Today the earth stood still..........

[spinaltapthaass]

I finally finished the book, 1984 that is. It opened my eyes. It made me want to reach out to the world almost, in a desperate attempt for change, acceptance, and knowledge. It also made me realize I am at fault, so to speak

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[shahman]

It is not for me to judge, or to say anything, really. I know little of you, save for the facts that you tell me and I lock to memory, and I know nothing of Vinnie, save for his abrubt departure and how he chose to leave.

Still, I am glad you found an awakening, or some sort of closure. Perhaps a cleansing. A catharsis, if you will. Doesn't mean your whole life changes because of it, but perhaps your perspective on things has been shifted.

How you choose to remember Vinnie and his death is up to you. People who are wrought with depression look to some kind of light--some kind of positive energy to keep them going. I think it's because they don't have that same lust for life within themselves. I know I always looked to beaming, outgoing women. Maybe Vinnie looked to you.

It wasn't that you failed him or anything, you kept him going. Sometimes, we just run out of gas.

HUGS

[toyin]

Oh, Alli, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself.

You are an amazing person and should be proud of yourself.
Wallowing in past mistakes and things not said will oly bring you down and that shouldn't be. Granted, I never knew Vinnie and it's extremely unfortnate what has happened to him, but I think what you should gather from this book is not to be self-critical, but a learning experience, a way of adavncing intellectually, not digressing emotionally.

I love you, Allison, and reading tshi entry made my heart sink. I hope you come to realize that this isn't about you betryaing anyone, I'm sure if Vinnie knows the Alliosn I know, he'd be happy and wholly glad to have known you because you are a beautiful person through and through. You bring smiles to people's faces when their hearts are sore and you evoke laughter that so very much appreciated. Your companionship is deservedly treasured, never a burden. Please, don't be dopwn. Call me, dear. Talk to me. I'm here for you, always.