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and i'm young enough to look at, but far too old to see...

Jan 11, 2009 00:08

Day: 20
Characters: Ciel [marzipan_dream], Rin [cutest_avenger], and Matt [loadsavedgame]
Summary: Rin and Matt go to find Ciel and make preliminary attempts at getting him on his feet again.
DAY/NIGHT & Time: Slightly Backdated; first half of second rec? (This time is subject to change pending more discussion with Nevi.)
Status: Closed/Incomplete

( ...all the scars are on the inside, i'm not sure if there's anything left of me. )

† ciel phantomhive, † rin asano, † matt

Comments 7

payback January 11 2009, 08:52:34 UTC

She'd known this was coming - that was what galled. Known it was coming, and gotten too comfortable nonetheless. It was inevitable that Shira, being the dog he was, would eventually sink his teeth into someone - she should have been warning, keeping the asylum alert, reminding everyone that he was on the lookout for someone vulnerable, someone smaller and weaker than he was, that he could fall upon and rip apart.

Lazy, calm, confident. With Manji there, at her back. Forgetting that others weren't afforded the luxury of someone watching their back - and this was Ciel, quiet noble polite little Ciel, who quoted poetry over the intercoms and spoke like a noble. Ciel. Rin couldn't remember if she'd warned him. Either way she owed him an apology, and - somehow, some way - attempts at further protection. Mop-up just wasn't good enough ( ... )

loadsavedgame January 11 2009, 09:07:48 UTC

Rin came out into the corridor like a wildcat on the prowl, and Matt completely understood the urge. He shoved his hands in his pockets and hunched his shoulders again, his head down, and shook his head, "He's down the hallway from the Courtyard." he said, his voice low and heavily accented because he was just so pissed off.

He started walking, glancing at Rin as if to make sure she was coming along, his boots hitting the floor heavily, trying to get some of the tension out of his body, out of his legs, his hands still shaking, storming along the hallway. His body language read much less angry than he was, but the fact that something other than social anxiety was showing...well...

Ciel just...reminded Matt of so many of the kids he'd grown up with in Wammy's House. Vastly intelligent, emotionally controlled, almost adult before their time, but with that vulnerability that made it so you could never forget that they were children.

He liked Ciel. And this pissed him off. Immensely.

payback January 11 2009, 09:15:56 UTC

Rin kept pace with her friend, keeping silent, to her own thoughts. Matt's boots thudded heavily on the gray floorboards, a dull, thunderous counterpoint to her own grim line of thought. Something had to be done. Somehow, Shira had to be stopped. But how, but how, but how? He had one ally that she knew of, and only one, but Anubis was powerful and had ties to many of the patients - all of them better men than him. She wasn't sure she wanted to collaborate with staff, given that the people known to hate Anubis were treacherous themselves - Paul and Gary, Gary and Paul, she'd told Joshua the truth, she wouldn't trust or rely on either of them. Then who, then who, then who...

She sighed heavily after a long moment, and forcibly tore herself from her downward spiral of thought. "How do you want to approach this?" she said, glancing up at Matt.

loadsavedgame January 11 2009, 09:51:16 UTC

He kept walking, his head down, his face still pressed into the collar of his vest, trying to move faster, though when Rin glanced at him, asked how they wanted to approach it, he stumbled into a slower gait, almost falling still for a moment. A hand came out of his pocket, and pushed against the space between his belly and breastbone. He looked at her, shaking his hair out of his face, and then shaking his head.

"I don't know." he said, his voice light and slightly broken sounding, "I'm bloody terrible at this. I don't know how to be a comfort. I don't know medical anything. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to act. I just know he reminds me of the kids I grew up with, I want to make sure he's okay. And I don't want to embarrass him. I just..." he broke off for a moment, struggled with his breathing, "I don't know." he said again, looking away from her.

He felt immeasurably stupid. He hated feeling that way.

payback January 11 2009, 09:56:15 UTC

She didn't know how to do it either. She as was scared of hurting Ciel more, totally at sea about how to really treat any - personal injuries he might have, comfort him, trying to help him and failing as Matt was.

Rin bit her lip and pressed down the urge to pour all her insecurities into Matt's own overworked ears herself. "We... We'll figure it out somehow. At least we'll get him back to his room a-and... into bed, I guess. The one thing I think..." She paused, awkward for a moment. "The one thing I guess I think would hurt him the most would be him feeling like we were disgusted by what happened to him, and that we didn't really want to help him. Everything else, I guess - I suppose we just ought to ask what he wants us to do with him, and go with what feels right at the time."

It was such a stupid explanation. She blew air for her pursed lips, glanced down, and sighed. "I don't think it should be too hard to find him, do you? If he's just in the hallway..."