Heart of the Matter / Don Henley
I think I've used the word stupid more times than I care to count. Because in a way, it's how I've felt lately.
I finally had it out with Nash the other day. At the end, he really did sound like he was sorry for the way things happened between us. And he said that he'd wait however long it took for me to forgive him.
I can't forgive something like that so easily. Friendships, and on the larger scale, love is about trust between two people. How exactly can I trust him after he kept those things from me and wouldn't tell me the truth, even when he knew I knew? He's a coward and maybe I should have plugged him when I had the chance and I'd have saved myself all of this.....
Hugo was there when it was happening, and we ate cheesy bread and that made me feel a little better. Jacques met me out by the tavern and then we talked, and after that we just went for a walk, not saying much of anything. He's one of the few people I don't have to say anything to, and yet it seems like there doesn't need to be anything said.
There is actually other news...
Queen had her twins the other day! And I got to hold them! Their names are Elyssa and Ivan and they're so cute and such good babies! They hardly ever cry, but they sleep a lot. I'm used to babies crying at all hours of the night in the village, but like I said, the two of them are so quiet! I hope Queen's getting some use out of the blankets Mema sent back from the village.
Anyway, I'm tired and I'm going to lie down for a while.
I finally had it out with Nash the other day. At the end, he really did sound like he was sorry for the way things happened between us. And he said that he'd wait however long it took for me to forgive him.
I can't forgive something like that so easily. Friendships, and on the larger scale, love is about trust between two people. How exactly can I trust him after he kept those things from me and wouldn't tell me the truth, even when he knew I knew? He's a coward and maybe I should have plugged him when I had the chance and I'd have saved myself all of this.....
Hugo was there when it was happening, and we ate cheesy bread and that made me feel a little better. Jacques met me out by the tavern and then we talked, and after that we just went for a walk, not saying much of anything. He's one of the few people I don't have to say anything to, and yet it seems like there doesn't need to be anything said.
There is actually other news...
Queen had her twins the other day! And I got to hold them! Their names are Elyssa and Ivan and they're so cute and such good babies! They hardly ever cry, but they sleep a lot. I'm used to babies crying at all hours of the night in the village, but like I said, the two of them are so quiet! I hope Queen's getting some use out of the blankets Mema sent back from the village.
Anyway, I'm tired and I'm going to lie down for a while.