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[suave_thomas]

I don't know what to do. I know Peter wants me here because he's terrified of what will happen when Aly has the baby, even though I'm sure everything will be just fine. And there's so much going on here too... And I wanted my Valentine's Day, dammit. Which is selfish, but I'm human even if I am dead

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[in_spectre_mors]

First off, Thomas, you're not being selfish. I want my Valentine's Day with you, too. And I truly hope all this can be over by then. You're right... there is an incredible amount of darkness we need to focus our energies on. It's hard not to feel overwhelmed.

I think that wherever you are, you'll help. A lot. If it's Peter you're here for, maybe it's best you do stay with him. There are a lot of people who need Peter to be okay, and if you can help with that... that's a big help. If the people going to Rome need someone who can't die... maybe Mary should come back, too? It's a possibility. On the other hand, you do know the layout as you said, and maybe having two people who know that will be better than having one.

I don't have the answer, I'm just bouncing thoughts around to see if anything strikes you...

[suave_thomas]

I don't want to send Mary there!! Send Robert!

Ahem.

I should be here for Peter. But I should be there. ARGH why can't there be two of me! Well there is two of me technically, but one is less than helpful. And probably a skeleton!! Why...I needed to say that, I don't know, ew.

And clearly, I am still clueless too...

[in_spectre_mors]

Well, yes... that's an option, too. Though he may well be as reluctant to enter the belly of the beast as anyone else...

If skeleton you actually did make himself useful, I'd probably be more than a little disturbed. Creepy hoodoo.

Have you asked Peter what he thinks?

[suave_thomas]

Better him than my Mary! See, I'm not afraid to be bitter, he touched my bits. Well he touched yours too, but he had permission then...

I just had the most disgusting visual and I choose not to share it with you...

No! Because I'm a weenie! At the moment, anyway. I don't want him to make that face because when he makes that face and I know he's being strong on the outside and inside his heart just shattered into a gazillion little tiny tinkling pieces, I feel like the worst person in the world...

[empress_tasha]

Thomas, you're one of the least selfish people I know. You're always doing everything you can to help others. I know that wherever you decide to be, it will be the right thing, and you will do so much good. Either place is good for you to be. Personally, I like the idea of you being there to protect Stephie. But I like the idea of you being here to help Dad, too.

I don't know... I'm here for Dad, but I can't go to Rome. Well, I could, I guess, but... I don't know. I guess I'm too scared. I sure as hell don't blame you for being afraid of that place. We've both been there, even if you got it a hell of a lot worse than I did...

[suave_thomas]

Peter asked me to stay. So I feel like...if I leave here, I'm abandoning him...

Worse doesn't factor in to it. We've both been there, period. And it's terrifying, but I can't be afraid forever. Especially when Stephie and Tamm and Gavin aren't letting that get in the way. Gavin was with them for a year! And the worst they can do to me has already been done. I used to be far braver than this...

[empress_tasha]

I don't think that's true, Thomas. I think that if you didn't have the matter of Dad needing you, you'd go to Rome. It's not a matter you not being brave. It's a matter of being torn between two needs, and we get that.

None of us can let those people make us afraid forever. If we do, that's a victory for them. We're all trying. You, me, Stephie, Peter. We're doing the best that we can.

I think that wherever you are, there will be plenty of opportunity for bravery...

[suave_thomas]

That is what it is.

Thank you, Tasha. I guess Spectre was on to something when he said I'm not the only dead person around. And Mary would probably kick me if I didn't let her come help because I was all worried. And she kicks hard.