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[anonymous]

Today was crap. My syndrome is interfering with my life and after feeling like a social reject all day, I want to read fic where one of the characters has something - OCD, Asperger's, bipolar disorder - that causes a momentary interference with their life and (diverging from my life here) some helps them calm down/stop stimming.

Bones/Kirk preferred, but Kirk/Spock, Sulu/Chekov, Pike/Kirk... I'll read 'em all.

[flit_st_fanfic]

*huggles* I intend to do this, though I don't know when I'll get around to it. Will probably be Sulu/Chekov, and Chekov dealing with OCD, since I always saw him as a neat freak and Sulu as an absent minded slob. And then they make compromises (read: Chekov cleans up after him until he snaps and Sulu realizes he's a mess and starts making an effort to be considerate)

Though, I'd be really interested in some Bones/Kirk with Kirk having bipolar disorder and getting off the spacemeds for a day. Honestly, he seems kind of manic during the film, though I could see where that's only one side of the coin. *pets Kirk* I love him best when he's broken.

OP

[anonymous]

I look forward to it. :)

[blcwriter]

Not to get sniffy but one day off meds might make no difference and on other days all the med compliance in the world wouldn't help and you could still be utterly crazy. I'd be glad to PM further with you if bipolar is something you're interested in writing about.

[anonymous]

Oh gosh, thanks for saying that. I'm so fucking compliant my psychiatrist can't believe it, and there are still days that I can't get out of the bathtub, or speak without alliterating or whatever-the-fuck.

[blcwriter]

And I, alas, am compliant and yet on round four of new meds to try bc they only work for six months at a go and then that manic buzzpushwhir starts up again right before it drops me off the cliffs of despair. Very more than annoying.

Take Me In (1/?)

[anonymous]

I hope this is to your liking, anon. warning: possibly triggery to people who've experienced depression or depressive episodes.

He can't pinpoint the start of the shift this time, but at least it doesn't take him long to notice. Sometimes he could tell you which millisecond heralded the change; sometimes he doesn't notice for weeks, until he wakes up in a hospital or a jail.

Usually he errs on the side of mania, and so usually no one else notices either. It's something he encourages: better Kirk the crazy motherfucker (did you see that stunt he pulled down on Cardassia IV?) than Kirk the crazy, period (do you know he takes psychotropics?). Everyone's perfectly correct about mental illness, of course; it's the 23rd century, and no one, least of all bureaucrats, likes to be seen as less than enlightened. But the 22nd century revival of the "addiction is a choice" theory spawned the corollary "psychosis is a choice," and there are plenty of higher-ups who could get James T. Kirk fucked for any number of non-suspect motives. (His

Take Me In (2/?)

[anonymous]

"Goddamnit, Jim," Bones says without opening his eyes. "What."

Jim stays quiet because Jim who is normally Jim wouldn't. It's opposite day. Week. Something.

Bones groans and sits up in bed, rubbing his forehead. His hair is sticking up in the back, and as he climbs out of bed, Jim sees that he is wearing SpaceBrats boxers. There is a joke here somewhere. He smiles faintly.

Bones's eyes are suddenly wide and fixed on his face. "Fuck, kid. What'sa matter with you?"

Jim can hear the prompter inside his head: "Aw, c'mon Bones, keep up! This is our routine. I wake you up at fuck o'clock; you entertain me. Where're you hiding the good booze this week?"

When he ignores it, there's a sense of whatthefuckareyoudoing waiting in the wings, jumping up and down pointing at the prompter's words. Say them, it mouths frantically.

What the fuck is he doing

Take Me In (3/4)

[anonymous]

Jim expects Bones to look away like he always does when they both know he's been caught out at the facial expression equivalent of doodling "LHM ♥ JTK" in his padd. But he doesn't - and it's suddenly very flooring. It's fucking terrifying, is what it is

Take Me In (4/4)

[anonymous]

He turns around and gets into bed, facing Jim. Jim watches him, thinking. Tomorrow morning. He can wake up in his bed, safe in several ways and completely fucked in others. Or he can wake up in Bones's bed, safe in several entirely different ways and completely fucked in different others

Re: Take Me In (4/4)

[anonymous]

That was...well written, really. Especially the beginning. Spot on. It reminds me so much of me. D: Good job, anon.

Re: Take Me In (4/4)

[anonymous]

Thank you. *hugs* I'm sorry if it hit close to home.

Re: Take Me In (4/4)

[fallingcinders]

Wow, this was painful to read and pretty damn fantastic. I wish I knew who you were, anonymous, so I could stalk your works.

OP

[anonymous]

That is most certainly what I was looking for. Thank you - the boys sounded just like themselves and Jim's descent was perfect.

Re: OP

[anonymous]

You're very welcome; and thank you for the lovely comment. I hope things have been better for you -- or if not, that they get that way soon. ♥

Re: Take Me In (4/4)

[avidita]

I *love* psychological fics like this one. Spot on, amazingly well done. I could really feel with Jim, here.