growing up

[sparklingshroom]

"exodus"

I was a little girl in a garden

it was a garden of good and evil

there were trees and flowers there

there were people

and god was watching me

god was asking me

to hold out my hands and

follow

follow down the footpath

follow down the stone steps

follow past the fountain

follow to the gate

I left the garden of earthly delights

I

Comments

[nebslie]

Did you write this poem?

I want to say something insightful about growing up, but I really don't know. I feel like I am growing up all the time, in all kinds of ways, and I will grow up forever and ever until I die. I felt liked I stepped out of the garden when I was 11 years old, and I haven't thought about that in a long time. I still feel like I stepped out of the garden when I was 11, and since then I have been growing and changing and becoming more adult. Recently, since soon after I turned 21, I felt this sobering of things. I am more accepting of all the crappy shit in life and I just manage anyway, instead of trying to avoid it and then sinking down and being overwhelmed when it catches up with me. It is an overall happier place to be, even though it is not any easier. That is my latest growing up.

And I've dreamed about you for something the three past nights.

yeah

[sparklingshroom]

yes i wrote it. I feel like I need to be more stoic and I need to try harder to consider other people's feelings and comfort levels and I need to consider my own reactions. I never stepped out of the garden. it was too scary. i have to now, though, whether I want it or not. and i know it is good for me.

Re: yeah

[nebslie]

I really really like the poem.

Re: yeah

[sparklingshroom]

ok then i will put up more!