One step, Two steps part 6 of 6

[tamoline]

Title: One step, Two steps part 6 of 6
Author:Tamoline
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: Orphan Black
Pairing: Sarah/Beth

Warning: Suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts

Summary: One step.

Two steps.

Three steps.

I reach the edge of the platform.

Or - the AU where Sarah grabs Beth before she goes off the platform. There are still a lot of steps left.

Comments

[eloise_stories]

Well I really liked this whole story and although I was surprised by where you went for the climax (sorry, couldn't resist the pun) that worked very nicely too. Whether it's part of the same story or a different one I hope you continue to write Orphan Black stories.

[tamoline]

Thanks! This has been a fun story to write. (I even partially wrote the sex scene - granted, it was the hilariously awkward part.)

I kind of felt the sex scene was necessary because one of the thing that I came up with when trying to figure out Beth was the damage that being in a relationship for years with someone who's primary purpose is to manipulate you. Especially for someone who was probably fairly good at reading people - given the comments about how Beth was a cold fish, I think it not unlikely that she knew *something* was wrong for some time, even if she couldn't put her finger on it.

So freeing herself from that shackle seemed fairly necessary to the plot.

I might well write more Orphan Black at some point. I'm a little behind on my Good Wife fanfic at the moment, with people patiently waiting for me to update that, and a couple of other stories I should probably finish at some point. But this has definitely been a fun little excursion, and if a good idea grabs me, I'll doubtless start writing.

[glee_addict]

I have to admit, though I knew that this was a Beth/Sarah story that reading them having sex was kinda weird. I mean, they are the same person! However, you managed to make it work. I love the dynamic you were able to create between these two characters.

I'm so grateful you wrote this!

[tamoline]

I think it’d look really weird from the outside, but not so much from the inside. After all, unless you’re looking in a mirror, you just don’t get to see yourself the way other people do. It also helps that they’re in no way socialised as sisters. Still, it’s definitely going to be a problem going forward - any kind of relationship is really going to raise eyebrows among anyone else. And it did have to be said I really had to make sure that I differentiated Sarah from the other identicals in Beth’s mind

[ana_khouri]

I've really enjoyed every chapter of this. You've ingrained Beth's character arc so well with the actual show it seems weird it was ever otherwise. Her understanding of her feelings for Sarah also felt well-paced (I loved 'This is definitely not like Alison') and her reasonings for not wanting to trust her etc.. all very well done. Overall I really enjoyed this, I'm sad to see it gone and yes! Write more!!! : )

[tamoline]

Thanks! Beth drives so much of the plot. even dead, that slotting her back in really didn't feel that difficult. I was a little worried about the pacing around the time she was looking for the gun dealer - I didn't want her to find him too quickly. so I hope that I managed to keep things going with progress on the other fronts. :)