I remember Sasha too (not personally, just from mention in your lj)... sometimes I just wish they could talk...
the hardest part hit when I returned to the empty Fourt last night and was confronted by all the remnants of her last day and night. In a 'new' apartment, because her activity was so limited, her passing stands out in harsh relief. Her messy food bowls, a little drool on the bedsheets next to her catnip-hedgehog toy, her photo on my desk, the tooth she lost last fall... all of serves to remind me that she left yesterday. In time most of this pain will pass... but the memories linger and well they should.
I caught myself several times this morning, behaving as if she were there... she was always a bit skittish and I had to keep my movements smooth and quiet or else I'd frighten her. I kept having waves of realization that I wouldn't find her underfoot or darting out of my way... or even begging for breakfast while I started the coffee... and the list goes on.
R.I.P Sweet kitty...ladydagger2evilMarch 7 2007, 04:01:05 UTC
And big ol hugs and thoughts to you my love, I so wish I could be right there right now and give you real ones, and let you get it all as need be as much as you want. And try to soothe, and had better words then this to comfort. This post wrenched at me, knowing and reading the sadness in your words and how tough this was for you, and also reminded me of many furry kids I've had to let go in various ways and stages, and it's never easy when it's this route. But as the Vet said you did make the right decisions and she isn't suffering anymore. You did what you could in till now, and you gave her a good 10 years of devotion, a home and love. You were and are a good daddy, and she knew this, hence why she didn't put up no fuss, and went quietly what it appears.
Please call if you need to tonight (I'll hopefully not be passed out on cold meds) or tomorrow or whenever if you need to talk more.
Re: R.I.P Sweet kitty...static_eddieMarch 7 2007, 15:49:29 UTC
We'll be together soon... and I'm sure we'll have many more hardships to hold each other through. All the same I cried a lot last night, largely because of lil'G, but also because I tend to think about the future loss of other loved ones and how we shouldn't waste a breath while we have them... You were there at my side.
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I can empathize. I feel it all over again every time I look out the window and see Sasha's grave.
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sometimes I just wish they could talk...
the hardest part hit when I returned to the empty Fourt last night and was confronted by all the remnants of her last day and night. In a 'new' apartment, because her activity was so limited, her passing stands out in harsh relief.
Her messy food bowls, a little drool on the bedsheets next to her catnip-hedgehog toy, her photo on my desk, the tooth she lost last fall... all of serves to remind me that she left yesterday.
In time most of this pain will pass... but the memories linger and well they should.
I caught myself several times this morning, behaving as if she were there... she was always a bit skittish and I had to keep my movements smooth and quiet or else I'd frighten her. I kept having waves of realization that I wouldn't find her underfoot or darting out of my way... or even begging for breakfast while I started the coffee... and the list goes on.
Thank you Irana... hugs
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And try to soothe, and had better words then this to comfort.
This post wrenched at me, knowing and reading the sadness in your words and how tough this was for you, and also reminded me of many furry kids I've had to let go in various ways and stages, and it's never easy when it's this route.
But as the Vet said you did make the right decisions and she isn't suffering anymore. You did what you could in till now, and you gave her a good 10 years of devotion, a home and love. You were and are a good daddy, and she knew this, hence why she didn't put up no fuss, and went quietly what it appears.
Please call if you need to tonight (I'll hopefully not be passed out on cold meds) or tomorrow or whenever if you need to talk more.
*hugz * I love you*
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Even though I hate cats, yours was named Shirley Manson which automatically endears her to me.
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