Revenge
Title: Revenge
Chapters: 8/19
Author: sugar_pai_n
Fandom: The GazettE, Nightmare, Dir en Grey, Miyavi, Shulla and one cat.
Pairings: ReitaxRuki [broke up]
Genre: AU
Ratings: from PG-13 till NC-17 [according to the chapter]
Synopsis: story about 4 men, how their lives were crossed and revenge was crossed between them.
Disclaimer: Don't own, not mine and so on.
Content:
[Prologue]
[001]
[002]
[003]
[004]
[005]
[006]
[007]
[008]
Almost finishing washing his hair Ruki heard “I’m off!” through the sound of rushing water. So Reita was gone.
Walking out from the bathroom he heard his cell phone ringing. Drying fast his hair on the way to the bedroom where he left his jeans and cell phone in them; taking it out he pushed the green button.
- Moshi-moshi?
- Morning.
- Oh.. Aoi. Hi, how’s it going?
- Incredible - Aoi yawned - I just woke up and thought that I should take you out from the box you call apartment.. maybe for a walk in some park?
- I think you have lucky ass. I’m free for few hours. And there’s a really nice place near me.
Talking a little more while Ruki was trying to bring some order to a complete mess of their bed sheets, pillows and sleeping Kisa in this mess. After they agreed for a meeting he hung up the phone sighing to himself "And I really need to tell you one thing"...
Smoking a cigarette and drinking coffee he waited for his hair to become dry. He could bet that Reita would kill him for not having proper breakfast. He was dressed up thinking that cleaning he’ll leave for later, and his try do the bed because of Kisa he also left in the past.
Trying his hair it was dry enough not to catch a cold and just in time because it was time to go.
Walking in the bedroom he plopped on the bed near red furred creature giving a peck on her stomach "Don’t get bored, monster". When he got up and looked at her she looked back before drowning in a sleep again. Very lazy cat indeed.
Grabbing his keys and pulling on his shoes he turned around looking at the corridor and walked out.
In 15 minutes he was walking the alley where they agreed to meet. Like at first time Ruki was a little bit late and Aoi was waiting for him already.
He couldn’t help sorrow creeping into his heart. All of them have been lonely and searchers. He really wanted to help Aoi to erase the way he felt right now, because no one deserved for suffering such as 'loneliness'.
And for happiness... for happiness you should fight. But first you should find it for what you should fight.
Aoi smiled when he saw Ruki, disappointed inside that he looked sad. Not noticing that actually something has changed in him. Or maybe nothing has changed and it was big misunderstanding he created for himself.
The story was strange. Each line was not from this world and written not by a human.
Ruki couldn’t understand why he didn’t tell Aoi everything from the beginning. What stopped him to say "Aoi, you know there is someone in my life right now and in some things you’re mistaken" What? What exactly he saw? What exactly he felt?
Aoi he...
Aoi he...
He reminded him...
Reminded him...
Reita.
Even if Aoi was more resolute he still reminded him Reita in what freaked way he couldn’t understand himself. But that’s what Reita missed and made Ruki get lost in labyrinth of uncertainty. Be resolute.
Rays of light blinded him when he got closer to a black haired man, making everything spin around in his head.
He was hallucinating seeing fogged images.
He saw features of Reita in front of him.
In bright shining sun. For Ruki it was Reita who leant to him and brushed their lips. And he answered for kiss.
But actually it was Aoi who kissed him. The only thing which hit Ruki suddenly it was piercing. Lip piercing. Reita didn’t have lip piercing.
He broke the kiss feeling like he was going to loose conscious any moment. Sun was too bright, he felt dizziness and two hands held him while soft whisper asked if he was ok. But next what he heard. Next thing he realized made him not only to wake up completely but feel cold, incredibly cold and chills running down his spine.
- Oi~ Ruki~
He couldn’t believe that person he thought he kissed was behind him. In front of him was Aoi, his hands still holding. And behind him... behind him.
He finally turned around and met those eyes.
Those eyes saw everything. They saw him kissing with another man. Aoi asked him if he knew those two and Ruki could only nod in answer, still watching in depths of pure anger he never saw before. He never guessed that such anger could exist in those eyes.
He couldn’t believe what was happening now. It definitely wasn’t real. It couldn’t be real. No, no and no.
He still was watching until those eyes disappeared from his sight.
Uru got closer to Ruki and shook his shoulder shooting a glare at a man holding Ruki.
- Ruki, what happened? You look pale... Ruki? Ruki?
Ruki didn’t know how much time passed when he was just standing, standing and just looking at one point. The place where Reita was standing. But now he was gone.
Rays of light which made him have hallucinations woke him up. He looked at Uru and at Aoi and he was out of the hold dashing from holding arms. He turned around and shouted "I’m fine, I need to go". Uru only murmured "What is wrong with them?" riding his bicycle in his house direction. Shooting another glare at a tall black haired man he left.
Aoi stood in shock and probably stuck in shock for a quit long.
Ruki ran down the street hoping that it’s not too late, that everything could be changed.
He didn’t want to loose.
Inhaling and exhaling uncontrollably he ran as fast as he could. Reita still had advantage in time and each second throw them away from each other. Further and further. Each second like needle pierced his heart.
Lines from tragedy.
Lines from his life story novel.
Lines he wished never existed.
Unlocking the door, first thing Reita made it’s taking off his cap, now he could freely make it, after giving back Yuichi his bicycle. As normal neighbor he didn’t ask Reita about anything, and it was hard to see that something happened when Reita covered himself with a cap. Just thanked and walked away. But he forgot to lock the door behind him. And it stayed half open.
Trance.
It reminded illusions. And only on autopilot he was moving. Only his muscles moved him further because they used to do it.
He took off his pumps, throwing them aside not noticing where exactly. Walked further sliding the wall with his hand, preventing himself from a fall, but he didn’t notice even inch of his own moves. He just walked further, directly to his bedroom.
Kisa wasn’t lying on the bed, she was hiding under it, because she felt scared from first second Reita entered apartment feeling her owner was in “such” condition she never felt before.
Reita opened the door of his closet looking at clothes but seeing only one picture burned in his mind.
Ruki kissing other man. This fucking scumbag kissing other man. And how he kissed him? Interesting he ever looked like this when he kissed him, Reita? And when he met that guy? Before him or after him? How long he was betraying while constantly wishing for their "relationships"?
Good Lord they were fucking this morning and Ruki screamed from pleasure or he just pretended? How he could be such a slut? A fucking whore!!! THIS FUCKING WHORE!!!!
Anger gained and bubbled in him, hands shaking taking out Ruki’s clothes from the closet and throwing it on the floor, he was throwing it over all bedroom, standing on what was lying under his feet. He almost even tried to rip them but stopped because Ruki wasn’t worth of it. He stormed out from the bedroom grabbing as much clothes as he could and throwing everything in the corridor. He wasn’t going to leave even a single article of his clothes, even single sign of his appearance here.
He walked in the kitchen, the second what he was going to destroy, bumping in walls and table holding on everything, impacting and spinning, feeling his head going in crazy rounds. Until his hands connected with dishes, half of plates fell on the floor and crashed in pieces.
Reita walked further and cut his foot with one of plates pieces, but he didn’t realize it. His pain inside was much stronger then just a little cut. He burned. His eyes burned. His arms burned. Burned and turned into a dust his heart. Nothing live left. Ruki’s cup trapped in his hand and next second was crashed leaving mark on the wall. Black shapes of his cup now decorated the floor. Like little knifes they've cut Reita’s feet but he still didn’t care.
Storming in the bathroom he caused not less damage.. Everything what belonged to Ruki flew in the corridor through the opened door. Everything - starting from the tooth brush till gel for shower. He didn’t realize that he worked like a storm, getting rid of everything what associated and reminded about "Ruki" an illness called "Ruki", "Ruki" which was everywhere. Maybe whole month he lived blinded. Fucking month.
For a second he stopped and remembered about Thursday. If this bitch was with that black dick he’ll kill him.
Standing in the corridor he began pushing all "trash" outside, out from apartment.
When his task was finished and everything was decorating outside view and stairs he took his pack of cigarettes and lighter and lit a cigarette, letting out thick grey smoke. He was standing in the corridor of his own apartment and he didn’t care that it will stink from a smoke. He needed nicotine. Needed to poison his insides.
Ruki stepped on the first stair. Then on second one. And higher.. higher. Gasping for the oxygen. Each step was hard to make, before sight of his own clothes on stairs caught his attention and he stopped. Holly shit. And how he should explain what happened?
Reita’s apartment wasn’t closed. Stepping between mass of his clothes he took hand of the door and opened it wider quietly, scared to death inside. He saw Reita, his back was turned towards him, cigarette forgotten in between his fingers.
He walked in getting closer to Rei, not daring to embrace him. Not daring to do anything and just standing one step behind him. He could only whisper "Reita"... Back of a man in front of him tensed up, he finally noticed a person behind him, turning back to this apartment from tsunami of his thoughts. Realizing that one he didn’t want to see the most right now was behind him.
Suddenly Ruki found himself smashed against the wall, his back ached from the contact with a hard surface, feet didn’t feel the floor under him, full fist of his shirt in a tight grip and heavy breathing against his face.
Sight of Reita in anger could scare anyone, but feeling everything on your own skin was more horrifying. Grip tightened and Reita hissed each word escaping his mouth. "How long do you know him? But don’t you fucking dare to lie this time".
Ruki couldn’t say even a word and watching until his head was bumped into wall.
"HOW LONG I’M ASKING YOU?"
And Ruki couldn’t lie "Two days...". Now only one hand held him other caressing Ruki’s face.
- So, you were with him... Or maybe we’re not alone and there’s more in your list?
Ruki tried to get rid off this tight grip and at least stand properly.
- Reita, let me explain!
- EXPLAIN WHAT?! THAT YOU, SLUT, WERE FUCKING WITH SOMEONE ELSE EXCEPT ME?!! - Reita’s hand wrapped around his neck.
- REITA!
- DON’T YOU DARE CALL MY NAME ANYMORE!!! I DON’T EVEN WANT TO SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE!!
- LET ME EXPLAIN!!!!
- I DON’T WANT TO LISTEN, YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!! GET OUT!!! GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!!
- REITA LISTEN TO ME!!!!!
- GET THE FUCK OUT!!! OUT!!!
Ruki tried to push Reita away and succeeded. Grabbing his shoulders he tried to turn back some conscious into other man. But only received another death hold in answer. Holding each other in tight grips one pushing other out from apartment, other preventing this with all his force. But Reita was bigger and stronger, not much but it was enough and his anger made him even stronger. Smashing into the walls they continued fighting against each other wills. Ruki catching Reita’s arms trying to stick to him and constantly whispering "Please let me say..." hearing "Get out" in answer. And Reita was trying to cause as much hurt as he could. He didn’t punch Ruki, no, he wasn’t worth of it. But he knew how person could be violent without punching. He was trying to get rid of him and close the door behind.
Nothing worked against Ruki until Rei grabbed Ruki’s hair and ripped him from himself, with a look filled with disgust, making other man to scream how it hurt. Dragging him to the exit, tight grip holding black hair, he pushed smaller man in the corridor loudly shutting the door behind. Few hairs fell from his fingers when he stood against the closed door.
Ruki was lying on the floor in a mess of his things, staring at stares above. Feeling something bothering him in a back pocket - it was his keys. Keys from this apartment in front of which he was lying. And they stayed in his pocket. He wasn’t insane to knock that door and say "Reita you forgot your keys.." Useless. Everything was useless.
The only thing tied with man behind that door.
The only thing when everything was destroyed.
Reita walked in his bedroom for tenth time this day or maybe more... And plopped on the bed... staring at the ceiling. He was watching this ceiling in the morning, one step from absolute happiness and now everything changed.. changed like it wasn’t real and happened not with him. Ruki cheated? This thought beating in his mind. And he cursed himself for stupidity and trust he gave. Once again he fell, fell too deep and crawling back on the surface would be hard. He drowned in blood of his own heart.
Betray.
The hardest sin in this world..
Kisa stayed silent under the bed hiding in a t-shirt that trapped there. The only thing that left after Ruki was gone - reminder which was tied with him.
Get rid off you’re saying?
[End of 008]
[009]
Grunge Queen Aya