I know what you mean... I've done them all, so it's not curiosity that drives me crazy, it's just that desire to get fucked. I've been clean for 6 months I guess, of just no drugs period. It's tempting, but whenever I think how bad I'd like to go out and get a hold of something I try to think of a reason why not.
A good reason why not is because do you want to depend on a drug for fun? I always say, Am I so fucking boring that I have to use drugs to be "me" or have a good time with these people? I hope you can control things, I know how hard it is. Just try to remove yourself, try to make a point of having fun with people without drugs. The first bit is always the hardest. xx
its not that i do it to have fun.... i mean i rarely drink i just smoke ciggs alot but the people i hang out with do alot of drugs and i just like the feeling of it, i like the feeling of not worrying about anything and it just sucks cause i know i can say no but i dont want to, im done with the whole meth deal so thats good but im on to h noww soo i dunno its all confusing
Yeah, but you just have to ask yourself if that one feeling is worth everything. Honestly, before I am where I am today I felt like that one feeling was worth it, and I guess looking back I felt dead. You do it once in a while now, but after some time you'll find your world revolving around a new drug. Just find something that makes you feel as good as a drug, makes you forget everything bad, and try to support that instead of something that leaves you with nothing.
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A good reason why not is because do you want to depend on a drug for fun? I always say, Am I so fucking boring that I have to use drugs to be "me" or have a good time with these people? I hope you can control things, I know how hard it is. Just try to remove yourself, try to make a point of having fun with people without drugs. The first bit is always the hardest.
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