thinkpositive30: day 5

[stellaluna_]

I've been sitting here with Word open for over an hour, staring at a blank document.

It's hard to come up with anything to write, because I'm sad tonight. Even though I'm going to see scarletts_awry in less than three days, I'm lonely right now and missing her and all of it just hurts. I know we're in the home stretch now of being apart, too, so all of this

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[sunhawk]

Being lonely or sad, or stuck in your writing, on occasion is just as healthy as being angry on occasion, I don't think anyone should be expected to be optimistic/productive all the time. If they are that way naturally, more power to them, but take it from someone jokingly called an "eternal optimist" that everyone gets to have a day now and then to mope. All you can do is try again tomorrow and keep trying! *hugs*

[stellaluna_]

*hugs* Thank you. I agree with all of that, and that's actually something scarletts_awry and I were talking about on the phone earlier -- that it's okay (and normal) to be sad or angry or lonely sometimes. And that's true, and I also think it's better to acknowledge that/acknowledge how I'm feeling than to repress the emotions and try to deny them. That would be just as bad as being the kind of person who gets mired in negativity and sees everything as bad or wrong or unpleasant.

I'm a work in progress!

[sunhawk]

I'm a work in progress too! :)

I understand your desire to deny/repress negative emotions, I certainly feel that tendency sometimes and don't feel comfortable posting about things that bug me due to my awareness that my life is pretty charmed relatively speaking. But even knowing other people have it worse doesn't generally make anyone feel better, as much as we might like it to.

[stunt_muppet]

Seconding what sunhawk said. One of the things I've been working on myself is learning that some days, whether due to circumstances or mood, you're not going to feel good or productive or thoughtful, and that's okay. Expecting yourself to be positive all the time, every day, is unrealistic and just makes you feel worse when you do have a bad day, because it adds the element of self-perceived failure.

*hugs*

[stellaluna_]

*hugs* Thank you. That's something I'm trying to work on too, that it's okay for me to not feel good or thoughtful some days, and that it's okay to be sad or angry or worried sometimes. It's better for me to acknowledge those emotions and deal with them than to try to repress them. And I do have a tendency to beat myself up for it when I'm feeling bad -- I certainly was last night -- and you're right; that's not good either and it's definitely unrealistic.

As I said above, I'm a work in progress! :-)