Just One More
Title: Just One More
Pairing Hangeng/Heechul
Rating PG-13
Genre Angst
Warning Character death
NOte: Dedicated to Tinggi22
Summary If you stop, close your eyes and just listen…you’ll realise the world is a truly beautiful place.
MASTERLIST
It almost felt as if this was how it was supposed to happen.
He closed his eyes briefly before opening then slowly again.
The lights sparkled in front his eyes like the stars in the night sky. One breath. One deep slow breath was followed by another. It was strange everything sounded so much clearer. How many times had he stopped to listen to the sounds of the world around him? Not very often he thought as he closed his eyes. He allowed his mind to take him on a journey sweeping him away with the sounds of the world.
Somewhere there was a little girl laughing. There was the sound of water sweeping softly in the wind. Somewhere up in a tree he could hear little birds tweeting happily. Regret washed over him. Why hadn’t he done this before? Here with his eyes closed he realised just how beautiful the world was. The sunlight filtered through the room bathing him in its warm glow. It beckoned to him. It reached out a hand and he took it allowing it to sweep him away.
Images flashed in front of him. He blinked and in front of him stood a younger version of himself. The long dark hair rolled in waves around his younger self’s waist. Deep eyes blinked at him from under deep dark eyelashes. The smirk that he perfected over the years coated the younger’s face. With a blink that hair changed into the colour of hot red flames. His younger self continued to shift changing as he once had. Soon an identical image stood in front of him.
Not that much had changed since his flaming red hair days. His skin was still the perfectly flawless milky white it used to be. His lips slightly fuller and just a tinge more like the colour of a rose. His black hair was shoulder length still the silky texture it always had been. Those eyes still shined as bright as they used to. He was still a version of perfection. Heechul turned his head away. He didn’t need his mind to show him this he knew very well how good he looked. He had been blessed at birth with these good looks.
He doubled over clutching and everything shuttered.
Just one more breath.
His eyes flashed open.
Please just one more breath.
His chest lifted up off the floor as if it was being pulled up by a piece of string. No other part of his body moved. As quickly as it had come his back hit the floor. He let out a deep breath. The pain in his chest was only getting tighter as each and every second past.
He slowly started to gain his feeling back. The wooden floor felt cold against his skin. There was something in his hand but he couldn’t place it. His head felt heavy and weighed down. Even if he wanted to lift it he couldn’t. The ceiling stared down at him half of it a deep blue colour which slowly faded into white. It wasn’t something that had been done on purpose. There was a reason for it but right now He couldn’t remember what it was.
He took a breath.
It’s funny isn’t it? Our hearts are what keep us alive. It’s the pumping of the two ventricles that keep the blood running into our veins, yet we for the most part take it for granted. When was the last time you stopped and just listened to the sound of your heart? There was just something comforting about the rhythm. Heechul hand edged closer and closer until finally it was placed directly above his chest.
Please heart please just keep beating for a little longer.
Pain throbbed through him. He clenched his teeth biting back a scream as his body shook and his head thrashed. With a slump his body became still. His head grew hazy and the blue colour of the ceiling started to blur into the white. A tear threatened to fall from his eye. He wanted it to end yet at the same time he hoped it wouldn’t.
One breath.
How long had he been laying here on the cold wooden floor? How long would it be till it all ended? He let out a sigh and applauded himself for being able to hold on to the tear. The pain in his chest didn’t go away it lingered like an unwanted pimple. Was this how it was supposed to be? Heechul blinked slowly. He had no idea. He had no regrets but still that didn’t stop the fear slowly settling in. His calm exterior was slowly crumbling as he realised that it was coming soon.
Keep breath.
The next waved hit him like a ton of bricks. He felt his body seize up. Please no he wanted to scream. It was the strongest bout of pain. His lung seemed to shrink restricting his oxygen intake. He gasped for air. Please not yet! Tears fell from his eyes and he no longer care that they would stain his flawless cheeks. He cried out, mind fading into blackness for a second. Then it stopped.
One breath after another.
What was he doing here? Why was he holding on when he was feeling so much pain? Was he waiting? Was he holding back for a reason? He couldn’t remember. His mind was glazed over in a thick fog. What was his name? Who was he? He felt sleepy, so sleepy. Slowly he closed his eyes giving up. There was nothing worth this pain in his chest. His eyes drooped.
Please just one more breath.
There was a sound. Something that he didn’t think belonged there. What did it matter? He was going to leave this world behind. Harsh wind hit him this time instead of his chest it was his face. That too faded though. Everything around him was dark. He was slipping he just knew it. This was a soft sound. At first he barely heard it but it started to get louder and louder. It was an annoying buzz that he just wanted to squash. It got louder and louder until it was all her heard. Light peaked softly thought the space between his eye lids.
A face?
Who was it? Brown eyes looked down at him, they were wide in…fear? He felt his heart twist as they slowly came into focus. It was a different sort on pain. Was this person the reason he was holding on?
“Please stay with me…Heechul”
His brain suddenly kicked into gear.
“Han…Hangeng”
Tear spilled out of his eyes as he looked up at their face. He wanted to cry to reach up and pull those arms around him but he couldn’t move he was immobilised.
“You came”
His voice cracked with the sobs that spilled out of his mouth. He knew there was a reason why he had been holding on and now that reason was right in front of him. Those arms that he had been craving for so long lifted him up. His body was limp, shoulder sagging, curved back supported by Hangengs arms. Familiar warmth seeped into him as Hangeng held him close. All the feelings he had tried to suppress ever since that day that Hangeng had left came rushing up.
“You’re going to be okay Heechul you just need to hold on. Okay?”
Heechul smiled. He knew that Hangengs words were a lie. With each and every second he could feel himself slipping away. Hangeng held him close. He could hear Hangengs heart pounding frantically in his chest. He knew very well the reason why he had been holding on. He realised how selfish he had been. There was something he had to tell Hangeng. Something he had wanted to tell Hangeng for quite a long time.
“Han…”
“Shh save your energy”
Heechul rolled his eyes.
“Will you just shut up and let me speak!”
Hangengs arms that were holding him shook. Heechul leaned away slightly so he could look Hangeng in the face. His chests felt warm and tight. He closed his eyes for a long second trying to gather the strength for what he was about to say. His consciousness slowly started to slip. Hangeng shook him slightly. He wanted to grumbled just let me sleep. A tear splattered on his cheek and he opened his eyes that felt so heavy. Hangengs teary face came out slightly blurry. The arms around him held a bit tighter.
“Please Heechul you have to stay awake”
Heechul hand twitched he attempted to lift it but it just fell limp at his side. Hangeng picked his hand up and placed it against his face. It amazed Heechul that even after all this time Hangeng could still tell what he was thinking.
“I have…something…to tell…you”
Heechul eyes felt like they were getting heavier. His chest was getting tighter and as each second went past he was finding it much harder to breath.
Please no. Please not yet.
Just one more breath. Please let me just tell him.
“Hannie…I…”
Darkness draped over him.
“HEECHUL! HEECHUL!”
Please body just hold on. He opened his eyes just a bit. Only enough to see Hangeng through his long dark eyelashes.
“I love you Hangeng. Ever since I first met you”
Hangengs eyes widened completely.
“Hee…”
Please just one more breath. Please.
His body grew heavier. Everything started to blur. I just want you to know that I thought of you everyday. When you left I felt like you had taken a part of me away from you. All those secret smile all those time we spent staying up late just talking. Even when I started teaching you ‘my Korean’. It’s like my heart always belonged to you. All these thing he wanted to tell Hangeng but he would never be able to. He was so close.
Something soft pressed against his lips. What was it?
“I love you too”
How long had he wanted to hear those words from Hangengs lips? It felt so good. Like he was floating. He fought to open his eyes one last time. Hangengs face showed him nothing but love.
Please just one more breath.
Heechuls eyes closed. Tears fell down his eyes as he tried to shake him awake. He called out softly. The hand that he held against his cheek went slack. Time seemed to move in slow motion as Heechul hand fell down before lying limp on the ground.
NO! JUST ONE MORE LOOK!
He held Heechul close to him. Heart clenching in pain and tears streaming down his face.
Please just one more breath.
A/N: It’s been so long since I’ve written anything ah I feel so out of touch. I feel like there is something missing in here but I have no idea what it is, well hopefully you guys like it anyway. If not you may give me the death sentence by marshmallows hehe. Until next time my lovely wonderful reader have a beautiful day!
Pairing Hangeng/Heechul
Rating PG-13
Genre Angst
Warning Character death
NOte: Dedicated to Tinggi22
Summary If you stop, close your eyes and just listen…you’ll realise the world is a truly beautiful place.
MASTERLIST
It almost felt as if this was how it was supposed to happen.
He closed his eyes briefly before opening then slowly again.
The lights sparkled in front his eyes like the stars in the night sky. One breath. One deep slow breath was followed by another. It was strange everything sounded so much clearer. How many times had he stopped to listen to the sounds of the world around him? Not very often he thought as he closed his eyes. He allowed his mind to take him on a journey sweeping him away with the sounds of the world.
Somewhere there was a little girl laughing. There was the sound of water sweeping softly in the wind. Somewhere up in a tree he could hear little birds tweeting happily. Regret washed over him. Why hadn’t he done this before? Here with his eyes closed he realised just how beautiful the world was. The sunlight filtered through the room bathing him in its warm glow. It beckoned to him. It reached out a hand and he took it allowing it to sweep him away.
Images flashed in front of him. He blinked and in front of him stood a younger version of himself. The long dark hair rolled in waves around his younger self’s waist. Deep eyes blinked at him from under deep dark eyelashes. The smirk that he perfected over the years coated the younger’s face. With a blink that hair changed into the colour of hot red flames. His younger self continued to shift changing as he once had. Soon an identical image stood in front of him.
Not that much had changed since his flaming red hair days. His skin was still the perfectly flawless milky white it used to be. His lips slightly fuller and just a tinge more like the colour of a rose. His black hair was shoulder length still the silky texture it always had been. Those eyes still shined as bright as they used to. He was still a version of perfection. Heechul turned his head away. He didn’t need his mind to show him this he knew very well how good he looked. He had been blessed at birth with these good looks.
He doubled over clutching and everything shuttered.
Just one more breath.
His eyes flashed open.
Please just one more breath.
His chest lifted up off the floor as if it was being pulled up by a piece of string. No other part of his body moved. As quickly as it had come his back hit the floor. He let out a deep breath. The pain in his chest was only getting tighter as each and every second past.
He slowly started to gain his feeling back. The wooden floor felt cold against his skin. There was something in his hand but he couldn’t place it. His head felt heavy and weighed down. Even if he wanted to lift it he couldn’t. The ceiling stared down at him half of it a deep blue colour which slowly faded into white. It wasn’t something that had been done on purpose. There was a reason for it but right now He couldn’t remember what it was.
He took a breath.
It’s funny isn’t it? Our hearts are what keep us alive. It’s the pumping of the two ventricles that keep the blood running into our veins, yet we for the most part take it for granted. When was the last time you stopped and just listened to the sound of your heart? There was just something comforting about the rhythm. Heechul hand edged closer and closer until finally it was placed directly above his chest.
Please heart please just keep beating for a little longer.
Pain throbbed through him. He clenched his teeth biting back a scream as his body shook and his head thrashed. With a slump his body became still. His head grew hazy and the blue colour of the ceiling started to blur into the white. A tear threatened to fall from his eye. He wanted it to end yet at the same time he hoped it wouldn’t.
One breath.
How long had he been laying here on the cold wooden floor? How long would it be till it all ended? He let out a sigh and applauded himself for being able to hold on to the tear. The pain in his chest didn’t go away it lingered like an unwanted pimple. Was this how it was supposed to be? Heechul blinked slowly. He had no idea. He had no regrets but still that didn’t stop the fear slowly settling in. His calm exterior was slowly crumbling as he realised that it was coming soon.
Keep breath.
The next waved hit him like a ton of bricks. He felt his body seize up. Please no he wanted to scream. It was the strongest bout of pain. His lung seemed to shrink restricting his oxygen intake. He gasped for air. Please not yet! Tears fell from his eyes and he no longer care that they would stain his flawless cheeks. He cried out, mind fading into blackness for a second. Then it stopped.
One breath after another.
What was he doing here? Why was he holding on when he was feeling so much pain? Was he waiting? Was he holding back for a reason? He couldn’t remember. His mind was glazed over in a thick fog. What was his name? Who was he? He felt sleepy, so sleepy. Slowly he closed his eyes giving up. There was nothing worth this pain in his chest. His eyes drooped.
Please just one more breath.
There was a sound. Something that he didn’t think belonged there. What did it matter? He was going to leave this world behind. Harsh wind hit him this time instead of his chest it was his face. That too faded though. Everything around him was dark. He was slipping he just knew it. This was a soft sound. At first he barely heard it but it started to get louder and louder. It was an annoying buzz that he just wanted to squash. It got louder and louder until it was all her heard. Light peaked softly thought the space between his eye lids.
A face?
Who was it? Brown eyes looked down at him, they were wide in…fear? He felt his heart twist as they slowly came into focus. It was a different sort on pain. Was this person the reason he was holding on?
“Please stay with me…Heechul”
His brain suddenly kicked into gear.
“Han…Hangeng”
Tear spilled out of his eyes as he looked up at their face. He wanted to cry to reach up and pull those arms around him but he couldn’t move he was immobilised.
“You came”
His voice cracked with the sobs that spilled out of his mouth. He knew there was a reason why he had been holding on and now that reason was right in front of him. Those arms that he had been craving for so long lifted him up. His body was limp, shoulder sagging, curved back supported by Hangengs arms. Familiar warmth seeped into him as Hangeng held him close. All the feelings he had tried to suppress ever since that day that Hangeng had left came rushing up.
“You’re going to be okay Heechul you just need to hold on. Okay?”
Heechul smiled. He knew that Hangengs words were a lie. With each and every second he could feel himself slipping away. Hangeng held him close. He could hear Hangengs heart pounding frantically in his chest. He knew very well the reason why he had been holding on. He realised how selfish he had been. There was something he had to tell Hangeng. Something he had wanted to tell Hangeng for quite a long time.
“Han…”
“Shh save your energy”
Heechul rolled his eyes.
“Will you just shut up and let me speak!”
Hangengs arms that were holding him shook. Heechul leaned away slightly so he could look Hangeng in the face. His chests felt warm and tight. He closed his eyes for a long second trying to gather the strength for what he was about to say. His consciousness slowly started to slip. Hangeng shook him slightly. He wanted to grumbled just let me sleep. A tear splattered on his cheek and he opened his eyes that felt so heavy. Hangengs teary face came out slightly blurry. The arms around him held a bit tighter.
“Please Heechul you have to stay awake”
Heechul hand twitched he attempted to lift it but it just fell limp at his side. Hangeng picked his hand up and placed it against his face. It amazed Heechul that even after all this time Hangeng could still tell what he was thinking.
“I have…something…to tell…you”
Heechul eyes felt like they were getting heavier. His chest was getting tighter and as each second went past he was finding it much harder to breath.
Please no. Please not yet.
Just one more breath. Please let me just tell him.
“Hannie…I…”
Darkness draped over him.
“HEECHUL! HEECHUL!”
Please body just hold on. He opened his eyes just a bit. Only enough to see Hangeng through his long dark eyelashes.
“I love you Hangeng. Ever since I first met you”
Hangengs eyes widened completely.
“Hee…”
Please just one more breath. Please.
His body grew heavier. Everything started to blur. I just want you to know that I thought of you everyday. When you left I felt like you had taken a part of me away from you. All those secret smile all those time we spent staying up late just talking. Even when I started teaching you ‘my Korean’. It’s like my heart always belonged to you. All these thing he wanted to tell Hangeng but he would never be able to. He was so close.
Something soft pressed against his lips. What was it?
“I love you too”
How long had he wanted to hear those words from Hangengs lips? It felt so good. Like he was floating. He fought to open his eyes one last time. Hangengs face showed him nothing but love.
Please just one more breath.
Heechuls eyes closed. Tears fell down his eyes as he tried to shake him awake. He called out softly. The hand that he held against his cheek went slack. Time seemed to move in slow motion as Heechul hand fell down before lying limp on the ground.
NO! JUST ONE MORE LOOK!
He held Heechul close to him. Heart clenching in pain and tears streaming down his face.
Please just one more breath.
A/N: It’s been so long since I’ve written anything ah I feel so out of touch. I feel like there is something missing in here but I have no idea what it is, well hopefully you guys like it anyway. If not you may give me the death sentence by marshmallows hehe. Until next time my lovely wonderful reader have a beautiful day!