Can't you see?

[tayarisa]

Title: Can't you see?
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Chinen is feeling sad.

What do you think you're doing to my heart? Do you really want to break it apart?

I'm so happy every time you smile to me, every time you hug me in the concerts, you touch my face or mess my hair, I  feel like flying. But then I hit the ground... hard, and come back to reality every time we go to the backstage, when there are no cameras around and we don't have to make another fan service, when everything comes back to normal. I became another band mate. You don't think more of me than like a pet. It hurt me. Can't you see that I'm not acting? Can’t you see me blushing every time you get near me and every time you say something sweet to please the fans? Can’t you hear my heart beating faster every time you touch me? That’s because I love you for real. I know I'm a coward for not telling you, but I'm just too shy. I'm scared; I'm scared of how you'll react. Maybe you wouldn't want to be my friend any more.

I couldn't stand it, I just couldn't stand been ignored by you.

So I decide to be quiet and bury my feelings, just in my mind I will say it.

I LOVE YOU YAMA-CHAN
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I love you more that I can say.

You're everything for me.

I hope someday you’ll feel the same.

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This is my first drabble and I decide to post it here. I write this without notice so sorry if you don't like it. 
I'm not sure of this myself.