well today was a very eventful day. woke up went to breakfast with Ryan. had SUCH a beautiful time. then (which i regret doing) we went to the dreaded mall got in a fight and he broke up with me =( yeah very depressing. ive been avoiding it all day. b/c when he tried to. i was in the car with my mom and i didnt feel like crying in front of her or ( Read more... )

today was such a good day yet one of the worst days of my lives. i hate going to school! i just wanna run in the bathroom and cry every period. and never go to class. i hate it there. i hate the people...everyone is just so mean and just out to get you ( Read more... )

Yesterday
love was such an easy game to play

suddenly
nothing is like it ever used to be
b/c yesterday came suddenly

oh i believe in yesterday

im sorry to anyone i hurt. especially you Ryan. please have more faith in me. i feel so given up on.

Me and Ryan are fighting again! and this time its all MY fault....you dont know how sick and tired i am of it always being my fault. im sick and tired of it period. i dont know what to do. fighting like this isnt healthy but its even more unhealthy if i was ever without him. we just can never communicate right or ever be on the same page. one of us ( Read more... )

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today was fun. ryan is silly. but im NEVER ALLOWED to take naps again. i wake up too grumpy. =) I CANT HELP IT. it just comes natural.

i cant keep my train of thought on track. talkin to ryan my sweet and listenin to ashlee simpson.

"say the words that i'm the only"

I Went to Ryans today. we rented Starsky and Hutch. haha funny movie. we had an incident and i ended up getting bruised but it was COMPLETE and TOTAL accident. and i forgive and love Ryan to death. (BABY IF YOURE READING THIS I LOVE YOU. lol ( Read more... )

well Ryan is mad at me again. and the reasoning is completely out of my thought pattern. so i understand it to a point. the only other thing i understand that it makes me feel like shit and makes me look like the bad guy when i honestly didnt do anything wrong purposely. i just feel like i cant every do anything right. and it aggrivates me that im ( Read more... )

Me and Ryan went to SAMS FUN CITY TODAY! it was awesome. i didnt think it would be considering its the first time ive been since the 4 or 5 years its been there. bumper boats are the shit. fo shizzy. haha j/k. ahh i had to wear ryans big ass running shoes. size 10 in mens. WOW I LOOKED LIKE MINNEY MOUSE. b/c you had to have "closed to shoes if ( Read more... )

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