i knew it. i felt it. something was not right, but daringly so awful and wrong i kept quiet. how could i of all people sense that there was something wrong with you? that was defying the laws of gravity. and then i read it and it was confirmed. i am so sorry ( Read more... )

last night buddha, darin, andy and i decided to crash thad's girls night. i was kind of nervous at first. i don't really know what i was expecting. something similar to a britney spears dance party complete with facials and pedicures. all we got was dance dance revolution and some friggen potato chips. friggen a ( Read more... )

it’s been a long time and I felt like writing about what’s been going on in my life lately.

yeah, that’s about it.

I guess i thought she would wait around for me to figure out what I wanted. Even though I always knew what I wanted, it was her. I figured she'd always be there, waiting.

I ever thought I'd lose my chance. I did. And if she's happy with him all I can do is find a way to be happy for her. It's going to hurt for a long time.

Emery was last night... Thad and I went. I'm still waiting for TOC, it's going to be teh cool.

I hope she reads each and every word ( Read more... )

lately i've been doing the whole, dating around and seeing what girls are out there, sort of thing. it's not working very well because i compare everyone to her, and as of yet no one has even come close. i'm still not really sure why her and just can't make things work. everyone says we're perfect for each other. i guess it was just bad timing ( Read more... )

some people need to learn to stand up for themselves and quit taking shit they don't deserve from people is all.

wow i haven't written in this thing for a long time. i discovered this thing called nature and i have been spending some time in it. i also discoverd a thing called a life and i have been having one. it's been really cool. so far i have been doing good on my new year's resolution of not dying. i mean i almost died on the ice but i showed it who ( Read more... )

just to see you smile i'd so anything
that you wanted me to
when all is said and done
i'd never count the cost
it's worth all that's lost
just to see you smile

wow i most certainly don't write in this thing enough. okay, i'm home from texas now THANK GOD IN HEAVEN. and when i got in last night jessica, summer, buddha and britt surprised me at the airport, woo hoo. and they gave me my (late) christmas presents. it was, indeed a ( Read more... )