I think I may have just had a brief period of enlightenment. And I completely forget what happened. 

I'm not sure who annoy me more. Atheists or theists.

I'm tempted to start a journal-diary thing and put some lies in it so when I look back in twenty years I will have this false image of how great I was.

"... me and erica were telling eachother that there were holes here and once I belived erica."
 -7/16/99

 I feel as I am frequently being ripped from one universe and being  dropped in a very similar one, but with slight changes ( Read more... )

I get kicks out of sunrises. Should I go to sleep and wake up at a semi-decent hour or stay up for the sunrise? I can never decide.

 My house is too big. Our rooms are too far apart.

You can't help but be alone.

He knew he didn't deal well with one-on-one. He would shy away from all pressure, negative and positive.  I should have talked to some one. I thought too much. His thinking always got him into trouble. It would poke holes in his faith, it would wash away his reality, it left him all alone. Trapped in a non-existence one must explode or be crushed ( Read more... )

Once in a life time chance, gone. I need more faith. (In myself?)

Really frustrated with myself. I don't what I did. I thought I knew the answer. Yet...

I let my fear take ahold of my life? Crush dreams?

I want to vomit.

I so desperately want to be a hypocrite.