so far the govt has decided to give me 3,600 dollars for school. i feel something in my stomach, kinda like hope or some crap like that. that is the total so far and i dunno if that counts the amount kvcc will give me, or the state. does the state even give out grants?? i hope to get a bit more money for school, please, i'll study super hard and ( Read more... )

i am three feet from smashing the world, or a bottle. i am also three feet from going crazy.

still waiting, and yes, the world is still steadily in jetstream mode for a guy thats standing still.

halloween, what have you become ??

i ..... well, things are normal. for the most part.

i spoke with pilar today. madrid is warm and lovely. soon i will go, if only for a week or so. i miss her and the boys and the guapas chicas.

last night, last night. well, i had a good time. i drank as two girls verbally fought over me. it was kinda hot and what not untill they treated me like a dog. standing on opposite sides of the cabin calling me over like a 5 year old when i was trying to talk with people. but it all worked out by the end of the night. we'll just say there is no ( Read more... )

a few things became painfully clear to me tonight. about people and about me. i am certain i must do a few things now, certain things. school and location being the main ones, time to conjur up some life mojo juice stuff.

time to flip through some old photos.

here i come hoonah bear .....

1: goodwill industries stole my car (by accident)

2: i, in theory have a kick ass job

3: i have met a few new people, whilst being sociable

4: played really good music

5: i am registered for class with no official word on my financial aid

6: ate steak last night

the liberation album by trans am is really good, i mean, super hero like good. it ( Read more... )

joe leaves soon, bummer. not a bummer that he is leaving, he is a bummer. and by bummer i mean homo. homo erectus ...... yup ( Read more... )

i think i will sell my guitar and give up music. i am tired of it all. fuck it. someday i'll play again, or just find a new instrument to play.

did i mention i fuckin hate this place?

bad; no car, no job, little faith left in much of anything, the world sucks, no girl, my bike is still kinda fucked, war, welcome to the worst part of life, lack of hookers or money for hookers, STOLEN car, i want to beat someone up, it will now be impossible to get a fucking job

good; i guess joe is back in town, registered for classes, thats it

someone stole my fucking car. it was a 96 ford contour, what the fuck. i seriously believe the world sucks. more than i previously believed.

i fucking hate you.