When I Saw Jack Had Come Back to Me
An excerpt from "My Life" by Ennis Del Mar as told to Soulan and annotated by Jack Twist.
I rocked back on my heels as though I'd been punched through the heart. My head felt on fire as I stood swaying, then my knees buckled and I collapsed to the floor. Because Jack was there before me: solid, nineteen again, face smooth, smiling. I pitched forward, wanting to bury my head in his lap and weep with joy but he caught me by the shoulders and propped me up. I reached out to grab him then, but my arms enclosed... not air, but nothing of substance. Yet his hands on my shoulders were strong and warm. His eyes were full of compassion. He said, It's alright, I can feel you, and you can feel me when I touch you or do this - he slid forward and wrapped his arms around me, holding me tightly the way he had on our last day together. But when I tried to clutch him, my fists closed on nothing.1
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1 God it was so good to hold him again. But I knew what this was like for him and was sad cause I understood that he was gone a hafta get a taste of his own medicine for a while.