This weekend it wasn't so much the fiance as it was the fact that we needed to go talk to the bishop. So actually i guess it was. I do still want you to come up here sometime though. Now it is just a matter of when you would like to. I could come get you on Saturday afternoon and take you back on Sunday after church, or you could come over like on Thanksgiving weekend.
I want you around I just couldn't handle it this weekend.
I don't care about this weekend. It was fine. No troubles. It's not you. I just want people to be honest with me though. I'm sick of excuses and lying and 'oh I forgot'ing. But it's not you.
Ok, so I feel like a horrible friend lately. I am just uber-busy. I have no time to have my own life, let alone care about anyone else. Horrible thing to say, I know - but still true. Christmas break is coming, which means one long month of nothing to do! Which equals me and you on temple square having a snow-filled good time!
Hey, I'm sorry to hear about your bad day and rough week. I won't try to say anything about the UT mormons because this is the only the place I've ever been mormon even though I'm not a native Utahn. I'm afraid I'm probably a pretty typical businessy mormon actually if I were to really think about it. Like I said though, I won't make any assumptions, just let you know I'm sorry that you're feeling poorly. Do you think it would help if we could find you some rides so you can get to some of the ward activities during the week?
Oh you're not like that. I don't mean to be all stupid about Utah Mormons. It just really IS a lot different in the 'field' per se, because being LDS is a tie that binds you, and out here it's like 'oh, yeah, me too.'
Sorry you had to read my self-inflicted drama. I don't know what helps right now. I'm not in a decision making mood. I was supposed to go to the 'Guess Who's Coming To Dinner?' on Sunday, but all the people that were in my group that I knew decided to not go after church. So by the time I found a bus route, it was too late.
It's just hard for me, because I'm such the social butterfly and 'popular'ish at home....but out here, people seem to want different things in friendships.
I'm so prideful. I hate asking people for rides or things.
Not confirmably true, although I can guarantee that being LDS out here DOES make the atmostphere a little different as a YSA [or SA]. It seems that marriage or dating is always on the brain [I had this incident with girls I barely met...and they were obsessing over marriage while discussing my affairs]. I just feel that out here people are a LOT more 'superficial' per se...and I see it in the girls' obsession with fashion and trends and such. It's not like that at home...though it's a smaller population. But it's constantly a competition for RMs attention, and since they guys are in favor in the ratio, they are all pimpish :P
At home, you can dress silly, be yourself, and you're always accepted. I'm sure it's the same here, I just haven't found that niche.
If I snubbed you or stood you up or ditched you or whatever, I didn't mean to. Then again, we haven't had plans to do anything. I just figured if you wanted to talk/hang out with me, you'd let me know. And I'm pretty much available at any time if you need anything. (even if it's just to get some tampons lol)
You didn't snub me EVER! If anything I haven't been calling you and I feel horrible. But like I said above in my comment to bensrichards, I'm prideful about asking for things, and I'm paranoid that people will think I only want to hang out because they have a car, which is TOTALLY not true!!!!!!! I just never want to be perceived that way, so I avoid it.
The weekend you invited me to hang out, I had a friend visiting from out of town, so I felt bad about that too!
No you're not horrible. Don't EVER think you are! and no biggie on that weekend, it's not like I called in advance or anything. lol. I'm kind of a spur of the moment person. Bad habit I guess. But seriously, if you ever need anything I'm more than willing to help.
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I'm having a rough week, too- maybe it's the water? :)
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Okay, so I drink it, but I'm still skeptical. :)
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You've got lots of important things.
I'm not cool like with you a fiancé filled life and all that.
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I want you around I just couldn't handle it this weekend.
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It's not you. I just want people to be honest with me though. I'm sick of excuses and lying and 'oh I forgot'ing. But it's not you.
I'll be gone both weekends.
Oh well.
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Christmas break is coming, which means one long month of nothing to do! Which equals me and you on temple square having a snow-filled good time!
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I just feel like being mean and it's horrible.
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Sorry you had to read my self-inflicted drama. I don't know what helps right now. I'm not in a decision making mood. I was supposed to go to the 'Guess Who's Coming To Dinner?' on Sunday, but all the people that were in my group that I knew decided to not go after church. So by the time I found a bus route, it was too late.
It's just hard for me, because I'm such the social butterfly and 'popular'ish at home....but out here, people seem to want different things in friendships.
I'm so prideful. I hate asking people for rides or things.
Okay, enough of my crapness!
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My inner anthropologist is coming out, but if you'd rather not answer, just tell my inner anthropologist to go back inside ;-)
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Not confirmably true, although I can guarantee that being LDS out here DOES make the atmostphere a little different as a YSA [or SA]. It seems that marriage or dating is always on the brain [I had this incident with girls I barely met...and they were obsessing over marriage while discussing my affairs]. I just feel that out here people are a LOT more 'superficial' per se...and I see it in the girls' obsession with fashion and trends and such. It's not like that at home...though it's a smaller population. But it's constantly a competition for RMs attention, and since they guys are in favor in the ratio, they are all pimpish :P
At home, you can dress silly, be yourself, and you're always accepted. I'm sure it's the same here, I just haven't found that niche.
But there IS a little difference.
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The weekend you invited me to hang out, I had a friend visiting from out of town, so I felt bad about that too!
Now I'm the horrible one.
Argh.
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