if you don’t ;)
It’s just something I wrote when I was upset about some things that someone said, which I realize I shuld not have given a damn about ^_^
# when you find yourself not being the first thought on their mind right after they wake anymore.
It's early morning and I wish I could just fall back into bed and get that well deserved sleep I lack for the past few days. I stretch and bend and bow and it doesn't help, neither does the coffee I bought at Starbucks fifteen minutes ago. I need to shut off my moodiness and be the professional I thought I was, because right now is not the time to be lazy or tired or not pay enough attention...I'm about to join one of these long and tiresome interviews with the band. It's been a while since I saw everyone at the same time at the very same location and I thought I looked forward to it but strangely my mood changed when a couple of days ago my boyfriend, who you all know very well by now, told me those GREAT NEWS.
I got here an hour ago. I left home without a shower, coffee or putting on anything nice. I ruffled through my hair and grabbed my sunglasses. That's gotta do, I thought. When I arrived I found him talking to Massu, over tea and a donut. It's definitely not the sight I wish to find myself run into the first thing in the morning, espeically not after waking up in an empty and cold bed and without breakfast. They greeted me and I stepped closer, forcing a smile. "Hey Yuu." I said, "how about you keep me company inside?"
Instead of wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me in to kiss my lips he only glanced back at Massu before telling me, "Not now."
I didn't wanna sneak away to fuck. What was he thinking? - I only wanted to take him by his hand, walk inside and hold him close and where nobody would see us I would steal a kiss or two... but that was all that was on my mind, honestly. He refused any of my company, so that's when I turned around and left without another word and went to get the second most needed on my list: coffee.
I pull up my sweat pants that stuck to my butt cheeks and grab the still very hot coffee before I stroll down the hall. Soon I find everyone else gathered around a table, talking and laughing away. I casually scan the room and take a quick mental note of who is present and who is talking to who. I take notice of a couple of people from the staff I planned to approach today regarding some various issues, but that can wait.
Eventually I find the culprit of my moodiness and can't help but stare for a moment. There it is again, that classy bright smile that can light up a whole town. It's spread across his entire face and radiates all through the room. Sometimes I wonder if he even realized what bad his smile does to others when they see him like that and know they can't just grab him by his arms and run for their lives. I mean, stealing him away and never return because that's the only thing that comes to my mind whenever I see him. He spotted me and waves into my direction. I nod, take off my sunglasses and grab a chair. I don't smile, I don't particularly greet anyone. Absolutely not in the mood.
The interview begins shortly after that. It's a long round of talking and discussing and I don't really know what else takes place because I feel like spacing out. In the middle of a discussion between Koyama, Shige and Massu, about something absolutely insignificant I shut my eyes and wish sleep would take over any minute. It doesn't take long before I snap back into reality after someone nudged my shoulder. I turn and find a pair of the most beautiful eyes stare right at me.
"Hey~! What are you snoozing about?"
He raises an eyebrow and gives me his superior look that always makes me want to turn him around and smack his butt. Because in my eyes he is literally just asking for some spanking. Some naughty spanking....I shake that thought off my mind and turn away sulkily. How did he sneak back there anyways? I sigh and face the staff, someone I haven't noted before. A tall guy with glasses. Yeah I haven't seen him before, not only today I mean never.
The pretty guy behind me pokes me again and I look over my shoulder. "What?" I ask and he rolls his eyes.
"What did you do last night that you are so tired?" he whispers heavy and low-voiced and I know someone will catch us talking any moment. Just like in school, the tension is only a little higher because there is much more to lose than earning some detention.
Idiot, I think and ignore him. Only for a moment because I simply can’t give in that quickly.
"If you hadn't been too busy to come over you would have seen what I did." I grumble and put back on my sunglasses. Really, I'm not in the mood today.
I can feel his eyes on my back, staring, but I don't look back. Not even once until the interview and discussions are finished.
It's been two hours and I haven't seen him since. The entire band is about to meet again in a few minutes and I can't wait. I'm the first in the conference room and literally sit on a chair and wait, just wait I don't know what's happening with me but I really need to see and talk to him right now.
The moment he walks in arm in arm with Koyama, followed by Shige and Ryo I jump off my seat and glare at him. I know he catches my look before everyone else does and I walk up to him. The others let go of him and without saying a word they walk around us and take seat. He looks at me with wide eyes and a questioning look.
"Yuu." I begin, my expression softens but don't need to say more and he grabs my hand and pulls me along. We don't stop walking until we are in the mans room. The bathroom, really? I raise my eyebrow but before I decide to complain I just look at him. He turns to close and lock the door before gazing back at me.
"What's going on today?" he places his hand on my chest and I want to close my eyes. "Why are you acting so weird?"
Mh, he isn't the one to ask me that...
"I am not acting weird." I grumble and shove my hands into my pockets.
"Am I missing something?" He suddenly says. "And why does my awesome boyfriend look as if he just got kicked out of his family's home and lost the job he loves?"
What?? I look down on myself and back up, I see my face in the mirror behind him. Mh, he does have a point I look horrible.
"I...." I begin and don't know how to continue. "Why are you ignoring me?" Without thinking the words slip past my lips. It finally hits me. Ok. Maybe I am not just tired and grumpy, maybe I am friggin jealous...
"I, what?" he cutely tips his head to the side. Cute like a little dog waiting for a treat. But I don't have any treats with me, so I wait for him to say anything else. He really has to say something because it will make me furious if he won't.
"I don't ignore you." he says sweetly and pats my shoulder. "Why do you think that?"
"Err.. maybe because you did all morning? Or maybe because you had better things to do yesterday than having dinner with me? Or maybe because --"
"Hey, you have no right of accusing me like that." He makes me stop going in with my stupid list. "I was only doing my job."
"Yeah, it's back to Tegomasu time, right?" I snap at him without realizing how stupid I must sound. "It's always Tegomasu here, Tegomasu there, Tegomasu will do this and Tegomasu can do that. How long will I be off your mind this time?"
"Hey don't be mean Pi!" He suddenly whines and gives me a pouty face after pinching my chest. "Why is it that you hate Tegomasu?"
What? "No, I don't hate Tegomasu!" Of course I don't. I take his shoulders and wait until he looks back at me. Did I really just sound like that? did I just bring my dear baby close to tears?
"But you keep giving me those annoyed looks ever since I told you about the tour...." he sniffs. "Yuya." I whisper but he keeps on talking.
"You know how much I love singing Tegomasu songs and do Tegomasu work because I care a lot about damn Tegomasu! It's upsetting if people I don't know don't love Tegomasu as much as I do but it's really the worst if ... if....can you imagine it'd be the worst feeling if the person you care about the most doesn't like what you do..?"
"It's not like... Yuya, it's not like that. I'm..I'm sorry if I made you feel like I didn't appreciate your work." I gently caress his cheek. "You should know I admire everything you do."
"Then,.." he sniffs. "Why are you being like that?"
"Because, I love you." He sniffles weakly and I bend forward. "And I don't want to miss you even more." I whisper and I can feel him smile against my lips as they brush over his.
When we break he glares at me. "I don't want to miss you too Mister I just had a whole solo tour through asia and left my dear boyfriend alone at home without anything to do but play soccer and futsal all day long..." He smacks my chest. "You know how it made me feel, right? right?"
"I know.” I say, “I missed you just as much...Forgive me for being a jerk.”
He leans in and kisses me softly. “I’ll forgive you as always.” he chuckled slightly, “There won’t be a time where I won’t forgive anything you do, mister.”
And that moment I am reminded once again how lucky I am to have found this most incredible creature that I could make my own, I mean my boyfriend. I smile and brush the back of my hand along his cheek.
“You are stuck with me too, forever.” I say and his smile even brightens. We both come to agree that missing someone we care about isn’t actually all that bad, because it makes us realize what we have in each other is from highest importance for both of us and looking forward to spend time together after being separated is one of the most treasured feelings.
The inevitable pain will follow love and nothing else but pure and simple love that makes us happy to be alive again.
