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[tastes_of_honey]

::Schuldig Portals away, then comes back for a rest on his couch and to write notes. After a while, he does the same thing again. And again.::

::If you looked at the paper you'd see that his handwriting varies quite a bit. Some of the things written include:

Cerulean Portal: Rather infamous me already there. Not a good idea

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[killwithmymind]

Nagi's been a bit wrapped up in the Yohji-drama and dealing with the lastest job in his world, so he's a bit out of the loop. "Schu?"

[tastes_of_honey]

Hey, Naggins. It's been a while. I'm glad you're surviving Angstland, population you and everyone you know.

...I have to get away from my team and reality before Farf rolls me under with his rage and lust and I'm his perfect killing sex partner. Brad knows my concerns but he's too jazzed at the mayhem we can cause, the money we can earn at this level, and being big boss again that he's brushing them off. He said he foresaw me thinking of leaving and told me that anywhere I go he and Farf will hunt me down and there's nowhere I could work or be that wouldn't get back to them.

I don't know if I can even go back for any of my stuff because the moment I'm back in reality Farf will Hear me and Brad will be able to foresee me and they'll both drag me back into the char-black and lightning-shot dream of Schwarz: Expensive Wrecking Crew and Schuldig: Murderous Plaything. But if I leave Aya there I'm sure they'll try to torture him for information on my whereabouts.

I don't want to have to flee my home, and I don't want to leave Brad. I

[killwithmymind]

Now is the time of snuggles. Nagi likes Schuldig as he is, and considering how much stuff Nagi gave Schu for Xmas, he doesn't like that Schu has to leave it behind again. "Do you want help getting stuff? I'll work for chocolate cake and sex. It's unlikely they can touch me, no matter how much Oracle foresees." Translation: You're family, you idiot.

[tastes_of_honey]

::Snuggles are much appreciated and reciprocated.:: I'm dithering because I don't want to leave. It's my reality, it's my Brad, and it's even my Farfarello if he weren't so interested in reshaping me. I'll get to see my Nagi even less, and in their current state of mind Brad and Farf might visit him in a threatening way too if they find out I was there.

Besides, Aya will be a difficult loose end no matter what I decide. He still needs help, and I have no intention of leaving him to get tormented by the rest of Schwarz, but there's no way in hell he'll appreciate having his life upended because I have trouble.

Maybe I could make Brad and Farf see sense if I could just find a way to be near them without getting rolled under....

If there's no other way and I have to do go, I would appreciate help getting my stuff. I mean, I just started getting comfortable again.