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so i have realized my whole entire life i have never really been happy with anything. i have always faked being happy. which isnt right at all. the only time i was truly happy was yesterday when i was with ashley. we just had a good time. it seems like i put on a show for everyone else. which isnt good. but i just dont know what to do. y am i not ( Read more... )

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ALLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well today has been great. work was awesome. i am glad i went back. i water at 8am till 3pm. it was a lot of watering but it made the time fly. after work i talked to ashley. ashley and i hung out for a while. we got her car washed then we took my car and we went out to eat at national coney island. mmm food. then we drove a around aimlessly. i ( Read more... )

i hate being upset when i know i am gonna lose someone really soon that i love so dearly. :(

i love this new cd i got. the veronicas. they r awesome. everyone get there cd ( Read more... )

someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. he'll brush the hair out of your eyes ( Read more... )

well tonight was fun! i hung out with kat. she tried to study but that didnt happen we decided to drive awound aimlessly. so we did. we went downtown utica to downtown rochester and all the way to troy. then we went to a gas station and i got this shake thing and i spotted some corn bread and it reminded me of mel so we got it and went ot mels ( Read more... )

well i am jobless which is cool i can take time to chill out and not worry about things. except i do need to study for my mid term for my class. last night was awesome i hung out with my bestest friend ellyn. i havent seen her in a week. it was nice chillen with her again. we saw date movie. stupidest movie in the world. it had no point at all. ( Read more... )

well i have realized since doing pot and almost feeling like i was gonna die cuz of my throat closing up ordeal. i have decided not to do drugs,smoke, or drink. i am tried of being fucked up. i didnt enjoy being sick for two days. it sucked. i have a good life. y am i doing these things? i'm a fuck up. but o well. today i saw my cousin heidi she ( Read more... )