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[techmage_]

so i suppose its time i use this thing huh? hmmm....whats to say? there are those out there that call me a prophet. of what? there are those that tell me i'm supposed to do something important. what's the point? i've spent so much time being angry at everything that i'm not sure what i hate anymore. to those i've hurt along the way i'd like

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[bubblebobble]

im convinced you have or will cheat because i did. i know you still dont trust me, and im pretty sure you want to find some way to get back at me for the hurt that i caused you. even though i would take anything i did away in less then a heartbeat. i was afraid back then of the way i felt for you. and i havent been afraid since then, until last night. you know you have the power to brea me so easily but you dont seem to believe or understand that.

as for the pills, im willing to through out anything aside from the klonopin and vicodin if you want me too. those 2 i need occasionally when im either crying from pain or having a panic attack for way to long and freaking out even more.

i dont know what else you want from me. you already have my heart and everything else.

i do love you tyler. maybe you need to go read that email i sent sunday again.

[sever916]

interesting that so much shit that we've been through as friend, if we can still call each other such, that I can still see us having so much in common with our lives... people think we're so much better than we are, but we just can't seem to see it; to reach it. it's weird, in a sense, to have others with so much faith in us that we don't have in ourselves. we know there's something more out there, but it's so unattainable, so out of reach, and it's only because we don't have the foggiest damned idea what it is we're supposed to be doing