[mix] (take these broken wings) baby let's dig down deep
(First off, while i'm on the subject of Broken Wings: kazbaby made cover art and it is stunning.)
This is kind of special: a mix for a story that doesn't include the song the story was titled after! But this mix, like the story, is about two broken people meeting and falling in love, even when they don't necessarily want to, and it's about coming back from your wanderings and realizing, at the end, that you have a home, and it's about letting go of the past and making yourself a future. (Okay, you have to change a bunch of the genders when you listen to the songs, but hey, can't have everything.)
So, you know. Kick off your shoes, 'cause we got nothin' to lose but our sleep; baby, let's dig down, dig down deep.
1. Verdi Cries // 10,000 Maniacs
2. Wish You Were Here // Pink Floyd
3. Costa del Sol // Hennessey
4. USA // The Pogues
5. Shelter From The Storm // Bob Dylan
6. A Day Like Today // Tom McRae
7. The Ocean (live at the World Cafe) // Dar Williams
8. Your Misfortune // Mike Doughty
9. Throw It All Away // Toad the Wet Sprocket
10. Rising Sign (live) // Mike Doughty
11. Beautiful // Elvis Costello
12. Dig Down Deep // Marc Cohn
13. Fall On Me // Cry Cry Cry
14. Sister Contine // Rusted Root
15. You Owe Me Nothing In Return // Alannis Morisette
16. The Book Of Love // The Magnetic Fields
17. Amazing Grace // Ani DiFranco
18. Quiet // Paul Simon
19. A Warm Place // Nine Inch Nails
1. "Verdi Cries": holidays must end as you know; all is memory, taken home with me, the opera, the stolen tea, the sand drawing, the verging sea, all years ago. I can't quite explain why this is on the mix (and more than that, the opening song) without flapping my hands and resorting to "but -- but --" But this to me is the feel of JD looking back at his past life as Jack, like a dream, like something he remembers semi-fondly and regrets having lost.
2. "Wish You Were Here": and did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? hot ashes for trees? hot air for a cool breeze? cold comfort for change? and did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? how I wish, how I wish you were here; we're just two lost souls swimming in the fishbowl year after year. Okay, it's overused, but I was threatened with death by the invisible voices in my head when I tried to cut it, so. JD, upon learning that Daniel has gone to Atlantis. Because he might have let go of the dream, but not the bitterness.
3. "Costa del Sol": packed a bag with hometown dull, drank all my wine away for a cow's-eye view of spain // look at me, the godless man, wild-eyed disprover of his all-pervasive fame, yes, i'm the godless man, frying bacon and descartes upon my post-pubescent brain. JD, setting out on his journey of self-discovery...
4. "USA": i gambled in two graveyards, i won against the odds, with the saints and with the saviors, with the maggots and the gods. i cursed the things they showed me i could never see again, and howling on the wind at night, i rode upon the rain. And JD coming back, at the end, a stranger.
5. "Shelter From The Storm": not a word was spoke between us, there was little risk involved; everything up to that point had been left unresolved. try imagining a place where it's always safe and warm. "come in," she said, "i'll give you shelter from the storm." One of the ones where you have to flip the genders, but: "Come in," Cam said; "I'll give you shelter from the storm."
6. "A Day Like Today": and all i ever play are the cards you gave me; it's just my version of the truth. i wish i could comfort you. if love is our defense, it's all right, i can comfort you. if you let me i could love you to death. Those early days, of being crazy stupid in love, scared as hell, and not knowing what's going to come of it.
7. "The Ocean": it said, "look at us, we're not churches, not schools, not skating ponds, swimming pools, but we've lost people, haven't we though?" oh, that's what the ocean can know of a body, and that's when I came back to town. this town is a song about you. you don't know how lucky you are, you don't know how much I adore you, you are a welcoming back from the ocean. This is another complicated one, but: in a way, Cam is JD's welcoming-back to the human race, and in a way JD is Cam's, and it's ashes to ashes, but always the ocean, and both of them are always one step away from letting the undertow drag them down again, and, you know. *handwave*
8. "Your Misfortune": while everybody says "no, no, no, well, it's your misfortune and none of my own," wrong, wrong, wrong, well, it's your misfortune that sweetens my song. i can be the friend you want, i can be your confidante, i can be the right reminder at the right time throwing out the lifeline. stand in the light, stand in the light, stand in the light. This song is and forever will be Cameron Mitchell in any and all of his incarnations, man.
9. "Throw It All Away": take the story you've been told, the lies that justify the pain, the guilt that weighs upon your soul, and throw it all away. So much of that first year is about both of them learning to come to terms with what is and was and will never be again.
10. "Rising Sign": your back curves like a creeping vine with the answers in the fluid in the stem of the spine, in the black-coffee bowl of your eye, why do you overestimate the size of the lie? // i resent the way you make me like myself. I'd call party foul on the artist repeat, except I couldn't think of any more perfect song for those first few months of learning each other's bodies and souls.
11. "Beautiful": now and then i get insecure from all the pain; i'm so ashamed. i am beautiful no matter what they say, words can't bring me down. And no matter how much I snicker at applying a Christina Aguilera cover to Cam, it still fits, because he's a mass and knot of insecurities and aches, and he has to work past them every single day, and just because he doesn't ever consciously think of his scars and all the pain of his family's disapproval doesn't mean they don't weigh on him.
12. "Dig Down Deep": let's go out in the moonlight and walk for a while, maybe stay up all night and we could talk, we could talk for a while. kick off your shoes, 'cause you've got nothing to lose but your sleep. baby, let's dig down, dig down deep. All those night-long conversations, and all the things they learn to say...
13. "Fall On Me": there's the progress we have found, a way to talk around the problem, building towered foresight isn't anything at all. buy the sky and sell the sky and bleed the sky and tell the sky, don't fall on me. ...and finding that the world does not end.
14. "Sister Contine": well, sister light, sister contine, she comes in the light she brings, well, is it hard to run down in the rain, yeah, oh, sister contine, light my wings, glide on by through the words you're singing, well, can you tell me more, well, i believe i hear you callin' and yes, it's hard to run. Flip the gender, man, and you've got JD, astonished to find that he's falling in love, and Cam, sister Contine, calling him to stop running.
15. "You Owe Me Nothing In Return": i'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it; i will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it; you can speak of anger and doubts, your fears and freakouts, and i'll hold it; you can share your so-called shame-filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it, and there are no strings attached to it.
16. "The Book of Love": the book of love has music in it; in fact, that's where music comes from. some of it is just transcendental. some of it is just really dumb. I think this is the best love song ever recorded in the history of ever, because it doesn't shy away from saying that the traditional definition of love is sometimes stupid.
17. "Amazing Grace": through many dangers, toils, and snares i have already come; 'twas grace that brought me safe thus far, and grace will lead me home. Because what they found between them is pretty much the definition of 'grace', unasked for and unexpected, and grace will lead them home. (I have so many recordings of this song, and I agonized over which to include, but I like the way this one isn't perfect and pretty.)
18. "Quiet": i'm heading for a time of quiet when my restlessness is past and i can lie down on my blanket and release my fists at last. i'm heading for a time of solitude, of peace without illusion, when the perfect circle marries all beginnings and conclusions. Because what they're building for each other is peace without illusions, and it's not going to be perfect and it's not going to be blind; they'll always know how they got there and acknowledge what built them, but they won't let it keep them from being happy.
19. "A Warm Place": (instrumental) Because it's what they've found and where they're heading, and maybe, by then, they'll be able to accept it.
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This is kind of special: a mix for a story that doesn't include the song the story was titled after! But this mix, like the story, is about two broken people meeting and falling in love, even when they don't necessarily want to, and it's about coming back from your wanderings and realizing, at the end, that you have a home, and it's about letting go of the past and making yourself a future. (Okay, you have to change a bunch of the genders when you listen to the songs, but hey, can't have everything.)
So, you know. Kick off your shoes, 'cause we got nothin' to lose but our sleep; baby, let's dig down, dig down deep.
1. Verdi Cries // 10,000 Maniacs
2. Wish You Were Here // Pink Floyd
3. Costa del Sol // Hennessey
4. USA // The Pogues
5. Shelter From The Storm // Bob Dylan
6. A Day Like Today // Tom McRae
7. The Ocean (live at the World Cafe) // Dar Williams
8. Your Misfortune // Mike Doughty
9. Throw It All Away // Toad the Wet Sprocket
10. Rising Sign (live) // Mike Doughty
11. Beautiful // Elvis Costello
12. Dig Down Deep // Marc Cohn
13. Fall On Me // Cry Cry Cry
14. Sister Contine // Rusted Root
15. You Owe Me Nothing In Return // Alannis Morisette
16. The Book Of Love // The Magnetic Fields
17. Amazing Grace // Ani DiFranco
18. Quiet // Paul Simon
19. A Warm Place // Nine Inch Nails
1. "Verdi Cries": holidays must end as you know; all is memory, taken home with me, the opera, the stolen tea, the sand drawing, the verging sea, all years ago. I can't quite explain why this is on the mix (and more than that, the opening song) without flapping my hands and resorting to "but -- but --" But this to me is the feel of JD looking back at his past life as Jack, like a dream, like something he remembers semi-fondly and regrets having lost.
2. "Wish You Were Here": and did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? hot ashes for trees? hot air for a cool breeze? cold comfort for change? and did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? how I wish, how I wish you were here; we're just two lost souls swimming in the fishbowl year after year. Okay, it's overused, but I was threatened with death by the invisible voices in my head when I tried to cut it, so. JD, upon learning that Daniel has gone to Atlantis. Because he might have let go of the dream, but not the bitterness.
3. "Costa del Sol": packed a bag with hometown dull, drank all my wine away for a cow's-eye view of spain // look at me, the godless man, wild-eyed disprover of his all-pervasive fame, yes, i'm the godless man, frying bacon and descartes upon my post-pubescent brain. JD, setting out on his journey of self-discovery...
4. "USA": i gambled in two graveyards, i won against the odds, with the saints and with the saviors, with the maggots and the gods. i cursed the things they showed me i could never see again, and howling on the wind at night, i rode upon the rain. And JD coming back, at the end, a stranger.
5. "Shelter From The Storm": not a word was spoke between us, there was little risk involved; everything up to that point had been left unresolved. try imagining a place where it's always safe and warm. "come in," she said, "i'll give you shelter from the storm." One of the ones where you have to flip the genders, but: "Come in," Cam said; "I'll give you shelter from the storm."
6. "A Day Like Today": and all i ever play are the cards you gave me; it's just my version of the truth. i wish i could comfort you. if love is our defense, it's all right, i can comfort you. if you let me i could love you to death. Those early days, of being crazy stupid in love, scared as hell, and not knowing what's going to come of it.
7. "The Ocean": it said, "look at us, we're not churches, not schools, not skating ponds, swimming pools, but we've lost people, haven't we though?" oh, that's what the ocean can know of a body, and that's when I came back to town. this town is a song about you. you don't know how lucky you are, you don't know how much I adore you, you are a welcoming back from the ocean. This is another complicated one, but: in a way, Cam is JD's welcoming-back to the human race, and in a way JD is Cam's, and it's ashes to ashes, but always the ocean, and both of them are always one step away from letting the undertow drag them down again, and, you know. *handwave*
8. "Your Misfortune": while everybody says "no, no, no, well, it's your misfortune and none of my own," wrong, wrong, wrong, well, it's your misfortune that sweetens my song. i can be the friend you want, i can be your confidante, i can be the right reminder at the right time throwing out the lifeline. stand in the light, stand in the light, stand in the light. This song is and forever will be Cameron Mitchell in any and all of his incarnations, man.
9. "Throw It All Away": take the story you've been told, the lies that justify the pain, the guilt that weighs upon your soul, and throw it all away. So much of that first year is about both of them learning to come to terms with what is and was and will never be again.
10. "Rising Sign": your back curves like a creeping vine with the answers in the fluid in the stem of the spine, in the black-coffee bowl of your eye, why do you overestimate the size of the lie? // i resent the way you make me like myself. I'd call party foul on the artist repeat, except I couldn't think of any more perfect song for those first few months of learning each other's bodies and souls.
11. "Beautiful": now and then i get insecure from all the pain; i'm so ashamed. i am beautiful no matter what they say, words can't bring me down. And no matter how much I snicker at applying a Christina Aguilera cover to Cam, it still fits, because he's a mass and knot of insecurities and aches, and he has to work past them every single day, and just because he doesn't ever consciously think of his scars and all the pain of his family's disapproval doesn't mean they don't weigh on him.
12. "Dig Down Deep": let's go out in the moonlight and walk for a while, maybe stay up all night and we could talk, we could talk for a while. kick off your shoes, 'cause you've got nothing to lose but your sleep. baby, let's dig down, dig down deep. All those night-long conversations, and all the things they learn to say...
13. "Fall On Me": there's the progress we have found, a way to talk around the problem, building towered foresight isn't anything at all. buy the sky and sell the sky and bleed the sky and tell the sky, don't fall on me. ...and finding that the world does not end.
14. "Sister Contine": well, sister light, sister contine, she comes in the light she brings, well, is it hard to run down in the rain, yeah, oh, sister contine, light my wings, glide on by through the words you're singing, well, can you tell me more, well, i believe i hear you callin' and yes, it's hard to run. Flip the gender, man, and you've got JD, astonished to find that he's falling in love, and Cam, sister Contine, calling him to stop running.
15. "You Owe Me Nothing In Return": i'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it; i will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it; you can speak of anger and doubts, your fears and freakouts, and i'll hold it; you can share your so-called shame-filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it, and there are no strings attached to it.
16. "The Book of Love": the book of love has music in it; in fact, that's where music comes from. some of it is just transcendental. some of it is just really dumb. I think this is the best love song ever recorded in the history of ever, because it doesn't shy away from saying that the traditional definition of love is sometimes stupid.
17. "Amazing Grace": through many dangers, toils, and snares i have already come; 'twas grace that brought me safe thus far, and grace will lead me home. Because what they found between them is pretty much the definition of 'grace', unasked for and unexpected, and grace will lead them home. (I have so many recordings of this song, and I agonized over which to include, but I like the way this one isn't perfect and pretty.)
18. "Quiet": i'm heading for a time of quiet when my restlessness is past and i can lie down on my blanket and release my fists at last. i'm heading for a time of solitude, of peace without illusion, when the perfect circle marries all beginnings and conclusions. Because what they're building for each other is peace without illusions, and it's not going to be perfect and it's not going to be blind; they'll always know how they got there and acknowledge what built them, but they won't let it keep them from being happy.
19. "A Warm Place": (instrumental) Because it's what they've found and where they're heading, and maybe, by then, they'll be able to accept it.
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