Most people think of me as really modest and non-resentful but, except for two people, no one knows how totally gleeful I get watching people I have fought with/been hurt or annoyed by/dislike suffer or just burn out. It's the same feeling mad scientists get when they scream "IT'S ALIVE". It's mean, I know, but god it feels so good.
Megavideo is on crack - know how it only lets you watch for 72 minutes before you have to wait? Well. I don't believe that's true. Because seeing as for the past week I have seriously only gotten 15 minutes into 60 minute long episodes of Six Feet Under (which I'm re-re-watching because it is jfdhsjfhdsjfffffffsdhfjsdfh more amazing every time I watch it) before Megavideo declares I have to wait for nearly an hour...
I mean dude. The episode isn't even 72 minutes long. Do they seriously expect me to believe that I've been watching something for 72 minutes when the little time thing says 15? I know there are loads of other places to watch stuff but Megavideo has, until now, been the most reliable for me and now I have been betrayed.
Also I finished off the last few Cheez Its just now. How much you wanna bet me that tomorrow people whine at me for "eating them all" when really I'm only guilty of eating the last handful left in the box? XD
I want to type something sage and inspirational, but I'm coming up with nothing that doesn't sound pretentious and dickish.
But what I've ultimately come up with is: Make sure you find friends that love you and accept you for whatever you is and what you evolves into, because those people will save your life in so many ways you'll never be able to fathom. Don't worry about everyone else.
I feel like a complete failure and that I wasted five years of my life in college because I'm currently unemployed and the degree I got isn't very good for getting me hired. Everyone says they need English majors, but no one hires because I "don't have enough experience" and I wonder how they expect me to get the experience they want when every other company is just like them. My mother says it's okay and that I'll "get a job when it's right" but I haven't told her that I've given up even looking. The unemployment rate in the state I live in and the state I work in (I'm on the border of two) is astronomical, and I don't see a point in even trying. So I live with my mother, and I waste her time and money and I feel like complete shit for it, and I know she's getting frustrated and she's barely getting by on her own, and I just don't know what to do. I'm amazed I haven't considered suicide, but I keep telling myself that's a stupid answer and I can't fall to that. I tried getting unemployment benefits, too, but I was denied because my
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If you're reading this, you're amazing and I know that it sucks going into a major and then feeling like you can't DO anything with it. I'm in music -- prime example! I have to get a doctorate in order to POSSIBLY amount to something. The thing is, it sucks so hard, but you have to make it work with what you have. Don't compare yourself to other people because that's not you. You have something completely different to offer from anyone else, and if you know how to (or figure out how to, which you will), you can sell yourself as exactly what you want to be.
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I mean dude. The episode isn't even 72 minutes long. Do they seriously expect me to believe that I've been watching something for 72 minutes when the little time thing says 15? I know there are loads of other places to watch stuff but Megavideo has, until now, been the most reliable for me and now I have been betrayed.
Also I finished off the last few Cheez Its just now. How much you wanna bet me that tomorrow people whine at me for "eating them all" when really I'm only guilty of eating the last handful left in the box? XD
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THANKS.
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But what I've ultimately come up with is: Make sure you find friends that love you and accept you for whatever you is and what you evolves into, because those people will save your life in so many ways you'll never be able to fathom. Don't worry about everyone else.
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If you're reading this, you're amazing and I know that it sucks going into a major and then feeling like you can't DO anything with it. I'm in music -- prime example! I have to get a doctorate in order to POSSIBLY amount to something. The thing is, it sucks so hard, but you have to make it work with what you have. Don't compare yourself to other people because that's not you. You have something completely different to offer from anyone else, and if you know how to (or figure out how to, which you will), you can sell yourself as exactly what you want to be.
Rant in my journal any time, any day. That's why it's here. ♥
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I love you~!
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