yo

i am so confused. i like three boys. one has a girlfriend. one lives over 3 hours away. one... well, it would just be awkward if things got messed up. i had best watch my step, or i might fall again. i am such a silly girl. wow....

sometimes i get happy. i'm so elated i feel as though i could touch the sky. then there is my brother who tells me happy things such as he wished that i was dead instead of my sister. and that i'm jst a waste of life and that if he can make me take antidepressants that maybe if he tried just a little harder maybe he could make me kill myself. maybe ( Read more... )

You think you know me. I don't even know me anymore. Aren't you excited?

There is a constant pressure on my heart. I went to the doctor. He says I’m fine. I know there isn't anything clinically wrong. I guess I’m just stupid. My uncle came the other day. He brought his guns with him like always. It was the first time I’ve touched a gun since Patrick died. I felt sick to my stomach, but when I held that 44 caliber hand ( Read more... )

I got this from user:teenagedreamer ( Read more... )

This weekend was amazing ( Read more... )

So the boy I used to like in 10th grade just banged on my door. Drunk and stumbling, he asked to use my phone. Obligingly, I let him because ,you see, we owe each other. After he was finished, he said, "Thank you for your servicing" and stumbled away. How odd...

...it's like i'm punching on the keys of life and i keep making typos...

tomoorow i will do a real update