Little details (notinmtsilver)

[stalkerwithacap]

[Hey Ash, hopefully you're not "busy" right now cause there's someone knocking on your door]

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[notinmtsilver]

[He looks like he just got out of bed.

But when isn't that the case?]

... Gold?

[stalkerwithacap]

Don't hope too much. [He's a good example--okay he didn't swear that young]

[notinmtsilver]

Aha...

Can't blame me for hoping.

[stalkerwithacap]

[chuckle
...
...
/slightly awk]

[notinmtsilver]

Um... something wrong?

1/2

[stalkerwithacap]

[...]

[stalkerwithacap]

... can I talk to you about something?

[notinmtsilver]

Yeah, of course.

What's up?

[stalkerwithacap]

... I think I'm screwed up.

[notinmtsilver]

... What do you mean?

[stalkerwithacap]

... there's always been shit about me I didn't like, but...
Recently I noticed I panic at stuff that doesn't make sense, close down completely when some subjects come up or if I go through things in particular... start acting...
... Amati thinks it's trauma... maybe he's right. I dunno.

[notinmtsilver]

[come here, Gold, you're getting hugged]

Well, the first step's admitting it right? I'm here if you need to talk.

[stalkerwithacap]

[Normally he'd tsun at that hug. But now he'll just stay how he is]
... dunno what to think about it. I need to get rid of it... but I dunno where it comes from in the first place.
... whatever shit happened to me was my own fault, I got off really easy, and for what would've been a good reason for trauma I... I was kinda in control. No one forced me.

[notinmtsilver]

[he'll let you go, but he'll stay kind of close]

Hey, just because you say you got off easy doesn't mean it can't hurt after.

... Can I ask what happened?

[stalkerwithacap]

... you ever wondered why I was so damn sexual in the first place?
[Now he's there, he doesn't want to say this... but he needs to. He's tired of this shit]

[notinmtsilver]

Um... a little, yeah.