In Pisces.

[southerntrash]

I am a woman now. At least that's what they tell me. I see friends of youth graduating college, getting married and having children. And I... Well, all I have to show for my twenty-two years is a good story to tell, a broken heart, and a top-of-the-line boob job (which I'm paying for myself, thankyouverymuch, in efforts to perfect and drastically

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[rosytintedlife]

This entry literally made me laugh and cry! I'm not kidding. I've decided that I am going to start LJing again, in conjunction with therapy and writing in my diary. I think I enabled Chris, and that is why your entry made me cry. I see a lot of myself in you and always have, even though we are so different in many ways. I think that I thought that Chris would be the safety net my parents never were for me.. and when he wasn't able to be there for me the way I needed him to be, I blamed him, put up walls, got angry.... and then when it was over, I got even angrier. As I start to calm down, I can only speculate that having what I hoped would be the "rock" or "safety net" yanked from underneath me hurts because I don't feel that safety net in other parts of my life. All I can do is learn from this exper ience and keep telling myself that the person I deserve in the future will be my rock.. someone who supports me when I'm at my worst, not just someone who is only there to take advantage of my best. Honestly, my ill feelings for Chris are

[rosytintedlife]

BTW.. did you really get a boob job? I'm happy for you if it makes you happier, but it also kinda makes me sad.. because you are so beautiful and it makes me sad that so many women think they need to be physically perfect to be beautiful. Plus, you had nice boobs. Granted, I have big tits, but still.... it makes me so sad that we have to alter ourselves in order to feel okay. That being said, I also understand.. my skin and teeth caused me misery for years. Pics?