「The Tear Of Joy」《Chapter 2》
Title:: The Tear Of Joy
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 6978 words
Rating:: PG-13
Note:: as the support was awesome, it will be two chapters per week, Tuesday and Friday!
Slowly, someone rubbed his hair and he woke up lazily. His alarm clock did not sound yet, then, what was wrong? He opened his eyes to find his wife in front of him, already dressed up and ready to go out. He frowned deeply wondering where she was going to go at that hour, but Ohno only waited for her to speak. His throat was truly dry, that was why when she answered she had met early with a friend to spend the day together, he only nodded and closed his eyes again to turn around and continue sleeping. But only ten minutes after, he was unable to sleep again. Fed up of everything that morning, he stood up in a bad mood and dressed up a bit because he was naked. Last night had not been enjoyable, however he felt relieved. For now.
It was still so early, so he only went to the bathroom to take a shower because last night he could not and entered in his personal room. He took a look at the unfinished paintings, but his inspiration was already into something else. His brush started to move on the canvas swiftly. The image was completely fixed in his mind and a figure of a man was getting shape faster than he thought. He never realized what he was painting until finishing and checking it out closely. Right now, he was so into it that he could not notice someone opening the door. His hand continued drawing without control.
“Ohno” a husky voice called him and suddenly, Satoshi woke up from his dream. His eyes found an almost naked man on the threshold, looking at him. “Do you have painkillers?” he asked with a painful grimace and Satoshi sighed deeply. It was already time to get ready so he had no other option rather than finishing it after. He left the tools on the table and removed the white coat to go with him. He closed that door with a key and went downstairs.
“Why do you close that door if the paintings are awesome?” Kazunari asked with a low voice while Satoshi was searching into a drawer to take the medicament and a glass of juice. He turned around with it on his hands, but he kept still. How was it possible he had that big hangover?
“Take this” he offered him without answering the previous question. Kazunari swallowed it quickly so he returned the glass. Ohno only kept doing a bit of coffee, not wanting to look at him. That image could not get out of his mind. It was so complicated to forget what he had seen. How he felt…
“Answer me” he insisted before sitting on a chair and Satoshi gulped to turn around and face him.
“It’s not your business, sorry” he had asked for a reply, so he did not care which type of answer he would say. Slowly, he took two glasses to put coffee inside and offer one to his boss. He sat in front of him, with the difference that he was only stirring the liquid, lost in his thoughts. Something was wrong. He knew it. But he could not find out what it was.
“What happened last night?” Ninomiya asked doubtfully. Maybe he was scared of knowing it. Should Ohno say everything? They were men, maybe it was not a big deal, but they had just met, so he was reticent to say it so easily.
“You drank just a bit of sake and got so drunk so my wife and I decided to let you sleep here” he answered briefly because more details were unneeded there. It was better like that.
“Didn’t I do something out of place?” he asked flushed, being even unable to look at him and Satoshi frowned. Was it possible he was remembering? But if it was like that, he would apologize straight. It was like if Ninomiya was waiting explanations because he could not complete the puzzle. And Satoshi would not help him.
“No, I don't think so” he lied. Why? He was not sure. Maybe it was better not to remember it anymore. Just leaving it like that. The act of a drunk person who went too far. Nothing else than that. Ninomiya did not inquire more about it and they took breakfast together, in silence and slowly, Satoshi found himself enjoying that. He had been missing a silent person for a long time. And in one way or another, Kazunari was bringing him the possibility of enjoying the company of someone else without being overwhelmed or stressed.
“Ohno” he called him again, but in a soft mode that Satoshi liked it. He raised his head, willing to hear him. “Can you take me to my home and then to work? It's already too late for me…” he asked with a regretful voice and Satoshi nodded, not caring about it.
“It's fine, but let's get ready now so we will have enough time” he proposed so no one of them would be so late and both stood up to get dressed and take the needed stuff. Just fifteen minutes after, they were already entering in the car and Satoshi started to drive. He asked Ninomiya the address to go there and the boss told him an area which was not known for being luxurious or for rich people. He decided not to create weird ideas in his mind before watching where he truly lived. Maybe there was some type of new building and he did not know it. After all, he did not frequent that area.
Suddenly, Ninomiya made him stop in front of a normal block of apartments and Satoshi thought there was something wrong. “You can come with me as long as I will take a quick shower too” he said embarrassed and Ohno could not understand why. That man was truly weird, changing his mood so hastily and without reason. But as he had told him, he followed his boss until arriving a door and Ninomiya opened it to come inside. It was an old apartment with only the necessities. It was the typical Japanese old house where the poor families were used to live. Why was the CEO's son living in such apartment? He was truly shocked.
“Don’t dare to peek in the bathroom” Ninomiya laughed as a joke, but Satoshi did not understand it. Why that joke? Why would he do that? Did he have face of spying people in showers? He got angry swiftly and Ninomiya, after seeing that his joke was not welcomed, looked down and went to the bathroom. He heard the water falling and he remembered that joke. What would happen if he did it? No, no. Was he stupid? Or crazy. Or just simply retarded. That was why Ohno just kept sitting on that sofa, glancing at the time and at his phone several times. He was pretty nervous there. The reason? A mystery, but his legs could not stop moving, his body was sweating already and his breath was a bit fast. He was so weird indeed. He wondered why.
Then, a naked man, with a towel around his waist, came out from the bathroom to approach a closet behind Satoshi and remove it to start to get dressed. Slowly, Ohno glanced at him, turning his head evidently, and his eyes could admire that man as when he was born. He could notice a sexy back and a round butt. Satoshi gulped when Ninomiya lowered his body to introduce his feet in the boxers because that butt became perfect to be fucked. He bit his lower lip and returned his head to the font. He was being mesmerized by that man, why? He was so lost about the decision his body was having regarding Ninomiya when he was married, he was not gay, he… Indeed there were not more reasons, but Satoshi had to convince himself that it was wrong. That excitement between his legs and those dirty thoughts had to disappear. It was not proper of him. What was more, he did not believe himself as someone who could stare at a man like that. Imagining what would happen if Ninomiya approached him and sat over his thighs… No, he had to stop, that was not him. He had a wife. That was completely out of place.
Suddenly, a hand touched his shoulders and by the surprise, he coughed hard. “Are you fine? Do you need water?” Ninomiya's voice was soft and worried. Ohno shook his head as negative answer and turned around to find him with wet hair and his shirt open. His eyes wandered around his body several times. So many, he realized how evident he was being. Kazunari only smirked before speaking. “Can you approach a tie to me? They are in the second drawer beside my bed” he said, but Ohno nodded without having understood anything and he kept on sitting. Kazunari frowned. “A tie” suddenly, Satoshi realized it and stood up nervously, searching for the nightstand with his gaze. He walked to it, discovering the apartment a bit dirty and when he opened the first drawer, he widened his eyes. There were a lube, a dildo and more things he did not know what they were. He closed the drawer slowly, still shocked by it and he searched in the second. The ties appeared and he caught a blue one. He liked that one. Then, Satoshi returned with his boss and offered it to him. Ninomiya smirked and caught it, to look into the mirror and start to make the lace.
“You really like blue, right?” Kazunari pointed it out and Satoshi leaned on the back of the sofa. He liked that colour indeed, but never noticed it until Kazunari said it. He only nodded, being silent because he could not believe that a person as Ninomiya could use that type of things. But did he use it on girls… or on him? His desire to know that was so big he was amazed with himself. Trying to know the sexual life of his boss. How crazy had he become? Since when? He was just a normal person. Why that sudden change? Maybe he was being so stressed lately, or just that it became hotter those days as long as May was arriving strongly. He should stop thinking and go on in his job and in his marriage. Not focusing on bosses and sexual stuff. That was what he had to do.
Then, Kazunari was ready to go and they returned to the car silently. He looked at the hour and noticed that they were a bit late. “Don’t care about the hour. It was my fault after all” Kazunari seemed as reading his mind. Satoshi only nodded without a word and kept driving. He looked as focusing on the road, but indeed, his mind could not stop his thoughts. Why was he like that? Ohno needed to stop, however no matter how many times he said that, nothing worked. Suddenly, Ninomiya's phone rang and scared him. His boss picked it up in a hurry and his face went pale.
“Sho, did something happen?” his voice sounded shaky and Ohno glanced at him. That name… He had spoken it last night, he even guessed that it was the same person who called two days ago. “I go there right now…” Ninomiya seemed deeply affected by that call and Satoshi could not avoid his own words. No matter how bad their first impressions were, he was a human after all.
“Are you okay?” he sounded worried. Well, after all he was worried, but he did not want to show that he was concerned about an unknown. It looked so weird. But Kazunari only glanced at him with a slight smile, which disappeared at the next second.
“Yes, stop here. I won't go to the company today, I'm sorry for this after all…” he asked the employee, but Ohno refused to leave him in the middle of the city if he needed to go to somewhere.
“I can take you whenever you want to go” Satoshi offered willingly. However, Ninomiya seemed stressed about it.
“No, really, stop here” his voice was a bit loud and rude. Ohno accepted it without any question more and Kazunari went out of the car quickly. Before closing the door, he lowered his head to look at him troubled. His mouth seemed as wanting to say something, but he only said goodbye and closed the door. Satoshi drove again, but had to stop because it was red. Then, he glanced at outside and saw how Ninomiya started to run through the street. Why? Why did he not let him go to the place he needed? Somehow, that action, those last words, that situation was difficult to understand and Satoshi found himself bothered about it. Not angry or annoyed with his boss, because after all they were two unknowns, but somehow his heart pounded in his chest. The frustration was filling it faster and harder than he expected coming from a person he had just met. Why? Why did everything seem upside down with Ninomiya? Why was he thinking of him even when he was entering the building after twenty minutes of path? Why did he remember the crash when he was waiting the elevator? Why?
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His hand was writing a document he had to deliver at the next day and his eyes were reading the infinite pages of that contract. He lowered the light of his computer because once again the whole office had gone and he was alone in the dark. Only a little lamp and his computer were illuminating his desk to continue working. He wanted to leave it ready for tomorrow as long as he was taking so much time to end it. It was weird in him. Satoshi could finish that in just a morning, but a whole day had gone by already and he had only done the half of it. His mind was not there. And he knew it perfectly, what was occupying his whole concern, but he preferred to forget it and continue with it. As soon as he would end it, he would leave it on his boss’s desk so Ninomiya would only have to read it, and he would return to his house with his wife. His life was as simple as that and he had to continue it no matter what.
Suddenly, he heard steps through the hallway and Satoshi got tense, wondering who would be at this hour. Maybe the security guy? He kept his eyes fixed on the door until a dark shape came in. Only when that person came closer and the light lit his face, Ohno could recognize Ninomiya with tired face, eye bags and his suit a bit dirty, he was not wearing already the blue tie and somehow, Ohno felt disappointed. What had he done during the whole day? Indeed they had not seen each other since that morning and somehow, Ohno was glad to meet him again. Why? The boss only frowned and looked at the hour, Ohno followed his steps and realized the hour too. That was fucking late. Then, Ninomiya only turned his computer off by the button on the monitor and walked to his office. Ohno turned it on again to continue working, why should he stop because he said it? Well, relatively he had not said it, but indicated it so Satoshi did not care and continued that damn document.
Sometimes, his eyes glanced at his office, which had the door opened, so he could barely see what he was doing too. He was completely focused on his laptop and tapping frenetically the keyboard. He was so fast that Satoshi was truly doubting he had started yesterday to do that. Also, he had his glasses again and Kazunari looked more handsome once more. Ohno sighed, why was he looking at his boss? He should be working… His mind was already so tired, but by thinking so much of that man. He was lost about why all his focus was for Ninomiya if they did not know each other. And all was fine, until Ninomiya jerked off in front of his eyes. He could not erase it at all. He was completely absorbed by that image. No matter how angry and disgusted he could have felt at first when he turned around. When he saw his powerlessness, his cute face asking for more, his body being so weak… all of that caught him in a way he had never felt before. Ninomiya was like the most perfect drawing to admire. Being naked and weak in front of his eyes…
Suddenly, the voice of a person woke him up and Satoshi raised his head surprised. Kazunari was in front of his desk, he seemed as ready to go home and Satoshi realized that he had lost another hour just thinking of that man. What was wrong with him?! It was already so late that even his wife would be worried about him. He checked his phone in a hurry to call her, when he found one message. His eyes read it, feeling how the disappointment was hitting him hard. He rubbed his tired eyes, being defeated in front of his boss, who kept in silence there, looking at him with a poker face. Satoshi read it again, slower.
From:: Yoko
Darling, I will keep this night with my friend. You have your dinner in the fridge. I will be back tomorrow's morning. Bye!
Yes, he had read well. Another night she would spend with her friend. He could understand that she wanted to go out, be with friends, sleep outside, but that was starting to be so frequent that Satoshi was already doubting who that friend was… He was really worried about it, so much that it even hurt. But he could not seem vulnerable in front of his boss. So he turned his phone off and started to take his stuff inside his briefcase. Satoshi stood up to take his jacket and be ready to go. When he raised his gaze, his boss was not already there. He did not say even goodbye and Ohno disappointment grew up even more. He was already fed up with the world. So he only walked through the hallway, took the elevator and crossed the hall to go straight to the parking. Surprisingly, when he found his car, he saw a man waiting for him. He approached and Ninomiya looked at him with tired face.
“You’re slow, I want to arrive home” he sounded as if they two were living together and Ohno would like to laugh at that point, but he sounded angry instead.
“What? Don't you have a car?” he opened the door and both got inside, Ninomiya truly not caring if he was being scolded. That man was a bother indeed. But somehow, Ohno was feeling better with him around.
“No, and I lost the last train so… To my house, please” that arrogance, when he sat on the seat and leaned on the door, waiting for him to be his chauffeur, made Ohno be completely amazed by such a person. He just kept staring at him, without even turning the car on. Ninomiya only glanced at him like saying to go on. And Satoshi only sighed. Why was he controlling him? He felt so stupid, but at the same time, he did not feel bothered by the fact of driving until his house, what was more, it was better if he took more time outside. That house, so big and lonely, could make him feel so bad and moody when he was as tired as that day.
No one talked more. The silence was surrounding them, fulfilling that car completely, even their breaths were so low that the only noise was the motor working out. It was already so late that no one was on the street so driving was so nice, no traffic jams to be in during hours. He had the whole road for him and he went a bit faster than normal. Suddenly, a hand grabbed his arm tightly, so much that he was scared. He found Ninomiya looking at him with panic eyes, sweating a lot. “Can you go slower, please?” his voice was shaking and Ohno decreased the speed. He was worried now, what was wrong with going a bit fast?
“Are you okay?” he did not want to provoke that at all. Satoshi was truly feeling bad about how Ninomiya was feeling. Maybe was he afraid of high speed? Or he wanted to vomit. “We can stop if you need a bit of fresh air” he glanced several times at his boss, who was just brushing his hair and after a minute, Kazunari smiled at him back.
“It’s fine, I was just a bit dizzy” his attitude changed again, the nice one showing up again. Ohno could not believe him completely, but opted for not asking anymore. His face seemed better too. Then, just when it seemed to go smoothly once more, a sudden message arrived and Satoshi asked his boss to tap the button to be read aloud.
“Dear, I'm sorry, my friend has just found an awesome opera tomorrow, so I will come back after dinner, lucky that I left enough food for you!” the program read and Satoshi decided not to even answer. He was really frustrated with her. He was starting to be her second choice and that was hurting him. But the worst of all was that Ninomiya had listened to it too. He glanced at the man by his side with embarrassed eyes and Ninomiya was only waiting an explanation with his arms crossed.
“If you don't answer her and put that ugly face, it’s because you're so fucking bothered… Are you jealous? No… I don't think so… Then, you don't like her friends! Nah… for sure they are so nice… Don't tell me you're the type of man who still thinks that women only have to clean and take care of children!” Ninomiya talked straight aloud, maybe not noticing how angry Satoshi was getting.
“No! Fuck, no! She can do whatever she wants!” he explained before Kazunari thought that he was a retrograde man. He truly had no problem with watching how her wife had fun too, but he was so worried that it was happening so frequently that lately he was becoming mad every time she decided to meet her friend.
“Then?” he continued asking without caring about Satoshi's feelings and all he got was a shout by Ohno.
“Can't you shut up?!” he was completely angry at that moment, rather than angry, he was overwhelmed with what he was feeling. He was a mess since yesterday when he had never felt alike and he did not know if she was the only reason, even if she had guilt there. He felt so powerless, so much that his eyes were so wet and reddish. So deep inside of him, he knew the answer, he truly knew himself, but he could not accept what was happening at that moment. He could not say that it was fine, that was why he kept in the ignorance. Maybe like that, he would not suffer.
After the shout, Ninomiya remained in silence the last five minutes they took to arrive to that building, where his boss used to live. He was feeling already so bad for it and as long as he could see how bothered Ninomiya was, going out of the car without a single word, Ohno came out too to call him. “I'm sorry” he spoke lowly and Kazunari frowned.
“What?” maybe he was just playing with him or maybe he did not had heard his words, but Ohno repeated his apology again without being ashamed. “I was just trying to help you, but I don't know why I even try with a person I don't know” he said loudly because of the big space between them. After that, Ninomiya turned around and Satoshi closed his car to chase him. Why did he not leave it like that? Why was it so important to explain? Everything was upside down at that moment. And he was as lost as never. Every step he did was to the nowhere. What should he do?
“Wait!” his mouth was able to say only that before grabbing his forearm. What was he doing? Ninomiya turned around to look at him, using that small height difference between them to seem superior. “I didn’t mean that” he could not continue speaking, his heart was pounding and his mind was blank. Satoshi was overwhelmed by how close they kept.
“You were so straight. Don't worry, I will shut up and stop bothering you” Ninomiya reproached him carelessly. Satoshi was still holding his wrist and his hand did not let it go. Kazunari started to be fed up and just kept walking, dragging him strongly. Ohno was so tired that he could not stop his body and just let him do until his apartment. Both came inside and Satoshi released it now that he could make him listen to what he had to explain.
“I’m sorry about that, but I don't want to talk about it” he started and Ninomiya only did things around him without looking at his face even once. “I’m so tired after being unable to work, after having a wife who is forgetting me. Lately, I can't control anything and I can't anymore, okay? So just let me shout for a while because I need it” his voice was loud and just those words meant a great relief inside of him. Two tears made their path through his cheeks and when he raised his gaze, Ninomiya was staring at him. Nobody did a move for a few seconds and Ohno felt so ridiculous there. Crying in front of an unknown… How crazy was he? “I’m sorry… I should go…” he whispered, his cheeks burning and turned around to take the door handle. But before opening it, he felt a hand grabbing his. Satoshi could feel those soft fingers catching his and slowly, he faced Ninomiya. The man did not speak a single word, he only caught his both hands and took them to his shoulders. Then, Kazunari grabbed his waist and approached their bodies. His boss hugged him tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder and Satoshi felt a warmth filling his body fast, so much he had shivers. Without thinking about it twice, Ohno hugged his neck and only then, a tender hand brushed his hair.
“I thought you might need a hug” it sounded as an excuse, even if Satoshi could feel it was not. However, he could understand it and only nodded. After one or two minutes like that, the hug was broken slowly and Ninomiya made their two cheeks touch slightly. They kept too close, so much their noses could barely feel each other and their breaths were mixed heavily. Satoshi could not think at that moment. Having that man so close, asking for a kiss so badly. His own lips were licked, expecting it completely sure Ninomiya was going to do the step. He was mesmerized by those thin lips, by his warmth, one of his hand almost on his butt. That attraction was reciprocal and Ohno was feeling so happy that he was lost. He had a wife, what was he doing? Should he cheat on her? No, that was forbidden for him, kissing Kazunari would be what would ruin his life. That was why he lowered his head, separating a bit their bodies, deeply wishing that Ninomiya would still continue it. However, as long as it was not a fairy tail, Kazunari broke the hug completely, turning around to approach the kitchen. Satoshi kept there, feeling horribly stupid and ridiculous.
“You can stay here the whole night, it's so late and… I don't like being alone” Ninomiya offered him with a nervous voice, but no one could look at each other. Satoshi's heart was pounding, deciding what to do, if he should stay. He had nothing to do in his home, no one was waiting for him there, but here… there was someone who was inviting him to stay. Maybe the reason was starting to be blurred, but for a long time, he had not wanted to be with someone as much as at that moment. So he raised his face to nod briefly and approach the kitchen too. He sat on a chair to see how Ninomiya prepared a small salad to eat something and he took only two pairs of chopsticks and two beers.
“Let's watch a bit the TV” probably, the both of them were trying to avoid any type of conversation, that was why they sat around the low table and Ninomiya turned the TV on, appearing a variety program. They ate from the same bowl slowly, sitting close under a corner of the table to be able to share it and sometimes their gazes found each other. Ohno tried to focus on the program, so that uncomfortable situation would end soon. However, when he went to drink, a tear fell from the corner of his mouth and Ninomiya dried it with his thumb, catching his chin softly. Kazunari smirked suddenly and approached him, his hand still grabbing his chin to keep him still. And slowly, his boss licked the zone which was stained with beer, reaching the commissure with his tongue. Without thinking, Satoshi lost his control, caught his nape with his hand and kissed his lips deeply. Both moved their mouths hastily to find the tongues and play with them. It was being so naughty that Satoshi could not believe he was doing that with his boss. Trying to lick his whole mouth, feeling how Kazunari's hand crossed his jaw to reach his hair and brush it tightly as he felt a tongue so deep inside his mouth. He was so skillful that Ohno wanted more, but the lack of air and his imminent heart attack obligated him to stop the kiss.
“I’m sorry” he whispered almost over his lips and he separated, being unable to look at him. He could not eat more food as long as his stomach was upside down, so he just leaned his back on the sofa. Then, Ninomiya sighed, stretching his body completely and resting his head on the sofa, showing his thin neck. Ohno kept looking at it, how perfect it seemed to suck, devour. Satoshi was daydreaming with fulfilling all of that when he was discovered by his boss. Kazunari only smirked and caught his wrist to pull him over his body. Ohno felt an arm around his torso and his hand was leaned on his shoulder while their faces stayed so close once more. What was happening? That seemed endless and Satoshi's control was decreasing so fast that he was completely lost about what he should do. Those lips were begging to be kissed again and he felt so weak. Then, a sudden memory of his wife came to his mind and he tried to set him aside, but Kazunari was stronger.
“Let me go…” Satoshi spoke flushed. His boss only smirked, showing how powerful he was. “It was because of the beer, don't take it seriously…” the employee continued trying to stop him and making excuses. Anything was better than telling how attracted to him he felt. That type of reaction was not proper of him, why was he succumbing so easily with Kazunari? Maybe, because the way he treated him. For first time, someone was making him feel hot only with his presence when he was used to imagine things to turn on. It was new, exciting and tentative, that was why he had to resist and stop that nonsense with his boss.
“Yeah, the beer, the heat of this night and the tiredness, right?” his irony was palpable in that sentence and Satoshi sighed so bothered. “So the kiss has been a mistake” Ninomiya said while raising his both eyebrows.
“Exactly, so let me go, I want to sleep” he sounded so disturbed and pushed him aside so strong that Ninomiya gave up and stood up. He was not truly bothered, not with his boss, but with himself. What was happening to him? Everything seemed out of his control. So lost and confused. For first time, he truly doubted what he had to do, even if the answer was so evident. Suddenly, he heard a hit and he turned around to see how Ninomiya took a futon on the floor beside the bed, looking so angry somehow.
“Go to sleep and don’t give me more problems” he said rudely before sitting again to drink the last beer remained in the can. Satoshi frowned deeply and refused to keep silent.
“You were who offered me to stay” he pointed out that detail which seemed forgotten by his boss and Ninomiya just gave him a hateful look.
“And I'm regretting it” he spoke without a doubt. Ohno felt so hurt at that moment, so much he decided to stand up and shout him.
“Then, you know what you have to do next time!” his anger showed up evidently, leaving Kazunari speechless. Satoshi only approached the futon in the next room and undressed until only having his boxers. It was so hot that he was wondering if he could sleep covered by that warm sheet. But he did not want to be observed by that pervert man, because he was a pervert. That was why he only covered until his belly, feeling his legs as burning, and he closed his eyes to sleep, but the noises outside were too much. Kazunari was washing the few stuff they used to eat at that hour and Satoshi wondered how he could not be tired yet… It was so late after a crazy day, he was dead. That was why he fell asleep quickly, falling in his own peace once more, but suddenly lowly steps walked around him and Ohno woke up, taking a look at the room.
He found Ninomiya, undressed and lying on the bed. He took a look at the clock and it was four am. Was he going now to sleep or he had just stood up to do something? Ohno decided to raise his head while breathing heavily and his eyes found Ninomiya looking at him like an owl. “What’s wrong?” he asked because his boss had just scared him. Kazunari only turned around without a word and Ohno frowned deeply. Something was happening and that person did not want to talk. After all they were unknowns, but not controlling his desire to know, he climbed on the bed to touch his shoulder and ask again. Once more there was no answer. Because of the silence, he could hear like a sob, was he crying? He could not see properly so he leaned his hand on the other side to try to watch his face and suddenly, Kazunari's hand caught it to intertwine their fingers and place it on his stomach. Did he want him to hug him? Could that be weirder? Satoshi was doubting what to do, however, because of the tiredness, he rested his head on the pillow and pressed his back on his torso to comfort him, just in case he was truly crying.
Satoshi could smell his scent from his nape and mesmerized by it, he approached even more. What was happening that night was crazy, they two were crazy, but it seemed like no one could stop, like if they both needed to touch, to be near, to enjoy each other. And he could confirm both because when his nose rubbed his skin, Ninomiya's hand got tensed around his. However, once again, nobody said anything about stopping or asking what they were doing. Ohno only closed his eyes, feeling so much better there than in that futon and fell asleep. Sometimes he could feel Ninomiya moving around him, but it was nice to feel him so near, the bed so warm. He was loving that.
*****
Slowly, he felt something so good on his neck, he was loving whatever it was. Satoshi only tried to find it with his hand and only a head was touched. He brushed that hair, thinking that his wife that morning was being so wild and nice with him. Until his hand noticed that that hair was too short to be a woman. Hastily, he remembered everything, what happened last night, and his eyes were widely opened, trying to discover what was happening on his neck. Finally, his skin could feel two lips sucking it strongly and Satoshi only caught his shoulders to push him aside. Their gazes found each other and Ninomiya was smirking deeply. Satoshi sat quickly on the bed and shouted at him.
“What the fuck are you doing?!” his voice was rude and disturbed. However, Ninomiya only laughed and lay down on the bed with a forearm under his head. He was not wearing clothes, only his boxers and his mind remembered quickly what was hidden under them, how hot it could be. Then, Satoshi shook his head, hating how easy that man could drive him crazy and stood up to dress up. He could not anymore beside him. He did not know already which limit he could reach with Ninomiya closer, because indeed, he was not a human anymore if he was near.
“I couldn’t wake you up and opted for a… faster way” he said still with his provocative smirk and Satoshi only sighed, so fed up of that man and his I-do-not-care-if-you-have-a-wife actions. The employee only left the bedroom to arrive to his kitchen and find something to drink. While he was searching on the cupboards, he heard the steps of a man and how he sat on a chair.
“Don't you have anything to have breakfast?” Satoshi asked disturbed and Kazunari stood up amused. The boss opened a drawer and took two coffee packets. Ohno frowned while watching how that man put milk in two glasses and the coffee inside. Then, he put them in the microwave and set one minute.
“Ta-da! A free breakfast for the man” he joked ironically when the microwave ended and Satoshi only took his glass to approach the table and try to have a normal morning. He turned his phone on to see if there was something interesting and opened Instagram because he needed to do anything before paying attention to that human. He started to watch the stories, bored about them, so he left the phone on the table and let them go by their own. Suddenly, a woman he recognized so well appeared in a photo so close to a man, and he put his finger on it to stop it. So indeed that friend was a man. A sudden heat grew up inside of him and he grabbed the glass strongly.
“If you break the glass, you will have to pay it” his boss commented unnecessarily and Satoshi had enough that morning.
“Can’t you shut up?!” he hit the glass on the table, with the bad luck that the coffee was spilled on his hand. “Fuck!” that was burning his hand as hell and his mind was blank of how to calm it down. Then, he saw how Ninomiya approached in a hurry to brush it with a cloth and take him to the sink. The cold water was helping a lot and when the pain decreased, Ohno only felt two hands rubbing his gently.
“How can you be so stupid?” Ninomiya said with a tired voice and Satoshi only sighed feeling so horribly ridiculous. His wife was with other man, he was behaving like a teenager with his boss, and for more, he had burned his hand because of an anger attack. Did he had no control over himself already? Was he so lost that everything seemed out of control? Even his thoughts? His life was breaking at that moment just by thinking that his wife could have done anything with that man… He could not trust her anymore, and that was what was hurting him the most.
“I’m sorry” he apologized with a tiny voice and tried to remove his hand from the water to stop being a bother for Ninomiya. However, that man did not allow him. His boss only stopped the water and caught the cloth to dry it slowly. It was still hurting a lot, and he saw how his skin was so red.
“Come with me” Ninomiya pulled him to the bedroom and made him sit on it. Then, he opened a drawer and took an ointment tube. Satoshi was thinking he was being so well treated by him. If that had happened in front of his wife, he would only have heard shouts, complains and scolds. However, Ninomiya was being truly careful with spreading the ointment on his hand and Satoshi was feeling loved. Even if that was impossible coming from his boss, firstly because he was an unknown yet and secondly because Ninomiya was such a despicable guy. Even if the last reason started to have an interrogation at the end. Ohno only continued watching how Ninomiya covered it with a bandage slowly, he was not almost feeling pain, and then he finished satisfied.
“What a good boy” Kazunari smirked, caught his chin and kissed his lips suddenly. It just lasted a few seconds, but he could feel how he sucked his lower lip. Satoshi was frozen, what should he do?
//Hi! As I said, with all the support you gave to me (I'm so grateful really T-T), I felt excited enough to post the second as soon as possible!
Now the story is getting deeper, showing how Ohno is a mess and how Ninomiya is starting to play. But what's more, that friend of his wife which is producing in him all the doubts. Now, it's when the real problem starts~
Hope you like it, if it's so, don't doubt to tell me, it helps me a lot :'))))
Bye~
Pairing:: Ohno Satoshi/OC, Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari
Genre:: angst, romance, drama, office!au
Length:: chaptered
Word Count:: 6978 words
Rating:: PG-13
Note:: as the support was awesome, it will be two chapters per week, Tuesday and Friday!
Slowly, someone rubbed his hair and he woke up lazily. His alarm clock did not sound yet, then, what was wrong? He opened his eyes to find his wife in front of him, already dressed up and ready to go out. He frowned deeply wondering where she was going to go at that hour, but Ohno only waited for her to speak. His throat was truly dry, that was why when she answered she had met early with a friend to spend the day together, he only nodded and closed his eyes again to turn around and continue sleeping. But only ten minutes after, he was unable to sleep again. Fed up of everything that morning, he stood up in a bad mood and dressed up a bit because he was naked. Last night had not been enjoyable, however he felt relieved. For now.
It was still so early, so he only went to the bathroom to take a shower because last night he could not and entered in his personal room. He took a look at the unfinished paintings, but his inspiration was already into something else. His brush started to move on the canvas swiftly. The image was completely fixed in his mind and a figure of a man was getting shape faster than he thought. He never realized what he was painting until finishing and checking it out closely. Right now, he was so into it that he could not notice someone opening the door. His hand continued drawing without control.
“Ohno” a husky voice called him and suddenly, Satoshi woke up from his dream. His eyes found an almost naked man on the threshold, looking at him. “Do you have painkillers?” he asked with a painful grimace and Satoshi sighed deeply. It was already time to get ready so he had no other option rather than finishing it after. He left the tools on the table and removed the white coat to go with him. He closed that door with a key and went downstairs.
“Why do you close that door if the paintings are awesome?” Kazunari asked with a low voice while Satoshi was searching into a drawer to take the medicament and a glass of juice. He turned around with it on his hands, but he kept still. How was it possible he had that big hangover?
“Take this” he offered him without answering the previous question. Kazunari swallowed it quickly so he returned the glass. Ohno only kept doing a bit of coffee, not wanting to look at him. That image could not get out of his mind. It was so complicated to forget what he had seen. How he felt…
“Answer me” he insisted before sitting on a chair and Satoshi gulped to turn around and face him.
“It’s not your business, sorry” he had asked for a reply, so he did not care which type of answer he would say. Slowly, he took two glasses to put coffee inside and offer one to his boss. He sat in front of him, with the difference that he was only stirring the liquid, lost in his thoughts. Something was wrong. He knew it. But he could not find out what it was.
“What happened last night?” Ninomiya asked doubtfully. Maybe he was scared of knowing it. Should Ohno say everything? They were men, maybe it was not a big deal, but they had just met, so he was reticent to say it so easily.
“You drank just a bit of sake and got so drunk so my wife and I decided to let you sleep here” he answered briefly because more details were unneeded there. It was better like that.
“Didn’t I do something out of place?” he asked flushed, being even unable to look at him and Satoshi frowned. Was it possible he was remembering? But if it was like that, he would apologize straight. It was like if Ninomiya was waiting explanations because he could not complete the puzzle. And Satoshi would not help him.
“No, I don't think so” he lied. Why? He was not sure. Maybe it was better not to remember it anymore. Just leaving it like that. The act of a drunk person who went too far. Nothing else than that. Ninomiya did not inquire more about it and they took breakfast together, in silence and slowly, Satoshi found himself enjoying that. He had been missing a silent person for a long time. And in one way or another, Kazunari was bringing him the possibility of enjoying the company of someone else without being overwhelmed or stressed.
“Ohno” he called him again, but in a soft mode that Satoshi liked it. He raised his head, willing to hear him. “Can you take me to my home and then to work? It's already too late for me…” he asked with a regretful voice and Satoshi nodded, not caring about it.
“It's fine, but let's get ready now so we will have enough time” he proposed so no one of them would be so late and both stood up to get dressed and take the needed stuff. Just fifteen minutes after, they were already entering in the car and Satoshi started to drive. He asked Ninomiya the address to go there and the boss told him an area which was not known for being luxurious or for rich people. He decided not to create weird ideas in his mind before watching where he truly lived. Maybe there was some type of new building and he did not know it. After all, he did not frequent that area.
Suddenly, Ninomiya made him stop in front of a normal block of apartments and Satoshi thought there was something wrong. “You can come with me as long as I will take a quick shower too” he said embarrassed and Ohno could not understand why. That man was truly weird, changing his mood so hastily and without reason. But as he had told him, he followed his boss until arriving a door and Ninomiya opened it to come inside. It was an old apartment with only the necessities. It was the typical Japanese old house where the poor families were used to live. Why was the CEO's son living in such apartment? He was truly shocked.
“Don’t dare to peek in the bathroom” Ninomiya laughed as a joke, but Satoshi did not understand it. Why that joke? Why would he do that? Did he have face of spying people in showers? He got angry swiftly and Ninomiya, after seeing that his joke was not welcomed, looked down and went to the bathroom. He heard the water falling and he remembered that joke. What would happen if he did it? No, no. Was he stupid? Or crazy. Or just simply retarded. That was why Ohno just kept sitting on that sofa, glancing at the time and at his phone several times. He was pretty nervous there. The reason? A mystery, but his legs could not stop moving, his body was sweating already and his breath was a bit fast. He was so weird indeed. He wondered why.
Then, a naked man, with a towel around his waist, came out from the bathroom to approach a closet behind Satoshi and remove it to start to get dressed. Slowly, Ohno glanced at him, turning his head evidently, and his eyes could admire that man as when he was born. He could notice a sexy back and a round butt. Satoshi gulped when Ninomiya lowered his body to introduce his feet in the boxers because that butt became perfect to be fucked. He bit his lower lip and returned his head to the font. He was being mesmerized by that man, why? He was so lost about the decision his body was having regarding Ninomiya when he was married, he was not gay, he… Indeed there were not more reasons, but Satoshi had to convince himself that it was wrong. That excitement between his legs and those dirty thoughts had to disappear. It was not proper of him. What was more, he did not believe himself as someone who could stare at a man like that. Imagining what would happen if Ninomiya approached him and sat over his thighs… No, he had to stop, that was not him. He had a wife. That was completely out of place.
Suddenly, a hand touched his shoulders and by the surprise, he coughed hard. “Are you fine? Do you need water?” Ninomiya's voice was soft and worried. Ohno shook his head as negative answer and turned around to find him with wet hair and his shirt open. His eyes wandered around his body several times. So many, he realized how evident he was being. Kazunari only smirked before speaking. “Can you approach a tie to me? They are in the second drawer beside my bed” he said, but Ohno nodded without having understood anything and he kept on sitting. Kazunari frowned. “A tie” suddenly, Satoshi realized it and stood up nervously, searching for the nightstand with his gaze. He walked to it, discovering the apartment a bit dirty and when he opened the first drawer, he widened his eyes. There were a lube, a dildo and more things he did not know what they were. He closed the drawer slowly, still shocked by it and he searched in the second. The ties appeared and he caught a blue one. He liked that one. Then, Satoshi returned with his boss and offered it to him. Ninomiya smirked and caught it, to look into the mirror and start to make the lace.
“You really like blue, right?” Kazunari pointed it out and Satoshi leaned on the back of the sofa. He liked that colour indeed, but never noticed it until Kazunari said it. He only nodded, being silent because he could not believe that a person as Ninomiya could use that type of things. But did he use it on girls… or on him? His desire to know that was so big he was amazed with himself. Trying to know the sexual life of his boss. How crazy had he become? Since when? He was just a normal person. Why that sudden change? Maybe he was being so stressed lately, or just that it became hotter those days as long as May was arriving strongly. He should stop thinking and go on in his job and in his marriage. Not focusing on bosses and sexual stuff. That was what he had to do.
Then, Kazunari was ready to go and they returned to the car silently. He looked at the hour and noticed that they were a bit late. “Don’t care about the hour. It was my fault after all” Kazunari seemed as reading his mind. Satoshi only nodded without a word and kept driving. He looked as focusing on the road, but indeed, his mind could not stop his thoughts. Why was he like that? Ohno needed to stop, however no matter how many times he said that, nothing worked. Suddenly, Ninomiya's phone rang and scared him. His boss picked it up in a hurry and his face went pale.
“Sho, did something happen?” his voice sounded shaky and Ohno glanced at him. That name… He had spoken it last night, he even guessed that it was the same person who called two days ago. “I go there right now…” Ninomiya seemed deeply affected by that call and Satoshi could not avoid his own words. No matter how bad their first impressions were, he was a human after all.
“Are you okay?” he sounded worried. Well, after all he was worried, but he did not want to show that he was concerned about an unknown. It looked so weird. But Kazunari only glanced at him with a slight smile, which disappeared at the next second.
“Yes, stop here. I won't go to the company today, I'm sorry for this after all…” he asked the employee, but Ohno refused to leave him in the middle of the city if he needed to go to somewhere.
“I can take you whenever you want to go” Satoshi offered willingly. However, Ninomiya seemed stressed about it.
“No, really, stop here” his voice was a bit loud and rude. Ohno accepted it without any question more and Kazunari went out of the car quickly. Before closing the door, he lowered his head to look at him troubled. His mouth seemed as wanting to say something, but he only said goodbye and closed the door. Satoshi drove again, but had to stop because it was red. Then, he glanced at outside and saw how Ninomiya started to run through the street. Why? Why did he not let him go to the place he needed? Somehow, that action, those last words, that situation was difficult to understand and Satoshi found himself bothered about it. Not angry or annoyed with his boss, because after all they were two unknowns, but somehow his heart pounded in his chest. The frustration was filling it faster and harder than he expected coming from a person he had just met. Why? Why did everything seem upside down with Ninomiya? Why was he thinking of him even when he was entering the building after twenty minutes of path? Why did he remember the crash when he was waiting the elevator? Why?
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His hand was writing a document he had to deliver at the next day and his eyes were reading the infinite pages of that contract. He lowered the light of his computer because once again the whole office had gone and he was alone in the dark. Only a little lamp and his computer were illuminating his desk to continue working. He wanted to leave it ready for tomorrow as long as he was taking so much time to end it. It was weird in him. Satoshi could finish that in just a morning, but a whole day had gone by already and he had only done the half of it. His mind was not there. And he knew it perfectly, what was occupying his whole concern, but he preferred to forget it and continue with it. As soon as he would end it, he would leave it on his boss’s desk so Ninomiya would only have to read it, and he would return to his house with his wife. His life was as simple as that and he had to continue it no matter what.
Suddenly, he heard steps through the hallway and Satoshi got tense, wondering who would be at this hour. Maybe the security guy? He kept his eyes fixed on the door until a dark shape came in. Only when that person came closer and the light lit his face, Ohno could recognize Ninomiya with tired face, eye bags and his suit a bit dirty, he was not wearing already the blue tie and somehow, Ohno felt disappointed. What had he done during the whole day? Indeed they had not seen each other since that morning and somehow, Ohno was glad to meet him again. Why? The boss only frowned and looked at the hour, Ohno followed his steps and realized the hour too. That was fucking late. Then, Ninomiya only turned his computer off by the button on the monitor and walked to his office. Ohno turned it on again to continue working, why should he stop because he said it? Well, relatively he had not said it, but indicated it so Satoshi did not care and continued that damn document.
Sometimes, his eyes glanced at his office, which had the door opened, so he could barely see what he was doing too. He was completely focused on his laptop and tapping frenetically the keyboard. He was so fast that Satoshi was truly doubting he had started yesterday to do that. Also, he had his glasses again and Kazunari looked more handsome once more. Ohno sighed, why was he looking at his boss? He should be working… His mind was already so tired, but by thinking so much of that man. He was lost about why all his focus was for Ninomiya if they did not know each other. And all was fine, until Ninomiya jerked off in front of his eyes. He could not erase it at all. He was completely absorbed by that image. No matter how angry and disgusted he could have felt at first when he turned around. When he saw his powerlessness, his cute face asking for more, his body being so weak… all of that caught him in a way he had never felt before. Ninomiya was like the most perfect drawing to admire. Being naked and weak in front of his eyes…
Suddenly, the voice of a person woke him up and Satoshi raised his head surprised. Kazunari was in front of his desk, he seemed as ready to go home and Satoshi realized that he had lost another hour just thinking of that man. What was wrong with him?! It was already so late that even his wife would be worried about him. He checked his phone in a hurry to call her, when he found one message. His eyes read it, feeling how the disappointment was hitting him hard. He rubbed his tired eyes, being defeated in front of his boss, who kept in silence there, looking at him with a poker face. Satoshi read it again, slower.
From:: Yoko
Darling, I will keep this night with my friend. You have your dinner in the fridge. I will be back tomorrow's morning. Bye!
Yes, he had read well. Another night she would spend with her friend. He could understand that she wanted to go out, be with friends, sleep outside, but that was starting to be so frequent that Satoshi was already doubting who that friend was… He was really worried about it, so much that it even hurt. But he could not seem vulnerable in front of his boss. So he turned his phone off and started to take his stuff inside his briefcase. Satoshi stood up to take his jacket and be ready to go. When he raised his gaze, his boss was not already there. He did not say even goodbye and Ohno disappointment grew up even more. He was already fed up with the world. So he only walked through the hallway, took the elevator and crossed the hall to go straight to the parking. Surprisingly, when he found his car, he saw a man waiting for him. He approached and Ninomiya looked at him with tired face.
“You’re slow, I want to arrive home” he sounded as if they two were living together and Ohno would like to laugh at that point, but he sounded angry instead.
“What? Don't you have a car?” he opened the door and both got inside, Ninomiya truly not caring if he was being scolded. That man was a bother indeed. But somehow, Ohno was feeling better with him around.
“No, and I lost the last train so… To my house, please” that arrogance, when he sat on the seat and leaned on the door, waiting for him to be his chauffeur, made Ohno be completely amazed by such a person. He just kept staring at him, without even turning the car on. Ninomiya only glanced at him like saying to go on. And Satoshi only sighed. Why was he controlling him? He felt so stupid, but at the same time, he did not feel bothered by the fact of driving until his house, what was more, it was better if he took more time outside. That house, so big and lonely, could make him feel so bad and moody when he was as tired as that day.
No one talked more. The silence was surrounding them, fulfilling that car completely, even their breaths were so low that the only noise was the motor working out. It was already so late that no one was on the street so driving was so nice, no traffic jams to be in during hours. He had the whole road for him and he went a bit faster than normal. Suddenly, a hand grabbed his arm tightly, so much that he was scared. He found Ninomiya looking at him with panic eyes, sweating a lot. “Can you go slower, please?” his voice was shaking and Ohno decreased the speed. He was worried now, what was wrong with going a bit fast?
“Are you okay?” he did not want to provoke that at all. Satoshi was truly feeling bad about how Ninomiya was feeling. Maybe was he afraid of high speed? Or he wanted to vomit. “We can stop if you need a bit of fresh air” he glanced several times at his boss, who was just brushing his hair and after a minute, Kazunari smiled at him back.
“It’s fine, I was just a bit dizzy” his attitude changed again, the nice one showing up again. Ohno could not believe him completely, but opted for not asking anymore. His face seemed better too. Then, just when it seemed to go smoothly once more, a sudden message arrived and Satoshi asked his boss to tap the button to be read aloud.
“Dear, I'm sorry, my friend has just found an awesome opera tomorrow, so I will come back after dinner, lucky that I left enough food for you!” the program read and Satoshi decided not to even answer. He was really frustrated with her. He was starting to be her second choice and that was hurting him. But the worst of all was that Ninomiya had listened to it too. He glanced at the man by his side with embarrassed eyes and Ninomiya was only waiting an explanation with his arms crossed.
“If you don't answer her and put that ugly face, it’s because you're so fucking bothered… Are you jealous? No… I don't think so… Then, you don't like her friends! Nah… for sure they are so nice… Don't tell me you're the type of man who still thinks that women only have to clean and take care of children!” Ninomiya talked straight aloud, maybe not noticing how angry Satoshi was getting.
“No! Fuck, no! She can do whatever she wants!” he explained before Kazunari thought that he was a retrograde man. He truly had no problem with watching how her wife had fun too, but he was so worried that it was happening so frequently that lately he was becoming mad every time she decided to meet her friend.
“Then?” he continued asking without caring about Satoshi's feelings and all he got was a shout by Ohno.
“Can't you shut up?!” he was completely angry at that moment, rather than angry, he was overwhelmed with what he was feeling. He was a mess since yesterday when he had never felt alike and he did not know if she was the only reason, even if she had guilt there. He felt so powerless, so much that his eyes were so wet and reddish. So deep inside of him, he knew the answer, he truly knew himself, but he could not accept what was happening at that moment. He could not say that it was fine, that was why he kept in the ignorance. Maybe like that, he would not suffer.
After the shout, Ninomiya remained in silence the last five minutes they took to arrive to that building, where his boss used to live. He was feeling already so bad for it and as long as he could see how bothered Ninomiya was, going out of the car without a single word, Ohno came out too to call him. “I'm sorry” he spoke lowly and Kazunari frowned.
“What?” maybe he was just playing with him or maybe he did not had heard his words, but Ohno repeated his apology again without being ashamed. “I was just trying to help you, but I don't know why I even try with a person I don't know” he said loudly because of the big space between them. After that, Ninomiya turned around and Satoshi closed his car to chase him. Why did he not leave it like that? Why was it so important to explain? Everything was upside down at that moment. And he was as lost as never. Every step he did was to the nowhere. What should he do?
“Wait!” his mouth was able to say only that before grabbing his forearm. What was he doing? Ninomiya turned around to look at him, using that small height difference between them to seem superior. “I didn’t mean that” he could not continue speaking, his heart was pounding and his mind was blank. Satoshi was overwhelmed by how close they kept.
“You were so straight. Don't worry, I will shut up and stop bothering you” Ninomiya reproached him carelessly. Satoshi was still holding his wrist and his hand did not let it go. Kazunari started to be fed up and just kept walking, dragging him strongly. Ohno was so tired that he could not stop his body and just let him do until his apartment. Both came inside and Satoshi released it now that he could make him listen to what he had to explain.
“I’m sorry about that, but I don't want to talk about it” he started and Ninomiya only did things around him without looking at his face even once. “I’m so tired after being unable to work, after having a wife who is forgetting me. Lately, I can't control anything and I can't anymore, okay? So just let me shout for a while because I need it” his voice was loud and just those words meant a great relief inside of him. Two tears made their path through his cheeks and when he raised his gaze, Ninomiya was staring at him. Nobody did a move for a few seconds and Ohno felt so ridiculous there. Crying in front of an unknown… How crazy was he? “I’m sorry… I should go…” he whispered, his cheeks burning and turned around to take the door handle. But before opening it, he felt a hand grabbing his. Satoshi could feel those soft fingers catching his and slowly, he faced Ninomiya. The man did not speak a single word, he only caught his both hands and took them to his shoulders. Then, Kazunari grabbed his waist and approached their bodies. His boss hugged him tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder and Satoshi felt a warmth filling his body fast, so much he had shivers. Without thinking about it twice, Ohno hugged his neck and only then, a tender hand brushed his hair.
“I thought you might need a hug” it sounded as an excuse, even if Satoshi could feel it was not. However, he could understand it and only nodded. After one or two minutes like that, the hug was broken slowly and Ninomiya made their two cheeks touch slightly. They kept too close, so much their noses could barely feel each other and their breaths were mixed heavily. Satoshi could not think at that moment. Having that man so close, asking for a kiss so badly. His own lips were licked, expecting it completely sure Ninomiya was going to do the step. He was mesmerized by those thin lips, by his warmth, one of his hand almost on his butt. That attraction was reciprocal and Ohno was feeling so happy that he was lost. He had a wife, what was he doing? Should he cheat on her? No, that was forbidden for him, kissing Kazunari would be what would ruin his life. That was why he lowered his head, separating a bit their bodies, deeply wishing that Ninomiya would still continue it. However, as long as it was not a fairy tail, Kazunari broke the hug completely, turning around to approach the kitchen. Satoshi kept there, feeling horribly stupid and ridiculous.
“You can stay here the whole night, it's so late and… I don't like being alone” Ninomiya offered him with a nervous voice, but no one could look at each other. Satoshi's heart was pounding, deciding what to do, if he should stay. He had nothing to do in his home, no one was waiting for him there, but here… there was someone who was inviting him to stay. Maybe the reason was starting to be blurred, but for a long time, he had not wanted to be with someone as much as at that moment. So he raised his face to nod briefly and approach the kitchen too. He sat on a chair to see how Ninomiya prepared a small salad to eat something and he took only two pairs of chopsticks and two beers.
“Let's watch a bit the TV” probably, the both of them were trying to avoid any type of conversation, that was why they sat around the low table and Ninomiya turned the TV on, appearing a variety program. They ate from the same bowl slowly, sitting close under a corner of the table to be able to share it and sometimes their gazes found each other. Ohno tried to focus on the program, so that uncomfortable situation would end soon. However, when he went to drink, a tear fell from the corner of his mouth and Ninomiya dried it with his thumb, catching his chin softly. Kazunari smirked suddenly and approached him, his hand still grabbing his chin to keep him still. And slowly, his boss licked the zone which was stained with beer, reaching the commissure with his tongue. Without thinking, Satoshi lost his control, caught his nape with his hand and kissed his lips deeply. Both moved their mouths hastily to find the tongues and play with them. It was being so naughty that Satoshi could not believe he was doing that with his boss. Trying to lick his whole mouth, feeling how Kazunari's hand crossed his jaw to reach his hair and brush it tightly as he felt a tongue so deep inside his mouth. He was so skillful that Ohno wanted more, but the lack of air and his imminent heart attack obligated him to stop the kiss.
“I’m sorry” he whispered almost over his lips and he separated, being unable to look at him. He could not eat more food as long as his stomach was upside down, so he just leaned his back on the sofa. Then, Ninomiya sighed, stretching his body completely and resting his head on the sofa, showing his thin neck. Ohno kept looking at it, how perfect it seemed to suck, devour. Satoshi was daydreaming with fulfilling all of that when he was discovered by his boss. Kazunari only smirked and caught his wrist to pull him over his body. Ohno felt an arm around his torso and his hand was leaned on his shoulder while their faces stayed so close once more. What was happening? That seemed endless and Satoshi's control was decreasing so fast that he was completely lost about what he should do. Those lips were begging to be kissed again and he felt so weak. Then, a sudden memory of his wife came to his mind and he tried to set him aside, but Kazunari was stronger.
“Let me go…” Satoshi spoke flushed. His boss only smirked, showing how powerful he was. “It was because of the beer, don't take it seriously…” the employee continued trying to stop him and making excuses. Anything was better than telling how attracted to him he felt. That type of reaction was not proper of him, why was he succumbing so easily with Kazunari? Maybe, because the way he treated him. For first time, someone was making him feel hot only with his presence when he was used to imagine things to turn on. It was new, exciting and tentative, that was why he had to resist and stop that nonsense with his boss.
“Yeah, the beer, the heat of this night and the tiredness, right?” his irony was palpable in that sentence and Satoshi sighed so bothered. “So the kiss has been a mistake” Ninomiya said while raising his both eyebrows.
“Exactly, so let me go, I want to sleep” he sounded so disturbed and pushed him aside so strong that Ninomiya gave up and stood up. He was not truly bothered, not with his boss, but with himself. What was happening to him? Everything seemed out of his control. So lost and confused. For first time, he truly doubted what he had to do, even if the answer was so evident. Suddenly, he heard a hit and he turned around to see how Ninomiya took a futon on the floor beside the bed, looking so angry somehow.
“Go to sleep and don’t give me more problems” he said rudely before sitting again to drink the last beer remained in the can. Satoshi frowned deeply and refused to keep silent.
“You were who offered me to stay” he pointed out that detail which seemed forgotten by his boss and Ninomiya just gave him a hateful look.
“And I'm regretting it” he spoke without a doubt. Ohno felt so hurt at that moment, so much he decided to stand up and shout him.
“Then, you know what you have to do next time!” his anger showed up evidently, leaving Kazunari speechless. Satoshi only approached the futon in the next room and undressed until only having his boxers. It was so hot that he was wondering if he could sleep covered by that warm sheet. But he did not want to be observed by that pervert man, because he was a pervert. That was why he only covered until his belly, feeling his legs as burning, and he closed his eyes to sleep, but the noises outside were too much. Kazunari was washing the few stuff they used to eat at that hour and Satoshi wondered how he could not be tired yet… It was so late after a crazy day, he was dead. That was why he fell asleep quickly, falling in his own peace once more, but suddenly lowly steps walked around him and Ohno woke up, taking a look at the room.
He found Ninomiya, undressed and lying on the bed. He took a look at the clock and it was four am. Was he going now to sleep or he had just stood up to do something? Ohno decided to raise his head while breathing heavily and his eyes found Ninomiya looking at him like an owl. “What’s wrong?” he asked because his boss had just scared him. Kazunari only turned around without a word and Ohno frowned deeply. Something was happening and that person did not want to talk. After all they were unknowns, but not controlling his desire to know, he climbed on the bed to touch his shoulder and ask again. Once more there was no answer. Because of the silence, he could hear like a sob, was he crying? He could not see properly so he leaned his hand on the other side to try to watch his face and suddenly, Kazunari's hand caught it to intertwine their fingers and place it on his stomach. Did he want him to hug him? Could that be weirder? Satoshi was doubting what to do, however, because of the tiredness, he rested his head on the pillow and pressed his back on his torso to comfort him, just in case he was truly crying.
Satoshi could smell his scent from his nape and mesmerized by it, he approached even more. What was happening that night was crazy, they two were crazy, but it seemed like no one could stop, like if they both needed to touch, to be near, to enjoy each other. And he could confirm both because when his nose rubbed his skin, Ninomiya's hand got tensed around his. However, once again, nobody said anything about stopping or asking what they were doing. Ohno only closed his eyes, feeling so much better there than in that futon and fell asleep. Sometimes he could feel Ninomiya moving around him, but it was nice to feel him so near, the bed so warm. He was loving that.
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Slowly, he felt something so good on his neck, he was loving whatever it was. Satoshi only tried to find it with his hand and only a head was touched. He brushed that hair, thinking that his wife that morning was being so wild and nice with him. Until his hand noticed that that hair was too short to be a woman. Hastily, he remembered everything, what happened last night, and his eyes were widely opened, trying to discover what was happening on his neck. Finally, his skin could feel two lips sucking it strongly and Satoshi only caught his shoulders to push him aside. Their gazes found each other and Ninomiya was smirking deeply. Satoshi sat quickly on the bed and shouted at him.
“What the fuck are you doing?!” his voice was rude and disturbed. However, Ninomiya only laughed and lay down on the bed with a forearm under his head. He was not wearing clothes, only his boxers and his mind remembered quickly what was hidden under them, how hot it could be. Then, Satoshi shook his head, hating how easy that man could drive him crazy and stood up to dress up. He could not anymore beside him. He did not know already which limit he could reach with Ninomiya closer, because indeed, he was not a human anymore if he was near.
“I couldn’t wake you up and opted for a… faster way” he said still with his provocative smirk and Satoshi only sighed, so fed up of that man and his I-do-not-care-if-you-have-a-wife actions. The employee only left the bedroom to arrive to his kitchen and find something to drink. While he was searching on the cupboards, he heard the steps of a man and how he sat on a chair.
“Don't you have anything to have breakfast?” Satoshi asked disturbed and Kazunari stood up amused. The boss opened a drawer and took two coffee packets. Ohno frowned while watching how that man put milk in two glasses and the coffee inside. Then, he put them in the microwave and set one minute.
“Ta-da! A free breakfast for the man” he joked ironically when the microwave ended and Satoshi only took his glass to approach the table and try to have a normal morning. He turned his phone on to see if there was something interesting and opened Instagram because he needed to do anything before paying attention to that human. He started to watch the stories, bored about them, so he left the phone on the table and let them go by their own. Suddenly, a woman he recognized so well appeared in a photo so close to a man, and he put his finger on it to stop it. So indeed that friend was a man. A sudden heat grew up inside of him and he grabbed the glass strongly.
“If you break the glass, you will have to pay it” his boss commented unnecessarily and Satoshi had enough that morning.
“Can’t you shut up?!” he hit the glass on the table, with the bad luck that the coffee was spilled on his hand. “Fuck!” that was burning his hand as hell and his mind was blank of how to calm it down. Then, he saw how Ninomiya approached in a hurry to brush it with a cloth and take him to the sink. The cold water was helping a lot and when the pain decreased, Ohno only felt two hands rubbing his gently.
“How can you be so stupid?” Ninomiya said with a tired voice and Satoshi only sighed feeling so horribly ridiculous. His wife was with other man, he was behaving like a teenager with his boss, and for more, he had burned his hand because of an anger attack. Did he had no control over himself already? Was he so lost that everything seemed out of control? Even his thoughts? His life was breaking at that moment just by thinking that his wife could have done anything with that man… He could not trust her anymore, and that was what was hurting him the most.
“I’m sorry” he apologized with a tiny voice and tried to remove his hand from the water to stop being a bother for Ninomiya. However, that man did not allow him. His boss only stopped the water and caught the cloth to dry it slowly. It was still hurting a lot, and he saw how his skin was so red.
“Come with me” Ninomiya pulled him to the bedroom and made him sit on it. Then, he opened a drawer and took an ointment tube. Satoshi was thinking he was being so well treated by him. If that had happened in front of his wife, he would only have heard shouts, complains and scolds. However, Ninomiya was being truly careful with spreading the ointment on his hand and Satoshi was feeling loved. Even if that was impossible coming from his boss, firstly because he was an unknown yet and secondly because Ninomiya was such a despicable guy. Even if the last reason started to have an interrogation at the end. Ohno only continued watching how Ninomiya covered it with a bandage slowly, he was not almost feeling pain, and then he finished satisfied.
“What a good boy” Kazunari smirked, caught his chin and kissed his lips suddenly. It just lasted a few seconds, but he could feel how he sucked his lower lip. Satoshi was frozen, what should he do?
//Hi! As I said, with all the support you gave to me (I'm so grateful really T-T), I felt excited enough to post the second as soon as possible!
Now the story is getting deeper, showing how Ohno is a mess and how Ninomiya is starting to play. But what's more, that friend of his wife which is producing in him all the doubts. Now, it's when the real problem starts~
Hope you like it, if it's so, don't doubt to tell me, it helps me a lot :'))))
Bye~