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Poison?
I think I have food poisoning. At least, that's what Google comes up with when I list the symptoms. Not fun. This morning, I woke up way early, with a stomach ache, but tried to ignore it. Eventually, I decided I couldn't. Short story even shorter, I lost almost ten pounds in less than an hour, but I'd been perfectly fine when I went to bed. I hurt ( Read more... ) -
Do I Want to Code?
I'm not sure what I think about school starting back up on Tuesday. On one hand, it'll be nice to have some structure again. It's hard to be productive sometimes when there's nothing keeping you on task. On the other hand, school takes time and withers your spirit, and it's also hard to be productive when you have no time/soul. Damned if you do(n't ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I finally had an endocrinologist appointment today. I went in to make sure I hadn't damaged myself, or or that stopping for a while like this might damage me more, et cetera. I was HOPING I'd somehow walk out the door with a prescription, but knew it wasn't really gonna happen. But it did. SWEET! I'm back in the pills, and this time it's sanctioned ( Read more... ) -
OMGWTFHRTLOL
You know... Of all the things that suck about being off the hormones for a while, I think the STRANGEST of them is that I smell like a goddamn BOY. I knew I smelled different with the hormones, but I didn't realize just HOW different. After being free of it for a while, I can't stand going back to my old smell. It's not filth sort of stink, but it' ( Read more... ) -
Total Hate '08
I WAS slowly reducing my meds in order to start over and do it the right way. I finished reducing, and have had NONE for a few days now, and it's taking its toll in a serious way. I thought I was doing okay. I thought I might even make it through this without crashing. It's been only DAYS, and here I am. What will I feel like by Christmas? By New ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
So, sometimes you think "alright, I'm gonna get this done, no matter what!" Math, call yourself done. But sometimes, even when you say that: even when you really really really mean it, it just doesn't happen. Damn you to hell, physics! That's right. I totally bombed physics. I thought I could do it (no I didn't). I thought I would just get through ( Read more... ) -
The Coming Storm
A friend convinced me to stop taking my hormones for a while, via how I could benefit in the long run from this "temporary" setback. Long story short, I've been taking them unsupervised (as carefully as is possible within that context, but still...), and I would WAY rather do things right, but seriously fear the effects of being without it, which I ( Read more... ) -
Antipode
Very mixed day ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Maybe it seems like a small thing, but to me it's not, and each time someone doesn't recognize me as my old self, it makes me really happy. Sure, I'm still far from my destination, but at least I can feel like something's changing. Like I'm making some sort of progress, and might actually get there some day. Today, the staff at the plasma center ( ( Read more... ) -
Personal Deficit
I want hugs. Yes, that's right. Me. Tye. Wants hugs. You heard it here first, folks ( Read more... )