Week 6 - I think I'll never see...

[streetnights]

Even now, it is a knife stabbing, pushing, twisting. A wrenching, gut-churning phantom pain, one that I suspect will never fade

Comments

[alien_writings]

There was so much feeling in this. I'm sorry for your loss.

[streetnights]

Thanks - after I saw this topic, this story just wouldn't let me go. I'm glad it came through.

[streetnights]

Thank you.

[n3m3sis43]

This was gorgeous. I wish it didn't have to happen to you, and I hope you find someone who'll build castles in the sky with you forever.

[streetnights]

It's better to have loved and lost, in my mind. Thank you :)

[halfshellvenus]

Lovely story and phrasing.

but I don't know what we accomplished together other than to build castles in the sky and make each other happy with our mutual love of discovering new treasures: writing, art, music, and romance."
What we accomplished? Accomplishing is not the point of love, or of relationships in general. Being, loving, enjoying is what matters. I wonder if this isn't the single sign that might reassure you that ending it was the right choice-- that lifeview is clearly not compatible with yours. It may not be compatible with love in general.

To come away from such a loss and still be glad that it happened makes it more likely that you will find love again, and that at some point it may be a love that lasts a lifetime.

[streetnights]

Thank you, very, very much for your words.

I've thought about it, especially with what she said afterwards (which isn't posted here), and there are definitely days when I agree with you. Perhaps she and I have different worldviews and would only have lasted a bit longer than what we did, anyway.

But at the same time, I don't know that it's true, and I feel like our worldviews could've worked each other out, maybe. I think long relationships are a matter of shaping people, not necessarily intentionally or overtly, and maybe that would've made a difference.

[eeyore_grrl]

This is beautiful and melancholy to the one that got away. Well written from a place of heartache.

[streetnights]

Thank you! Heartache indeed, but I've found that even heartache can be a bit sweet.