She is a mess. And she tries to hide it from me, but it is pretty unmistakenable. Fuck her ( Read more... )

It's like, that is the reason I don't tell people shit. It is overlooked, completely scanned over and not believed. So fuck that.

Nonetheless, today has been fun. No joke. Maybe one day I'll find my own best friend, so I wont have to latch onto the two of them.

This year will be wonderful. Last year was a gross exaggeration of the year before, but I'm burning bridges.

Oh. Something great will shake my frame.

I have never quite grasped the importance of family. I love my parents. But the other bits and pieces, I just don't know. They have my back and such. . .but. . .what? I just. . .I'd rather be left alone, maybe. I don't feel the connection.

Jealousy is not cool. Green is my favorite color but it is associated with greed & envy and I don't know if that is a sign or what but I hate it ( Read more... )

ROFL

Fuck this. Fuck this town ( Read more... )

Feelings were possibly a false alarm. Goddmanit. Nothing is stable right now and I don't know what I want or who I am or anything above. The silly thing is, I want things to fall apart. Just so I can start from the beginning. You know, rebuild. regrowth. How they burned forests down so better forestry would grow back. I would like a lighter & a ( Read more... )

I am not in love with him, 
I'm in love with everything he exposes me to. I'm in love with the fact that he is unafriad of trouble and exploring and bringing everyone down in the hellhole with him. 
I shouldn't be, but I am.

Decisions. Really fucking hard decisions that are suppose to be a piece of cake. I have found out that it all really depends on the person asking. It truly does. Sometimes, it's just easier to say no to certain people and completely, unecessarily hard to others. I find myself questioning who firm my beliefs really are. And fuck if it is not giving ( Read more... )