「The Tear Of Joy」《Chapter 3》
Title:: The Tear Of Joy
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 6317 words
Rating:: NC-17
WARNING:: dubious-consent (or that was what he wants to believe because he enjoys it as a fucking bitch bye)
His lips were being kissed by his boss at that moment, how that fluffy hand was rubbing his chin softly, how their noses were being rubbed slightly. Satoshi tried to close his eyes and enjoy it, he was desiring to enjoy it, but his awareness was only thinking about his wife and that kiss meant the reason why he would be angry once more. When Ninomiya broke it, the normal distance returned and Kazunari only stood up to take a shower. Ohno was so lost about that. Had he just kissed him without a reason? Last night, he was a bit excited by the beer and also angry because of his wife, so he could excuse that, but what Ninomiya had just done was so out of place that Ohno kept there until Ninomiya ended the shower and appeared again with his towel to remove it. Once more, he showed him perfectly that round butt and Satoshi was just desiring to approach and do the dirtiest things with it, but the employee only stared at his naked body until Ninomiya turned around naked and smirking.
“Do you like what you see?” he asked, being completely unashamed of showing everything to him. Satoshi blinked several times and gulped nervously. By the corner of his eye, he glanced at how Ninomiya was approaching him like that, without a single fabric covering anything and placed just in front of him. Satoshi lowered his head, not knowing where to look or what to do and suddenly, his dreams became true. Kazunari pushed him backwards until making him lie down and he sat over his thighs. His hands were touching his torso slowly and his body was lowered, making Ohno feel everything against his. He was frozen there, and just pushed him aside slightly. Ninomiya rolled on the bed while laughing so hard. Ohno just sat, amazed by such a bounder and see how his boss stood up to get dressed up.
“I can't believe how naïve you are” he thought out loud and Satoshi only decided to leave the room to stop that embarrassing situation. Since the hand incident, Satoshi could not speak a word, he was so lost and confused by how hard Ninomiya was playing that his sense of saying what he thought disappeared. His boss did not talk after that either, they both prepared the stuff needed to go to work and finally, they were reaching the blue car again. Without talking about the destiny, Satoshi drove to his house so he would take a shower and change his clothes. They seemed as having read each other's mind, because Kazunari just waited in the car the ten minutes he took to get ready enough to be back and start to drive once more, straight to the office. No one talked, Ninomiya seemed as being into his thoughts completely and Satoshi could not help but glance at him. He was still bloody handsome with that messy hair and his opened shirt. Somehow he was regretting not having done anything before on the bed. His body was yearning for him that close so much that he hated the fact that the chance to have tasted it had been ruined. But what he was thinking… He was married, of course he could not have that type of situations.
He was fed up of himself and his attraction regarding Ninomiya. He always thought he would be loyal to his wife, that no other person would destroy that marriage. But if he continued like that, who knew how they two would end, and he was so disappointed with himself because of that. Satoshi felt a bad person, someone who was betraying the supposed most important person of his life. However, he could not believe in anything already, because everything was breaking and changing around him without a chance or the option to stop it. His own consciousness was being his worst enemy at that moment and he sighed deeply, almost reaching the parking of the company.
“What are you thinking about?” his boss asked him suddenly, and Ohno glanced at him while frowning. That man was looking at him serious and curious, but with that cool aura that seemed irresistible to the employee. He did not know what to answer. He could not say anything which was spoken inside his mind. Or he would be completely defeated in front of that superb man.
“I have to end the contract with that new company” he explained, indeed; thinking about it, instead of him, was better, so he just went with that to create a normal chat between them.
“It’s so long, they are really adding a lot of impediments… If you want, I can end it” Ninomiya said calm and willing to do it, but Ohno just frowned.
“No, I don’t think you would…” he shut up before ending the sentence. He noticed his own words, still thinking that Ninomiya was unable to do that work and he only heard his chuckle. His disturbed chuckle.
“You don't think I can do it…” he finished it with an irritated voice. Satoshi sighed, he did not think that, it was just that his mouth had betrayed him in the worst way possible.
“No, I don't mean that-“
“I don't care what you mean, it will always be like that” after saying that, Satoshi stopped the car in the parking and Ninomiya did not doubt a single second to open the door, get out and walk straight to the company without looking back. Satoshi kept shocked inside the car, looking how that man was walking elegantly until disappearing in the corner. He was feeling so bad. Satoshi had hurt him, but he did not think Ninomiya would react like that, mostly because the other day his commentary was not taken in the same way as that moment. Maybe Ninomiya was getting tired of that situation. It was normal, nobody liked being underestimated in their job, especially if he was good at it.
Slowly, he left the car to enter the building and he saw a lot of people waiting for the elevator, he recognized the back of one of them. Satoshi approached while frowning and he asked a coworker. It seemed like one of the two elevators had broken and now just at the hour to arrive, it was being so hard to go at the floor needed. Satoshi sighed, knowing that he would have to go up twenty four floors while being completely fixed to everyone. He had bought a car not to handle that in the train, he truly hated people touching him without reason. Then, while waiting, he placed himself beside Ninomiya and glanced at him. He wondered if from that moment on, that man would still want to know something about him, he was being really cold after that. But the elevator arrived and everyone tried to enter it, so Satoshi hurried up. He did not know how he ended up reduced to be on a corner, pressing his back on the wall. When he raised his gaze, bothered by the person in front of him who was completely fixed at his body, Satoshi found a cool face staring at him. His boss leaned a forearm on the wall beside him and Ohno looked at everyone there. He was panicking, he was well-known for being married, what would they think if they found Ninomiya so close to him? Luckily, all of them were on their backs.
Slowly, he could feel how that man was rubbing their bodies slightly. Ohno placed a hand on his hips to push him away, trying to glance at the people beside him. And as his worst nightmare, he started to be excited down there. He gulped, knowing that Ninomiya could feel his half-erection over his. Thanks God, the elevator opened and a few people went outside, because Satoshi could move around to have Kazunari behind him, against the corner. He felt safe the last ten floors left, but being so naïve, he felt a hand crossing his hips to be introduced inside his trousers pocket. Ohno ran to catch it, but it was late, his fingers were already rubbing his crotch. He felt shivers, which made his breath be irregular and his face be tense. He was so lost, it was so erotic, hot and new that he was feeling his body in its limit. He tried not to moan, even gasp, controlling his breath the most possible, but Satoshi was truly playing hard in front of everyone. Finally, the elevator was opened on their floor and they could get out. Being the last of the people who went out, Satoshi looked behind and when he saw no one, he caught Kazunari's hand to push him into the toilets. It was empty and he took advantage of it.
“What's wrong with you?!” he shouted, being out of himself. Ninomiya only smirked and looked at his crotch satisfactorily. Ohno being fed up of him, just approached and caught his shirt strongly. “Never touch me again, okay?” his voice was deep, scary, but Ninomiya only seemed even more amused. Suddenly, his waist was wrapped by a strong arm and his body was pulled inside of a cabin. His back found a wall and what were strong grips around his shirt became just two hands leaning on his shoulders not to fall. Ninomiya was so close to Satoshi, but one of his hands just closed the door and locked it. Their eyes kept looking at each other for several seconds until his crotch felt a harsh hand touching it blatantly. Ohno gasped abruptly and tried to stop him, however, Ninomiya chuckled slightly.
“You’re truly stupid” he muttered as his hand stopped. Ohno frowned wanting to punch his face, but his words surprised him. “You’re… so… naïve… that… I… can't…. stop… myself…” between every word spoken beside his ear, Kazunari kept crashing their crotches hard. Ohno felt as dying into pleasure, that was overcoming any dream he had or he could have.
“Please… Stop…” Ohno muttered while moaning lowly, feeling how he was reaching his point of no return. Then, hastily, Ninomiya stopped, hardly breathing too, and his hands worked fast on opening their flies to set their two hard members free. Ohno refused, tried several times not to allow him, but Kazunari only touched him more until being weak. His sleepy eyes were showing how much lust was killing his inward and Ninomiya caught the two lengths to pump them together. One of his hands went a bit up to rest it on his neck, his fingers touching his nape, and Kazunari approached their mouths. They were so close Satoshi could almost feel the kiss, but it did not arrive and he was being impatient. Why was he desiring that man so badly? Why was he desiring to be fucked against the wall? Why was he desiring to be possessed by that man over and over again? He was as lost as never before and scared, so scared of what he was feeling.
“Fuck… I want to be inside…” Ninomiya thought out loud in a whisper Ohno could hear because of how close they were and the employee could not believe its meaning so he preferred to stay in the ignorance. That was already so surrealistic to continue adding more facts which seemed more impossible than the last. He only focused on that hand touching him, on that member fixed at his and that breath which heated up his lips. But even like that, his own consciousness was bothering him a lot. Too much that his hand went down and caught his to stop it from moving.
“I’m married… Stop, please…” he breathed heavily. Ninomiya only looked into his eyes. That hazel colour was darker than usually, Ohno could feel that desire, lust inside of them. He felt hotter just by watching them, but even like that, he knew that was wrong. There was no way he would ever cheat on his wife. He was not able to do that.
“Then, believe you're being raped, that you're being forced… But let me end…” he spoke rubbing his lips against his slightly. Satoshi closed his eyes fleetingly to enjoy that, and he knew that would be the perfect excuse to be able to end that, but he was not as crazy as that pervert boss. Ohno had not gotten those values.
“What are you sayi-“ his words were cut off by a sudden kiss when they heard the door of the toilets being opened. That person could hear them if they were not quiet, and that would mean being defeated regarding that. Satoshi only concentrated on those thin lips catching his softly before breaking it slowly, without making any sound. They pressed their foreheads together, Ohno lowering his gaze ashamed and Ninomiya only continued his work with his hand, not waiting for that unknown to go away. Satoshi did a hasty moan and his boss even smirked; he was searching for that reaction, for some reason Kazunari wanted everyone to know their secret game not caring about his life at all. And that seemed so selfish for Ohno.
His face became gloomy, he felt disappointed by that. However, that did not stop his boss from going faster when that person closed the door after going out. Satoshi was feeling truly used at that moment, it was so painful that his eyes were wet also. He hated that with all his might, how could he end up like that? So easily and without will-power at all. But the most frustrating thing was how he came on his hand, how he grabbed his shirt while closing his eyes, how he moaned full of pleasure, how he let that man kiss his lips once more. Ohno felt so defeated that he could not raise his gaze after ending. He did not watch either how Kazunari caught paper to clean his hand and his member or how he did not care about him at all, just going out of there in a hurry. Ohno only cleaned it poorly to close his fly finally and sat on the WC to wipe away the few tears which were falling abruptly. Why was he mattering his acts that much? Why was it hurting like that? Why was he feeling so bad? He would love to think it was because of his wife, for having cheated on her, for having been with other person, for having broken his promise of being loyal, but no matter how painful it was, his heart was aching because of how Ninomiya had treated him. How could he mean for him something so strong already? Three days. Just three days had passed since they met. Why then? Why that pain?
*****
Finally, lunch time had arrived and he felt free to go upstairs and reach the rooftop with his usual coffee and sandwich from the cafeteria. He was losing weight because of that, but he did not care actually. His stomach was refusing the food so much lately that he preferred not to eat and go on without stupid stomachaches or sudden vomits. Then, he sat on a bench to enjoy it, the summer arriving, that heat warming his body under that stained suit. He sighed once more remembering everything. He could not avoid it at all in the whole morning, but luckily he could end the contract. Satoshi would deliver it after ending the lunch break to Kazunari, who had disappeared suddenly at that hour. It was not like Ohno cared about his affairs, but the curiosity was hitting his mind strongly without a reason. That man was captivating him more and more no matter how much pain he could feel inside his chest.
Then, being weird that someone would go there at that hour, a man appeared in front of him. He raised his gaze, finding an known face, but that did not make the situation weirder. “Matsumoto, is there a problem?” Ohno asked straight, that man was his coworker from the same floor and even if they did not usually talk, they got along as much as possible in the meetings and the company's parties. He seemed a good guy.
“I would like to ask you something” he started to talk nervously. “What were you doing this morning in the toilets?” his question was like a pot of cold water over his head. How could he know? How could he ask that? Actually, why was he asking about that? Maybe he could avoid it yet and make him feel confused.
“I don't know what you mean” Satoshi responded apparently calmed, but he was sweating by the adrenaline rushing his veins like a roller coaster. Matsumoto only moved a bit uncomfortable.
“Boss Ninomiya and you in a cabin” he explained himself better briefly and Ohno could not hide his nervousness. He knew it, what had happened inside of that fucking toilet was known by someone. He felt no floor under his feet. But even like that, he tried to hide it and lie.
“It’s not your business, Matsumoto” he stood up to leave the rooftop as fast as possible but the words of his coworker stopped him.
“I will tell your wife” he threatened Ohno straight. The employee only chuckled and turned around to face him so close.
“It’s your word against mine and I'm sure my wife will believe me before an unknown” his despicable smile was hiding how scared he was. Despite what he had said, he did not believe his wife would trust him that much. She was so jealous and possessive that Satoshi truly hated that part of her. So yes, it was so possible he would mess his marriage up with that.
“I have a video of you two” Jun continued his thread of confessions and Ohno, before panicking, preferred to use his brain.
“Then, show me, show me how you will break my marriage” Ohno challenged him, but Matsumoto only rejected that idea. He knew he had nothing, mostly because he had been checking every single corner of that cabin during the time Kazunari had been touching him. Just a question was left inside his mind then. “Why would you do that?” he asked, still with a rude voice and his coldness lowering the temperature not mattering if the sun was hotter that day.
“You don't deserve a woman like her. I don't know how she could marry you…” Matsumoto said with anger showing up in his words.
“Instead of you” Satoshi ended his sentence amused by how stupid that man was. Jun only frowned. Ohno knew how his wife was desired by several men, but he did not care because what he did not want to become real was already happening. “Even if you get to make us get divorced, you will never be her first option… Neither me…” he chuckled coldly in front of him, but sad when he turned around. That was making a hole inside of him. It was so possible she was cheating on him that he wondered several times why he had gotten married at first place.
Without hearing another word from that person, he got out from the rooftop as quick as he could. He was almost trembling by the fear of being uncovered. And just because Ninomiya had become crazy and wanted to touch him anywhere. His life was a mess since he knew his new boss, so the problem was Ninomiya's one. Even though he remembered how he liked those touches and how he let him to continue. But it was not his fault, or at least he pretended to believe it was not.
Then, reaching his desk after the shortest lunch ever, no one was around, less one person in the office. He took advantage of that to deliver the contract finally and go on with the next work. He caught all the papers and approached it. The door was opened, but even like that, he knocked at the door while looking at the back of that dirty man. The boss did not turn around to know who was, he only invited him and Satoshi came in doubtfully. He did not know how to react after what had happened between them. He did not think about it before coming inside and he hated himself a bit for that. Suddenly, Kazunari turned around and found him there, still and insecure once more and a small smile tried to appear on his face, however it was hidden at the next second. He started to approach with those eyes again and Ohno knew he had to stop that. He had to eradicate the problem.
“I've ended the contract” his voice was a bit louder than he expected, showing how nervous he was, and worsening that situation, his cheeks started to be so flushed. He tried to stop that reaction, but it seemed impossible, his body seemed as out of control. Just then, Ninomiya caught the amount of papers and glanced at them quickly. Then, he approached the desk and left them on it, catching another smaller one before walking near him again.
“I did my own version, please check it out before going home. I will choose the best one to deliver” he ordered him and Satoshi widened his eyes. That was impossible, that contract in just a morning seemed impossible even for him when Ninomiya had not appeared yet. His hands caught it and it was so smaller, he wondered if that was okay. There was a lot of information to add, for sure it was wrong like that. But he accepted, at least he would only have to read a document for the rest of the day. So he only nodded and walked outside without any interruption. He sighed relieved finally, that had been tensed, but after a lot of attempts, they truly looked as employee and boss. Satoshi only returned to his desk and started with the document.
He read it twice, he was even starting the third time trying to find just a single mistake, but nothing. It was perfect. That contract overcame any expectation he could have. Everything was so simple, short, but perfectly explained, not lacking anything which was not irrelevant. It was so easy to read and understand, but without erasing the needed technicalities about the subject in question. Satoshi was completely amazed by a work that superb. Where had he been working before there? For that he had to have years of experience, but where had he gotten it? Ohno was speechless noticing his own mistakes in his contract. Slowly, he started to feel a bit useless, having worked hard on it to create such scum, was he being even efficient? He doubted it somehow, no matter how many hours he would keep working and improving in the nights, of course he would never be someone reckoned by his amazing work, or by highlighting positively. And that was creating a pressure on his back, knowing that if he ended up behind his coworkers, he would be fired. Satoshi only sighed, rubbing his face with his hands feeling defeated and so down.
Suddenly, his name was spoken by his boss to approach the office and he could feel some gazes on him. Why? Why were they looking at him like that? It was so unkind to feel that way. However, Ohno only approached the office and closed the door behind him. Kazunari was waiting for him leaned on his desk with his butt, his contract on his hands. The employee only waited for some hint and Ninomiya started to walk to him. Ohno was not looking at his eyes, he was still unable to do that after that morning. Even like that, he could still watch how he broke every single paper from his work. Satoshi widened his eyes, being completely shocked and his boss just threw it in his trash bin.
“This is how your work is worth it” Ninomiya smirked, his eyes full of victory. What was that? A revenge for his words? Did he deserve that?
“I'm so sorry about it” his voice was trying to seem normal, but it trembled a bit at the end when he bowed and the knot in his throat became unbearable. He could not breathe by feeling so useless at that moment. That embarrassment for having done such an awful work and even having delivered it like that… He should be ashamed of that.
“Then, it's clear I will send mine. But for the next time, learn how to create a decent contract” Ninomiya scolded him, no mattering how he could feel and Satoshi bowed once more to express again his regrets. He could not say another word, he was completely out of place and the only thing he tried to do was turning around to get out of there. But when he did, his legs felt as disappearing, everything was blurry in front of him and the last reaction he could have was holding on to the doorframe not to fall on the floor. His mouth was so dry he could not swallow and his head was truly hurting. Satoshi was so lost about what was happening to him, but he was starting to feel again his legs and see properly.
“Ohno, are you okay?” a worried voice asked him from behind. And now Kazunari was worrying about him, after how he treated him that day. He had never felt as used as those last ten hours. And just because his fucking boss could not be more careful with the others' feelings.
“Yes, boss” Ohno answered as cool as possible, trying to make another step, and it worked. He was walking again out of that office, reaching his desk to pick up his stuff and leave the company. It was time to go after all, that day he did not need to handle anything else. Everyone was looking at him, for leaving that soon after a whole year leaving hours after them, but he did not care, he did not care about that man who was looking at him. He was fed up with caring about others.
Satoshi only reached his car as he could, feeling so weak and tired he thought constantly he was going to faint. Not sure about what he was doing, his hand started the car and to drive. He was so nervous just in case it would come again and he would have an accident. Luckily, the path was short, so he was going to be fine. However, slowly, his eyes started to close, stopping watching the road. Only when a truck whistled him, he woke up hastily to turn the steering wheel hard and save his life from a sure death. What had just happened? His car had been almost hit by a truck because he had fallen asleep while driving. He knew he did not have to take the car being like that, even thus, he had been that stupid to do it. Now, his heart was pounding, his head was hurting the double and his body was trembling so much he was doubting he could reach home. But slowly, being so carefully, Ohno was able to arrive safely.
Then, he came into his house to find his wife and greet her with a smile, somehow he had missed her. She only shouted at him back, though. “Why didn’t you take the food I did for you? And where did you sleep last night? The bed is the same as I left it yesterday” she seemed crazy and Satoshi, instead of telling the truth, he lied about everything.
“I reached home so late that I was not hungry and fell asleep on the sofa…” his voice was tired, husky, reflection of how bad he was feeling, but his wife only continued complaining. So much that Satoshi lost his nerves. “Can’t you shut up?!” he shouted at her as strong as his health could and he cut off her words instantly. A weird silence was created due to the strange behaviour he was having. Normally he would have just let her talk and talk until she would have gotten tired, but that day was being already so horrible that he could not anymore.
“I’m your wife” she only spoke after it. Satoshi understood that fact properly, but there were limits she should not cross.
“I’m going to sleep” Ohno informed briefly untying his tie.
“And the dinner?” she only asked, of course that was the only thing she cared about.
“I'm not hungry” that was the last thing they said that night. Satoshi only went upstairs to undress and take a bath first. He rubbed his skin hard, trying to erase any mark on his body from that despicable being. He could still remember what had happened, every single detail, every single kiss he gave him, how warm his hands were or how good feeling him so close was. Satoshi was unable to forget that, forget other person in his life and that was creating an unexpected pain inside his chest that it was so hard to bear. He never thought he was going to be able to cheat on his wife, to be as horrible as that. His fist punched the water strongly, hating himself as nothing. How could he?
*****
His head was truly hurting after having a horrible night. He could not sleep at all, his mind was thinking and thinking again without explanation. He was completely hating the fact that he was going to work a whole day again beside that awful man. That did not help him to be willing to work gladly. What was more, he did not want to work anymore. For first time in his life he needed a rest, Satoshi was truly feeling overwhelmed by everything around him, feeling how he could not control anything, how his life was out of control and he was unable to stop it. That was destroying him from inside his soul. The fact that all he knew, all he was used to became unbearable to handle those days, and he was scared, so afraid of trying new things, of stopping the usual ones to change it. And what was the main point, he had no idea of what he should change first.
That was why he stood up as every morning, dressed his suit as every morning and took breakfast beside his wife as every morning. The only different detail was that she was angry with him because of last night, but he did not care too much, he had better problems at that moment like to focus on his wife's tantrum. So he caught his briefcase and got inside his car as every morning, but another detail came up; he was completely scared of driving again. His mind could not stop remembering the almost car accident he could have caused. However, feeling perfectly awake and ready, his keys were introduced and turned around to make the motor work and go straight to his company. He was a bit sweating by the fear inside of him, that was not usual, Satoshi being so scared of driving. His heart was pounding fast when he arrived at the parking and turned the car off. His hands were trembling and his legs felt as jelly. Maybe a bit of water was what he needed.
Ohno walked as if nothing was happening to him to enter the building and search for the water machine to take a bottle. Indeed, the cold water was refreshing after having so much heat in the car, but his body reaction was still hitting him strongly. Satoshi only decided to carry on, for sure it would go away while working. So he arrived at his desk and found a document on it. His hand caught it to read it and before ending, his boss appeared first. “I want you to make a graphic with all of that, okay? It's urgent so finish it before lunch break” Kazunari explained like in a hurry and Satoshi widened his eyes.
“But this is too much” he thought out loud, being audible for the people around him and Kazunari frowned while approaching his desk.
“Is there a problem? If you're here, considered one of the best employees, is because you do these things so easily, right?” Kazunari voice was severe, marked by the sarcasm he loved using so much. Ohno only nodded while lowering his gaze. “Then, why are you wasting time? Start now!” he shouted at him in the middle of the office and Satoshi just sat down to turn his computer on and start to organize the information. He could not look up, the embarrassment was so hard in him. The desire to cry was strong, so strong that he could not focus on the paper, mostly because he could not see it. Then, suddenly someone approached him by behind.
“Maybe this will help you, I've been in charge of gathering that information” Satoshi turned around to find Matsumoto there, looking at him, surprised when their eyes found each other. Ohno's ones were red, so evident that, even though Satoshi had taken the paper and was working on it already, his coworker tried to know. “Are you fine?” his voice was a whisper, what he thanked; he did not need anyone else knowing his actual mood.
“Yes, go away” he did not raise his head from the paper, but could feel how Jun walked away. At that moment, Satoshi did not want to wonder why he had just behaved like that when the previous day, he had been threatening him with breaking his marriage. That would only make him lose more time and he was horribly lacking it. His hands worked as fast as possible, but his eyes looked at the clock and he knew it was impossible to end it on time, mostly because his headache was being stronger and his fingers mistook the keys several times due to the shakiness he was suffering since yesterday.
Nothing was helping him and the pressure of messing his work once more was overcoming him. His thumb dried his eyes in a fast move to continue the graphic quickly. His eyes already were confusing the numbers and he had to check it over and over again. When he wanted to notice the hour, everyone was already standing up to enjoy their lunch. Ohno tried to go faster, but he knew he needed at least another hour to finish it properly. However, knowing that was going to happen, Kazunari called him to deliver the graphic in his office. Satoshi breathed deeply before standing up and walking up to the desk of his boss with his empty hands. His knees could not already hold up his body anymore and slightly one of his hands leaned on one chair’s back. Kazunari did not say a word, he wanted him to talk, to hear his excuses, to make fun of him because he knew since the first moment it was not feasible. And that was truly hurting him; how Ninomiya was enjoying all of that. He wondered why after how he had treated him. Why?
“I'm sorry, the graphic is not ready, but if you gave me one hour more, I would-“
“I never thought you could be so useless” his words cut off not only him, but also his breath and heartbeat. Kazunari stood up to walk around him. “You take all of that time to end a simple contract and also you do such a shit. Now I ask you to end a simple graphic and are you telling me you need more time?!” he shouted at him once more, close to him. His head wanted to burst, but what was worse, he could not breathe properly, the oxygen refused to get inside his lungs. It was like his body was completely paralyzed. “You are so useless that now I understand why your wife is cheating on you, having such a husband has to be difficult” he chuckled despicable. Satoshi was not even blinking not to shed all the water in his eyes. Then, he felt him so close to his ear. “I bet she only wants you for that big dick you have” Ohno could not anymore and raised his gaze to look at him, wanting to kill him. But what a mistake, because the tears fell so easily that Satoshi ran to dry them with a trembling hand. “Go to work, useless crybaby. I want that graphic in thirty minutes or you will be fired, okay?” he said despicably and Satoshi wanted to reply, he wanted to send him to hell, to shout at him and say how much he hated him, but the knot in his throat did not allow him even breathe.
So he just turned around, not having any point of support for his body and his legs only dragged his feet as he could. Once his knees failed, his hands grabbed the door strongly, feeling he was going to faint. His eyes could not see already, his ears could only hear Kazunari's question as if he was inside the ocean. “Ohno, are you okay?” why was he worrying about him now? What the fuck was wrong with him? He did not reply, mostly because he could not, and he caught the door handle to open it and try to get out. But as what he was guessing, his body lost all its strength, his eyes refused to see anymore, and his hands dropped the doorframe to feel how he was falling in the nowhere. The last thing he could remember was a strong hit against the floor and a shout. “Satoshi!”
//Hi! Kind of late because I fell asleep but here it is and here I leave it. Lol. Well. This chapter is hard xD Sooo many things happen and omg that toilet scene is so I love it/I hate it LOL. Also, Jun appeared! Yes! To fuck his life! XD Don't mind him too much xD we all love you Jun 💜
Okay, having babbled relaxedly, I invite you to tell me what you think about it and I hope you will wait for the next this Friday~
Byes mai frends ✌
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 6317 words
Rating:: NC-17
WARNING:: dubious-consent (or that was what he wants to believe because he enjoys it as a fucking bitch bye)
His lips were being kissed by his boss at that moment, how that fluffy hand was rubbing his chin softly, how their noses were being rubbed slightly. Satoshi tried to close his eyes and enjoy it, he was desiring to enjoy it, but his awareness was only thinking about his wife and that kiss meant the reason why he would be angry once more. When Ninomiya broke it, the normal distance returned and Kazunari only stood up to take a shower. Ohno was so lost about that. Had he just kissed him without a reason? Last night, he was a bit excited by the beer and also angry because of his wife, so he could excuse that, but what Ninomiya had just done was so out of place that Ohno kept there until Ninomiya ended the shower and appeared again with his towel to remove it. Once more, he showed him perfectly that round butt and Satoshi was just desiring to approach and do the dirtiest things with it, but the employee only stared at his naked body until Ninomiya turned around naked and smirking.
“Do you like what you see?” he asked, being completely unashamed of showing everything to him. Satoshi blinked several times and gulped nervously. By the corner of his eye, he glanced at how Ninomiya was approaching him like that, without a single fabric covering anything and placed just in front of him. Satoshi lowered his head, not knowing where to look or what to do and suddenly, his dreams became true. Kazunari pushed him backwards until making him lie down and he sat over his thighs. His hands were touching his torso slowly and his body was lowered, making Ohno feel everything against his. He was frozen there, and just pushed him aside slightly. Ninomiya rolled on the bed while laughing so hard. Ohno just sat, amazed by such a bounder and see how his boss stood up to get dressed up.
“I can't believe how naïve you are” he thought out loud and Satoshi only decided to leave the room to stop that embarrassing situation. Since the hand incident, Satoshi could not speak a word, he was so lost and confused by how hard Ninomiya was playing that his sense of saying what he thought disappeared. His boss did not talk after that either, they both prepared the stuff needed to go to work and finally, they were reaching the blue car again. Without talking about the destiny, Satoshi drove to his house so he would take a shower and change his clothes. They seemed as having read each other's mind, because Kazunari just waited in the car the ten minutes he took to get ready enough to be back and start to drive once more, straight to the office. No one talked, Ninomiya seemed as being into his thoughts completely and Satoshi could not help but glance at him. He was still bloody handsome with that messy hair and his opened shirt. Somehow he was regretting not having done anything before on the bed. His body was yearning for him that close so much that he hated the fact that the chance to have tasted it had been ruined. But what he was thinking… He was married, of course he could not have that type of situations.
He was fed up of himself and his attraction regarding Ninomiya. He always thought he would be loyal to his wife, that no other person would destroy that marriage. But if he continued like that, who knew how they two would end, and he was so disappointed with himself because of that. Satoshi felt a bad person, someone who was betraying the supposed most important person of his life. However, he could not believe in anything already, because everything was breaking and changing around him without a chance or the option to stop it. His own consciousness was being his worst enemy at that moment and he sighed deeply, almost reaching the parking of the company.
“What are you thinking about?” his boss asked him suddenly, and Ohno glanced at him while frowning. That man was looking at him serious and curious, but with that cool aura that seemed irresistible to the employee. He did not know what to answer. He could not say anything which was spoken inside his mind. Or he would be completely defeated in front of that superb man.
“I have to end the contract with that new company” he explained, indeed; thinking about it, instead of him, was better, so he just went with that to create a normal chat between them.
“It’s so long, they are really adding a lot of impediments… If you want, I can end it” Ninomiya said calm and willing to do it, but Ohno just frowned.
“No, I don’t think you would…” he shut up before ending the sentence. He noticed his own words, still thinking that Ninomiya was unable to do that work and he only heard his chuckle. His disturbed chuckle.
“You don't think I can do it…” he finished it with an irritated voice. Satoshi sighed, he did not think that, it was just that his mouth had betrayed him in the worst way possible.
“No, I don't mean that-“
“I don't care what you mean, it will always be like that” after saying that, Satoshi stopped the car in the parking and Ninomiya did not doubt a single second to open the door, get out and walk straight to the company without looking back. Satoshi kept shocked inside the car, looking how that man was walking elegantly until disappearing in the corner. He was feeling so bad. Satoshi had hurt him, but he did not think Ninomiya would react like that, mostly because the other day his commentary was not taken in the same way as that moment. Maybe Ninomiya was getting tired of that situation. It was normal, nobody liked being underestimated in their job, especially if he was good at it.
Slowly, he left the car to enter the building and he saw a lot of people waiting for the elevator, he recognized the back of one of them. Satoshi approached while frowning and he asked a coworker. It seemed like one of the two elevators had broken and now just at the hour to arrive, it was being so hard to go at the floor needed. Satoshi sighed, knowing that he would have to go up twenty four floors while being completely fixed to everyone. He had bought a car not to handle that in the train, he truly hated people touching him without reason. Then, while waiting, he placed himself beside Ninomiya and glanced at him. He wondered if from that moment on, that man would still want to know something about him, he was being really cold after that. But the elevator arrived and everyone tried to enter it, so Satoshi hurried up. He did not know how he ended up reduced to be on a corner, pressing his back on the wall. When he raised his gaze, bothered by the person in front of him who was completely fixed at his body, Satoshi found a cool face staring at him. His boss leaned a forearm on the wall beside him and Ohno looked at everyone there. He was panicking, he was well-known for being married, what would they think if they found Ninomiya so close to him? Luckily, all of them were on their backs.
Slowly, he could feel how that man was rubbing their bodies slightly. Ohno placed a hand on his hips to push him away, trying to glance at the people beside him. And as his worst nightmare, he started to be excited down there. He gulped, knowing that Ninomiya could feel his half-erection over his. Thanks God, the elevator opened and a few people went outside, because Satoshi could move around to have Kazunari behind him, against the corner. He felt safe the last ten floors left, but being so naïve, he felt a hand crossing his hips to be introduced inside his trousers pocket. Ohno ran to catch it, but it was late, his fingers were already rubbing his crotch. He felt shivers, which made his breath be irregular and his face be tense. He was so lost, it was so erotic, hot and new that he was feeling his body in its limit. He tried not to moan, even gasp, controlling his breath the most possible, but Satoshi was truly playing hard in front of everyone. Finally, the elevator was opened on their floor and they could get out. Being the last of the people who went out, Satoshi looked behind and when he saw no one, he caught Kazunari's hand to push him into the toilets. It was empty and he took advantage of it.
“What's wrong with you?!” he shouted, being out of himself. Ninomiya only smirked and looked at his crotch satisfactorily. Ohno being fed up of him, just approached and caught his shirt strongly. “Never touch me again, okay?” his voice was deep, scary, but Ninomiya only seemed even more amused. Suddenly, his waist was wrapped by a strong arm and his body was pulled inside of a cabin. His back found a wall and what were strong grips around his shirt became just two hands leaning on his shoulders not to fall. Ninomiya was so close to Satoshi, but one of his hands just closed the door and locked it. Their eyes kept looking at each other for several seconds until his crotch felt a harsh hand touching it blatantly. Ohno gasped abruptly and tried to stop him, however, Ninomiya chuckled slightly.
“You’re truly stupid” he muttered as his hand stopped. Ohno frowned wanting to punch his face, but his words surprised him. “You’re… so… naïve… that… I… can't…. stop… myself…” between every word spoken beside his ear, Kazunari kept crashing their crotches hard. Ohno felt as dying into pleasure, that was overcoming any dream he had or he could have.
“Please… Stop…” Ohno muttered while moaning lowly, feeling how he was reaching his point of no return. Then, hastily, Ninomiya stopped, hardly breathing too, and his hands worked fast on opening their flies to set their two hard members free. Ohno refused, tried several times not to allow him, but Kazunari only touched him more until being weak. His sleepy eyes were showing how much lust was killing his inward and Ninomiya caught the two lengths to pump them together. One of his hands went a bit up to rest it on his neck, his fingers touching his nape, and Kazunari approached their mouths. They were so close Satoshi could almost feel the kiss, but it did not arrive and he was being impatient. Why was he desiring that man so badly? Why was he desiring to be fucked against the wall? Why was he desiring to be possessed by that man over and over again? He was as lost as never before and scared, so scared of what he was feeling.
“Fuck… I want to be inside…” Ninomiya thought out loud in a whisper Ohno could hear because of how close they were and the employee could not believe its meaning so he preferred to stay in the ignorance. That was already so surrealistic to continue adding more facts which seemed more impossible than the last. He only focused on that hand touching him, on that member fixed at his and that breath which heated up his lips. But even like that, his own consciousness was bothering him a lot. Too much that his hand went down and caught his to stop it from moving.
“I’m married… Stop, please…” he breathed heavily. Ninomiya only looked into his eyes. That hazel colour was darker than usually, Ohno could feel that desire, lust inside of them. He felt hotter just by watching them, but even like that, he knew that was wrong. There was no way he would ever cheat on his wife. He was not able to do that.
“Then, believe you're being raped, that you're being forced… But let me end…” he spoke rubbing his lips against his slightly. Satoshi closed his eyes fleetingly to enjoy that, and he knew that would be the perfect excuse to be able to end that, but he was not as crazy as that pervert boss. Ohno had not gotten those values.
“What are you sayi-“ his words were cut off by a sudden kiss when they heard the door of the toilets being opened. That person could hear them if they were not quiet, and that would mean being defeated regarding that. Satoshi only concentrated on those thin lips catching his softly before breaking it slowly, without making any sound. They pressed their foreheads together, Ohno lowering his gaze ashamed and Ninomiya only continued his work with his hand, not waiting for that unknown to go away. Satoshi did a hasty moan and his boss even smirked; he was searching for that reaction, for some reason Kazunari wanted everyone to know their secret game not caring about his life at all. And that seemed so selfish for Ohno.
His face became gloomy, he felt disappointed by that. However, that did not stop his boss from going faster when that person closed the door after going out. Satoshi was feeling truly used at that moment, it was so painful that his eyes were wet also. He hated that with all his might, how could he end up like that? So easily and without will-power at all. But the most frustrating thing was how he came on his hand, how he grabbed his shirt while closing his eyes, how he moaned full of pleasure, how he let that man kiss his lips once more. Ohno felt so defeated that he could not raise his gaze after ending. He did not watch either how Kazunari caught paper to clean his hand and his member or how he did not care about him at all, just going out of there in a hurry. Ohno only cleaned it poorly to close his fly finally and sat on the WC to wipe away the few tears which were falling abruptly. Why was he mattering his acts that much? Why was it hurting like that? Why was he feeling so bad? He would love to think it was because of his wife, for having cheated on her, for having been with other person, for having broken his promise of being loyal, but no matter how painful it was, his heart was aching because of how Ninomiya had treated him. How could he mean for him something so strong already? Three days. Just three days had passed since they met. Why then? Why that pain?
*****
Finally, lunch time had arrived and he felt free to go upstairs and reach the rooftop with his usual coffee and sandwich from the cafeteria. He was losing weight because of that, but he did not care actually. His stomach was refusing the food so much lately that he preferred not to eat and go on without stupid stomachaches or sudden vomits. Then, he sat on a bench to enjoy it, the summer arriving, that heat warming his body under that stained suit. He sighed once more remembering everything. He could not avoid it at all in the whole morning, but luckily he could end the contract. Satoshi would deliver it after ending the lunch break to Kazunari, who had disappeared suddenly at that hour. It was not like Ohno cared about his affairs, but the curiosity was hitting his mind strongly without a reason. That man was captivating him more and more no matter how much pain he could feel inside his chest.
Then, being weird that someone would go there at that hour, a man appeared in front of him. He raised his gaze, finding an known face, but that did not make the situation weirder. “Matsumoto, is there a problem?” Ohno asked straight, that man was his coworker from the same floor and even if they did not usually talk, they got along as much as possible in the meetings and the company's parties. He seemed a good guy.
“I would like to ask you something” he started to talk nervously. “What were you doing this morning in the toilets?” his question was like a pot of cold water over his head. How could he know? How could he ask that? Actually, why was he asking about that? Maybe he could avoid it yet and make him feel confused.
“I don't know what you mean” Satoshi responded apparently calmed, but he was sweating by the adrenaline rushing his veins like a roller coaster. Matsumoto only moved a bit uncomfortable.
“Boss Ninomiya and you in a cabin” he explained himself better briefly and Ohno could not hide his nervousness. He knew it, what had happened inside of that fucking toilet was known by someone. He felt no floor under his feet. But even like that, he tried to hide it and lie.
“It’s not your business, Matsumoto” he stood up to leave the rooftop as fast as possible but the words of his coworker stopped him.
“I will tell your wife” he threatened Ohno straight. The employee only chuckled and turned around to face him so close.
“It’s your word against mine and I'm sure my wife will believe me before an unknown” his despicable smile was hiding how scared he was. Despite what he had said, he did not believe his wife would trust him that much. She was so jealous and possessive that Satoshi truly hated that part of her. So yes, it was so possible he would mess his marriage up with that.
“I have a video of you two” Jun continued his thread of confessions and Ohno, before panicking, preferred to use his brain.
“Then, show me, show me how you will break my marriage” Ohno challenged him, but Matsumoto only rejected that idea. He knew he had nothing, mostly because he had been checking every single corner of that cabin during the time Kazunari had been touching him. Just a question was left inside his mind then. “Why would you do that?” he asked, still with a rude voice and his coldness lowering the temperature not mattering if the sun was hotter that day.
“You don't deserve a woman like her. I don't know how she could marry you…” Matsumoto said with anger showing up in his words.
“Instead of you” Satoshi ended his sentence amused by how stupid that man was. Jun only frowned. Ohno knew how his wife was desired by several men, but he did not care because what he did not want to become real was already happening. “Even if you get to make us get divorced, you will never be her first option… Neither me…” he chuckled coldly in front of him, but sad when he turned around. That was making a hole inside of him. It was so possible she was cheating on him that he wondered several times why he had gotten married at first place.
Without hearing another word from that person, he got out from the rooftop as quick as he could. He was almost trembling by the fear of being uncovered. And just because Ninomiya had become crazy and wanted to touch him anywhere. His life was a mess since he knew his new boss, so the problem was Ninomiya's one. Even though he remembered how he liked those touches and how he let him to continue. But it was not his fault, or at least he pretended to believe it was not.
Then, reaching his desk after the shortest lunch ever, no one was around, less one person in the office. He took advantage of that to deliver the contract finally and go on with the next work. He caught all the papers and approached it. The door was opened, but even like that, he knocked at the door while looking at the back of that dirty man. The boss did not turn around to know who was, he only invited him and Satoshi came in doubtfully. He did not know how to react after what had happened between them. He did not think about it before coming inside and he hated himself a bit for that. Suddenly, Kazunari turned around and found him there, still and insecure once more and a small smile tried to appear on his face, however it was hidden at the next second. He started to approach with those eyes again and Ohno knew he had to stop that. He had to eradicate the problem.
“I've ended the contract” his voice was a bit louder than he expected, showing how nervous he was, and worsening that situation, his cheeks started to be so flushed. He tried to stop that reaction, but it seemed impossible, his body seemed as out of control. Just then, Ninomiya caught the amount of papers and glanced at them quickly. Then, he approached the desk and left them on it, catching another smaller one before walking near him again.
“I did my own version, please check it out before going home. I will choose the best one to deliver” he ordered him and Satoshi widened his eyes. That was impossible, that contract in just a morning seemed impossible even for him when Ninomiya had not appeared yet. His hands caught it and it was so smaller, he wondered if that was okay. There was a lot of information to add, for sure it was wrong like that. But he accepted, at least he would only have to read a document for the rest of the day. So he only nodded and walked outside without any interruption. He sighed relieved finally, that had been tensed, but after a lot of attempts, they truly looked as employee and boss. Satoshi only returned to his desk and started with the document.
He read it twice, he was even starting the third time trying to find just a single mistake, but nothing. It was perfect. That contract overcame any expectation he could have. Everything was so simple, short, but perfectly explained, not lacking anything which was not irrelevant. It was so easy to read and understand, but without erasing the needed technicalities about the subject in question. Satoshi was completely amazed by a work that superb. Where had he been working before there? For that he had to have years of experience, but where had he gotten it? Ohno was speechless noticing his own mistakes in his contract. Slowly, he started to feel a bit useless, having worked hard on it to create such scum, was he being even efficient? He doubted it somehow, no matter how many hours he would keep working and improving in the nights, of course he would never be someone reckoned by his amazing work, or by highlighting positively. And that was creating a pressure on his back, knowing that if he ended up behind his coworkers, he would be fired. Satoshi only sighed, rubbing his face with his hands feeling defeated and so down.
Suddenly, his name was spoken by his boss to approach the office and he could feel some gazes on him. Why? Why were they looking at him like that? It was so unkind to feel that way. However, Ohno only approached the office and closed the door behind him. Kazunari was waiting for him leaned on his desk with his butt, his contract on his hands. The employee only waited for some hint and Ninomiya started to walk to him. Ohno was not looking at his eyes, he was still unable to do that after that morning. Even like that, he could still watch how he broke every single paper from his work. Satoshi widened his eyes, being completely shocked and his boss just threw it in his trash bin.
“This is how your work is worth it” Ninomiya smirked, his eyes full of victory. What was that? A revenge for his words? Did he deserve that?
“I'm so sorry about it” his voice was trying to seem normal, but it trembled a bit at the end when he bowed and the knot in his throat became unbearable. He could not breathe by feeling so useless at that moment. That embarrassment for having done such an awful work and even having delivered it like that… He should be ashamed of that.
“Then, it's clear I will send mine. But for the next time, learn how to create a decent contract” Ninomiya scolded him, no mattering how he could feel and Satoshi bowed once more to express again his regrets. He could not say another word, he was completely out of place and the only thing he tried to do was turning around to get out of there. But when he did, his legs felt as disappearing, everything was blurry in front of him and the last reaction he could have was holding on to the doorframe not to fall on the floor. His mouth was so dry he could not swallow and his head was truly hurting. Satoshi was so lost about what was happening to him, but he was starting to feel again his legs and see properly.
“Ohno, are you okay?” a worried voice asked him from behind. And now Kazunari was worrying about him, after how he treated him that day. He had never felt as used as those last ten hours. And just because his fucking boss could not be more careful with the others' feelings.
“Yes, boss” Ohno answered as cool as possible, trying to make another step, and it worked. He was walking again out of that office, reaching his desk to pick up his stuff and leave the company. It was time to go after all, that day he did not need to handle anything else. Everyone was looking at him, for leaving that soon after a whole year leaving hours after them, but he did not care, he did not care about that man who was looking at him. He was fed up with caring about others.
Satoshi only reached his car as he could, feeling so weak and tired he thought constantly he was going to faint. Not sure about what he was doing, his hand started the car and to drive. He was so nervous just in case it would come again and he would have an accident. Luckily, the path was short, so he was going to be fine. However, slowly, his eyes started to close, stopping watching the road. Only when a truck whistled him, he woke up hastily to turn the steering wheel hard and save his life from a sure death. What had just happened? His car had been almost hit by a truck because he had fallen asleep while driving. He knew he did not have to take the car being like that, even thus, he had been that stupid to do it. Now, his heart was pounding, his head was hurting the double and his body was trembling so much he was doubting he could reach home. But slowly, being so carefully, Ohno was able to arrive safely.
Then, he came into his house to find his wife and greet her with a smile, somehow he had missed her. She only shouted at him back, though. “Why didn’t you take the food I did for you? And where did you sleep last night? The bed is the same as I left it yesterday” she seemed crazy and Satoshi, instead of telling the truth, he lied about everything.
“I reached home so late that I was not hungry and fell asleep on the sofa…” his voice was tired, husky, reflection of how bad he was feeling, but his wife only continued complaining. So much that Satoshi lost his nerves. “Can’t you shut up?!” he shouted at her as strong as his health could and he cut off her words instantly. A weird silence was created due to the strange behaviour he was having. Normally he would have just let her talk and talk until she would have gotten tired, but that day was being already so horrible that he could not anymore.
“I’m your wife” she only spoke after it. Satoshi understood that fact properly, but there were limits she should not cross.
“I’m going to sleep” Ohno informed briefly untying his tie.
“And the dinner?” she only asked, of course that was the only thing she cared about.
“I'm not hungry” that was the last thing they said that night. Satoshi only went upstairs to undress and take a bath first. He rubbed his skin hard, trying to erase any mark on his body from that despicable being. He could still remember what had happened, every single detail, every single kiss he gave him, how warm his hands were or how good feeling him so close was. Satoshi was unable to forget that, forget other person in his life and that was creating an unexpected pain inside his chest that it was so hard to bear. He never thought he was going to be able to cheat on his wife, to be as horrible as that. His fist punched the water strongly, hating himself as nothing. How could he?
*****
His head was truly hurting after having a horrible night. He could not sleep at all, his mind was thinking and thinking again without explanation. He was completely hating the fact that he was going to work a whole day again beside that awful man. That did not help him to be willing to work gladly. What was more, he did not want to work anymore. For first time in his life he needed a rest, Satoshi was truly feeling overwhelmed by everything around him, feeling how he could not control anything, how his life was out of control and he was unable to stop it. That was destroying him from inside his soul. The fact that all he knew, all he was used to became unbearable to handle those days, and he was scared, so afraid of trying new things, of stopping the usual ones to change it. And what was the main point, he had no idea of what he should change first.
That was why he stood up as every morning, dressed his suit as every morning and took breakfast beside his wife as every morning. The only different detail was that she was angry with him because of last night, but he did not care too much, he had better problems at that moment like to focus on his wife's tantrum. So he caught his briefcase and got inside his car as every morning, but another detail came up; he was completely scared of driving again. His mind could not stop remembering the almost car accident he could have caused. However, feeling perfectly awake and ready, his keys were introduced and turned around to make the motor work and go straight to his company. He was a bit sweating by the fear inside of him, that was not usual, Satoshi being so scared of driving. His heart was pounding fast when he arrived at the parking and turned the car off. His hands were trembling and his legs felt as jelly. Maybe a bit of water was what he needed.
Ohno walked as if nothing was happening to him to enter the building and search for the water machine to take a bottle. Indeed, the cold water was refreshing after having so much heat in the car, but his body reaction was still hitting him strongly. Satoshi only decided to carry on, for sure it would go away while working. So he arrived at his desk and found a document on it. His hand caught it to read it and before ending, his boss appeared first. “I want you to make a graphic with all of that, okay? It's urgent so finish it before lunch break” Kazunari explained like in a hurry and Satoshi widened his eyes.
“But this is too much” he thought out loud, being audible for the people around him and Kazunari frowned while approaching his desk.
“Is there a problem? If you're here, considered one of the best employees, is because you do these things so easily, right?” Kazunari voice was severe, marked by the sarcasm he loved using so much. Ohno only nodded while lowering his gaze. “Then, why are you wasting time? Start now!” he shouted at him in the middle of the office and Satoshi just sat down to turn his computer on and start to organize the information. He could not look up, the embarrassment was so hard in him. The desire to cry was strong, so strong that he could not focus on the paper, mostly because he could not see it. Then, suddenly someone approached him by behind.
“Maybe this will help you, I've been in charge of gathering that information” Satoshi turned around to find Matsumoto there, looking at him, surprised when their eyes found each other. Ohno's ones were red, so evident that, even though Satoshi had taken the paper and was working on it already, his coworker tried to know. “Are you fine?” his voice was a whisper, what he thanked; he did not need anyone else knowing his actual mood.
“Yes, go away” he did not raise his head from the paper, but could feel how Jun walked away. At that moment, Satoshi did not want to wonder why he had just behaved like that when the previous day, he had been threatening him with breaking his marriage. That would only make him lose more time and he was horribly lacking it. His hands worked as fast as possible, but his eyes looked at the clock and he knew it was impossible to end it on time, mostly because his headache was being stronger and his fingers mistook the keys several times due to the shakiness he was suffering since yesterday.
Nothing was helping him and the pressure of messing his work once more was overcoming him. His thumb dried his eyes in a fast move to continue the graphic quickly. His eyes already were confusing the numbers and he had to check it over and over again. When he wanted to notice the hour, everyone was already standing up to enjoy their lunch. Ohno tried to go faster, but he knew he needed at least another hour to finish it properly. However, knowing that was going to happen, Kazunari called him to deliver the graphic in his office. Satoshi breathed deeply before standing up and walking up to the desk of his boss with his empty hands. His knees could not already hold up his body anymore and slightly one of his hands leaned on one chair’s back. Kazunari did not say a word, he wanted him to talk, to hear his excuses, to make fun of him because he knew since the first moment it was not feasible. And that was truly hurting him; how Ninomiya was enjoying all of that. He wondered why after how he had treated him. Why?
“I'm sorry, the graphic is not ready, but if you gave me one hour more, I would-“
“I never thought you could be so useless” his words cut off not only him, but also his breath and heartbeat. Kazunari stood up to walk around him. “You take all of that time to end a simple contract and also you do such a shit. Now I ask you to end a simple graphic and are you telling me you need more time?!” he shouted at him once more, close to him. His head wanted to burst, but what was worse, he could not breathe properly, the oxygen refused to get inside his lungs. It was like his body was completely paralyzed. “You are so useless that now I understand why your wife is cheating on you, having such a husband has to be difficult” he chuckled despicable. Satoshi was not even blinking not to shed all the water in his eyes. Then, he felt him so close to his ear. “I bet she only wants you for that big dick you have” Ohno could not anymore and raised his gaze to look at him, wanting to kill him. But what a mistake, because the tears fell so easily that Satoshi ran to dry them with a trembling hand. “Go to work, useless crybaby. I want that graphic in thirty minutes or you will be fired, okay?” he said despicably and Satoshi wanted to reply, he wanted to send him to hell, to shout at him and say how much he hated him, but the knot in his throat did not allow him even breathe.
So he just turned around, not having any point of support for his body and his legs only dragged his feet as he could. Once his knees failed, his hands grabbed the door strongly, feeling he was going to faint. His eyes could not see already, his ears could only hear Kazunari's question as if he was inside the ocean. “Ohno, are you okay?” why was he worrying about him now? What the fuck was wrong with him? He did not reply, mostly because he could not, and he caught the door handle to open it and try to get out. But as what he was guessing, his body lost all its strength, his eyes refused to see anymore, and his hands dropped the doorframe to feel how he was falling in the nowhere. The last thing he could remember was a strong hit against the floor and a shout. “Satoshi!”
//Hi! Kind of late because I fell asleep but here it is and here I leave it. Lol. Well. This chapter is hard xD Sooo many things happen and omg that toilet scene is so I love it/I hate it LOL. Also, Jun appeared! Yes! To fuck his life! XD Don't mind him too much xD we all love you Jun 💜
Okay, having babbled relaxedly, I invite you to tell me what you think about it and I hope you will wait for the next this Friday~
Byes mai frends ✌