Five Things: Five moments Teal'c lost faith
annerbhp wanted Five moments Teal'c lost faith.
1. When Kytano was revealed as a Goa'uld impostor, the worst of it was not the betrayal. Nor was it the humiliation of having thrown himself so recklessly after the hope Kytano held out.
The worst was his team. It was subtle, for none of them would ever say anything, but in the weeks that followed his defeat of Kytano they held themselves at a distance. It was not so long past the Rite of Malshuran, and even though those wounds were barely healed he had, without thought, without hesitation, cast aside their concerns and their suspicions. Had cast them aside, the very people who had first given him hope.
And he knew that, for his people's freedom, he would do it again without hesitation.
2. When he lost his symbiote. Despite his desire to free his people from the yoke of the Goa'uld, Teal'c realized when his symbiote was gone that freedom was not to be as simple as a victorious battle deciding the war. Freedom was to be a struggle, not just with words and weapons, but with change, with limitations, with a restructuring of the very identity of Jaffa.
The enormity of what freedom from the Goa'uld, true freedom, would take crushed him. In the late hours of the night, as his mind craved the kel'no'reem his body no longer needed, and his body craved the sleep his mind was too troubled to provide, he wept at his naiveté.
3. When he learned Apophis still lived on Sokar's world, twisted in with his rage, and the concern for his team, was a sudden gut-wrenching fear; he wanted to fall to his knees and beg his god's forgiveness for his doubts, for truly only a god would rise again and again from the dead.
He did not let go of the tel'tac's controls for the entire trip back to Earth, so no one would see his hands tremble.
4. When, flushed with pain and rage, Ry'ac blames him for Drey'auc's death. As his son rains down blow after blow, castigating him for placing the cause of the Jaffa above his family, Teal'c cannot help wishing, for just a moment, that he had killed the three Tau'ri that day on Chulak.
5. When they sealed O'Neill into the stasis chamber in Antarctica. While his life and death belong to the freedom of the Jaffa, he was no longer one of them. He was Teal'c of the Tau'ri, and as he followed Major Carter and Daniel Jackson from the chair room, he looked back and knew that his heart belonged to them, and to the man they left behind.
1. When Kytano was revealed as a Goa'uld impostor, the worst of it was not the betrayal. Nor was it the humiliation of having thrown himself so recklessly after the hope Kytano held out.
The worst was his team. It was subtle, for none of them would ever say anything, but in the weeks that followed his defeat of Kytano they held themselves at a distance. It was not so long past the Rite of Malshuran, and even though those wounds were barely healed he had, without thought, without hesitation, cast aside their concerns and their suspicions. Had cast them aside, the very people who had first given him hope.
And he knew that, for his people's freedom, he would do it again without hesitation.
2. When he lost his symbiote. Despite his desire to free his people from the yoke of the Goa'uld, Teal'c realized when his symbiote was gone that freedom was not to be as simple as a victorious battle deciding the war. Freedom was to be a struggle, not just with words and weapons, but with change, with limitations, with a restructuring of the very identity of Jaffa.
The enormity of what freedom from the Goa'uld, true freedom, would take crushed him. In the late hours of the night, as his mind craved the kel'no'reem his body no longer needed, and his body craved the sleep his mind was too troubled to provide, he wept at his naiveté.
3. When he learned Apophis still lived on Sokar's world, twisted in with his rage, and the concern for his team, was a sudden gut-wrenching fear; he wanted to fall to his knees and beg his god's forgiveness for his doubts, for truly only a god would rise again and again from the dead.
He did not let go of the tel'tac's controls for the entire trip back to Earth, so no one would see his hands tremble.
4. When, flushed with pain and rage, Ry'ac blames him for Drey'auc's death. As his son rains down blow after blow, castigating him for placing the cause of the Jaffa above his family, Teal'c cannot help wishing, for just a moment, that he had killed the three Tau'ri that day on Chulak.
5. When they sealed O'Neill into the stasis chamber in Antarctica. While his life and death belong to the freedom of the Jaffa, he was no longer one of them. He was Teal'c of the Tau'ri, and as he followed Major Carter and Daniel Jackson from the chair room, he looked back and knew that his heart belonged to them, and to the man they left behind.