( Brandon )

I totally hate the fact that this has to be the entry that is next in my livejournal entries, but I feel it is necessary. It will kind of serve as a watch out for the losers that in the long run don't have your best interest at heart and seem to care but in reality could give a fuck less.

Even though I feel like socially I finally know who to steer ( Read more... )

You are a big thinker. You easily take the large, long view of almost any topic. You are comfortable juggling myriad facts. You tend to synthesize material easily and to think in webs of factors, not straight lines. You are imaginative and enjoy theorizing.

You are also socially savvy. You are good at both talking and listening. And you generally ( Read more... )

I was ready for it! I was ready for the scorning and harsh words from my Laoshimen of Li Laoshi and Zheng Laoshi. I had picked a fight that I was determined to win, but instead I got embraced and a sense of understanding from them! What JOY I received when I read my emails.

Ai Mei,

Fluency is an important aspect that we look at in students' ( Read more... )

BEAST has been unleashed! I'm ready for this! Throw whatever stones you can at me, I will STAND STRONG! I have the willpower and the strength to get through this. I am intimidating! Wait did that just come out of my typing fingers? Intimidating? HA Yeah right! but apparently to some I am~ I can conquer any obstacle with Jesus as my aid and my ( Read more... )

Confirmative! I have successfully gotten out of the grave that I have dug myself and my Laoshis have helped to pile the dirt bit to bit to cover my very existence. I have spring forward out of this pit, and I feel I am doing better. Improving, giving a shit, caring, wanting to learn this damn language and not wanting to quit. Yes this Chinese ( Read more... )

Though I tried to drown my heart
I tried to not need human contract
I tried to be self sufficient
I tried to silence my desires

I found out that was the wrong approach. I was doing it all wrong. I was letting my depression, insecurities and self doubts ruin me.
I had already dug the grave before I even knew what the outcome would be.

But through all of ( Read more... )

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Start GO! Wait STOP What am I doing!? This isnt allowed in society's social norms! WAIT AGAIN! Why am I letting social norms and social logic think for me!!! STOP this 禍車 disaster car. I'll find my own way by walking aimlessly until I finally find my path. I will not be bound to a train going nowhere but what society wants me to be~

I need to Start ( Read more... )