Heartbreaks
Title: Heartbreaks
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Jaejoong/Yoona, Jaejoong/Yeonhee, Jaejoong/BoA, Yunho/BoA, implied! Changmin/Yoona,
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Kim Jaejoong wasn’t sure why and how his life turned out this way.
This is ridiculous, he mumbled as he curled his fingers around the beer can a little bit too tightly, causing liquid to squirt out slightly. He ignored the ticklish sensation on his hand resulted from the little spill, his mind too occupied with what he was witnessing a few meters from where he sat. Jaejoong growls at the random chummy couple, their actions reminded him of a disastrous love life he had tried very hard to ignore; his.
He wonders again how his life turned out this way. Specifically, how his love life turned out this way. Having to reach the age of thirty five, Jaejoong knows he should have already been gifted with miniatures of himself, or at the very least, happily married with the love of his life. But apparently, God has a different pathway for him to live.
A poignant chuckle escaped Jaejoong’s lips as he recalled one of the three most significant women in his life. How long has it been since he last saw her? Four years, maybe?
No, it was longer, he concluded in his mind, a faint image of the beautiful young lady appeared in his mind. He was young, inexperienced with love. When he first saw her, he thought she was the most beautiful girl he had ever laid eyes upon. What was her name again?
Yoona. He groaned at the sound of her name. Im Yoona.
It took three months for Jaejoong to man up and acquire the number of the younger girl who had captured his heart the moment he saw her. Her mesmerizing smile was all it took for him to stumble on his own words, for his knees to turn all wobbly, and for his heart to pound immensely fast against his chest. She was twenty one years old back then, young and absolutely gorgeous, and it wasn’t long before she was all he could think of.
Im Yoona sees Jaejoong in a different light, but she never told him that. She thought he was great as a guy and nice as a sunbae, and deep down, she would admire him for being such a perfect human being. She would spend most of her free time with him; in the library, at the park, in their university campus, and it was no surprise when people thought they were an item.
She forced herself to believe she had feelings for him. It was selfish of her for playing with his feelings, she knows that, but Yoona was young and she wanted to know what it felt like to be loved by an opposite gender. Jaejoong was the exact ideal type she had in her mind; the only flaw was that he did not make her feel butterflies in her stomach. She pushes herself in this relationship she knew sooner or later would fall apart, hoping that one day, she might magically feel her heart doing back flips when he approached or touched her.
And one morning, that was exactly what happened.
Her heart gave a jolt of nervousness and danced in her chest like it has never danced before. Her tongue froze by itself when she saw him threw a smile at her direction, and for a minute or so, time froze upon eye contact.
Only problem was, it wasn’t Jaejoong that was doing such to her. It was a new transfer student; tall, snarky and conceited (he claims himself to be the most handsome male student in their campus). Yoona was drawn to him immediately, and everything she had pretended with Jaejoong fell apart inevitably.
Jaejoong was beyond devastated when she called their relationship off days later. It wasn’t mutual to begin with anyway, Jae. I don’t want to lead you on any further, I’m truly sorry. He would never forget those words hurled into his face just a month after he announced she was his girlfriend, or how his heart had broke and shattered in ways he never thought it could.
He had no idea how long he had stayed in depression, but as people would say, one end leads to another beginning. Two months after his breakup with Yoona, he met the second would be significant woman in his life. Her name was Lee Yeonhee.
Yeonhee often noticed him as he drops by almost every day in the grocery store she worked at.
He would sometimes linger around for a long time before dropping a pack of cigarettes on the counter or occasionally some junk foods and fizzy drinks. He would almost never say a word to her, and this was what made her noticed him. He seemed rather mysterious to her, and she was curious.
She started a conversation (that she would regret sixteen days later) with him, and his curt answers drawn her even more to him. He wouldn’t stay long in the store after paying, but he made it a habit to visit every evening. His purpose at first was simple; to buy things he needed. After she made him talk though, his purpose shifted from that to something more relevant; to see this Yeonhee girl, because he knew she was curious about him, and he has to admit, she was pretty cute too.
He learned her name was Lee Yeonhee, and she was working part time to pay her tuition fees. You’re independent. I like that, he would throw compliments here and there, just for the sake of making her vulnerable under his eyes. Sooner or later, she fell for his sweet words, and after just three days of having a proper conversation, Yeonhee lets Jaejoong capture her lips in the alley behind the shop she worked at. I love you, he mumbled as his lips glaze against hers, his hands finding its way to the nape of her neck.
But eventually, Jaejoong got bored of playing around with her.
He was young and immature, stupid and heartless. Jaejoong would never ever forget the look of betrayal and hurt in her eyes when he called it quits. He still remembers vaguely in his mind how she had fight an urge to slap him in his face and how she had looked away with tears streaming down her cheeks.
Yeonhee became significant to him immediately after that night, because he knows he had broken the heart of an innocent young lady, and there would be no turning back.
Jaejoong’s thoughts were interrupted by the shrill rings of his mobile phone. He glanced at the screen and frowned at the name flashing on it. Debating whether or not he should answer, the ringtone eventually stops, and Jaejoong sighed in relief. The name that had flashed on the screen now flashed in his eyes repeatedly. Before he could drift into his thoughts again though, the familiar ringtone reappears.
“Yeobseyo?” He finally answers, sighing.
“Jae? Where are you? Why aren’t you here yet?”
“Umm…traffic is really bad tonight.” He lied. I don’t want to see you, to be honest.
“But Hana’s asking for you, and it isn’t good to disappoint the birthday girl now is it?”
Jaejoong lets out another sigh. “BoA…I can’t control the traffic, you know that.”
“Yes, that’s true.” BoA said from the other line. “But you’re lying, and I know that.”
“…”
“If you don’t want to come to your god daughter’s birthday party, then fine. But don’t expect to see her anytime soon. Or us, to be exact.”
Jaejoong groaned. “Alright, alright. I’m on my way now, okay? Gosh, BoA.”
He could almost see the smile forming on her face all across the line as she merely chuckled and said; “I’ll see you soon.”
There were three significant women in Jaejoong’s life. One was Im Yoona, another was Lee Yeonhee. These two respective women had been out from Jaejoong’s life since ages, and it has been years since he last saw them. The other one however, the final woman listed at the top of his list was a total exception. If there was a right word to describe how to avoid her, it was the word impossible.
Kwon BoA, no, Jung BoA, stood right in front of him, smiling.
“You’re finally here!” She announces happily, her eyes sparkling under the dim lights of her porch. Jaejoong could hear screams coming from inside the house, and he knew immediately the screams belonged to Hana and her friends. He forces a smile on his lips and shrugged. “Traffic was fine after all.’
BoA smiled brightly in a way where her eyes would disappear into crescent shapes. That smile of hers caused an inevitable heartbreak in the inside, and he forcefully shoves the bitter feeling piling in his mind away. He was invited in and was glad he could tear his attention away from BoA and instead towards the group of kids in the living room.
“Uncle Jae~!!!” A distinctive squeal belonging to Jung Hana was heard and Jaejoong smiled before enveloping the little beauty into his arms.
“Happy Birthday Hana!” He said as happily as he could, knowing BoA was watching him from aside.
“Look what Uncle Jae got for you,” Jaejoong continued and brought out a small box wrapped in white ribbon from his jacket pocket.
Hana squealed again and grasped firmly around the box. She flitted away from her spot and towards her friends, waving the box in the air and laughing. Jaejoong stood up and shoved his hands into his pockets before exiting the living room quietly when he realized BoA was no longer there.
He padded towards the second nearest space he could find, which was the kitchen. As he slowly reaches the opening, he could hear soft giggling and whisperings coming from the place. The door was half opened, and with a harmless peek, he could hear and see his two friends near the refrigerator. At first glance, it was rather obvious that BoA had been finding for something, but as he continues watching silently from behind the door, her original motive of heading to the kitchen had been forgotten.
“Yunho, stop,” Jaejoong felt sick in his stomach as he hears her laugh. “I mean it! I’m trying to find-“
“Just spare me a few seconds, BboA.” He could hear his friend chuckling, and unwilling to witness anymore of what he had already seen, Jaejoong turned around. As he walked away, he could feel pieces of his heart falling on the pathway he had walked on. Stupid Jae, you shouldn’t have come here in the first place. You shouldn’t have. You shouldn’t ever, his mind lashed angrily at how reckless he had behaved. Just because BoA threatens never to see you again…gosh, you’re a fool, Jaejoong. A fool.
“Yes, I’m a fool, but I can’t help it.” He snapped back at his inner self.
Jaejoong’s first and most significant woman had always been Kwon BoA, his best friend since elementary. He never could have predicted that she would become so important to him eventually. She was the woman Jaejoong realized he truly loved, but had already been claimed by somebody else. She was the woman that could and would make his heart break over and over again not because of something she did, but of something she didn’t. She was the most important woman in his life, yet she can never truly be his.
And that, to Jaejoong, was the worst heartbreak anyone could ever experience.
a/n: dedicated to aoza , for being a good friend and unnie. :)
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Jaejoong/Yoona, Jaejoong/Yeonhee, Jaejoong/BoA, Yunho/BoA, implied! Changmin/Yoona,
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Kim Jaejoong wasn’t sure why and how his life turned out this way.
This is ridiculous, he mumbled as he curled his fingers around the beer can a little bit too tightly, causing liquid to squirt out slightly. He ignored the ticklish sensation on his hand resulted from the little spill, his mind too occupied with what he was witnessing a few meters from where he sat. Jaejoong growls at the random chummy couple, their actions reminded him of a disastrous love life he had tried very hard to ignore; his.
He wonders again how his life turned out this way. Specifically, how his love life turned out this way. Having to reach the age of thirty five, Jaejoong knows he should have already been gifted with miniatures of himself, or at the very least, happily married with the love of his life. But apparently, God has a different pathway for him to live.
A poignant chuckle escaped Jaejoong’s lips as he recalled one of the three most significant women in his life. How long has it been since he last saw her? Four years, maybe?
No, it was longer, he concluded in his mind, a faint image of the beautiful young lady appeared in his mind. He was young, inexperienced with love. When he first saw her, he thought she was the most beautiful girl he had ever laid eyes upon. What was her name again?
Yoona. He groaned at the sound of her name. Im Yoona.
It took three months for Jaejoong to man up and acquire the number of the younger girl who had captured his heart the moment he saw her. Her mesmerizing smile was all it took for him to stumble on his own words, for his knees to turn all wobbly, and for his heart to pound immensely fast against his chest. She was twenty one years old back then, young and absolutely gorgeous, and it wasn’t long before she was all he could think of.
Im Yoona sees Jaejoong in a different light, but she never told him that. She thought he was great as a guy and nice as a sunbae, and deep down, she would admire him for being such a perfect human being. She would spend most of her free time with him; in the library, at the park, in their university campus, and it was no surprise when people thought they were an item.
She forced herself to believe she had feelings for him. It was selfish of her for playing with his feelings, she knows that, but Yoona was young and she wanted to know what it felt like to be loved by an opposite gender. Jaejoong was the exact ideal type she had in her mind; the only flaw was that he did not make her feel butterflies in her stomach. She pushes herself in this relationship she knew sooner or later would fall apart, hoping that one day, she might magically feel her heart doing back flips when he approached or touched her.
And one morning, that was exactly what happened.
Her heart gave a jolt of nervousness and danced in her chest like it has never danced before. Her tongue froze by itself when she saw him threw a smile at her direction, and for a minute or so, time froze upon eye contact.
Only problem was, it wasn’t Jaejoong that was doing such to her. It was a new transfer student; tall, snarky and conceited (he claims himself to be the most handsome male student in their campus). Yoona was drawn to him immediately, and everything she had pretended with Jaejoong fell apart inevitably.
Jaejoong was beyond devastated when she called their relationship off days later. It wasn’t mutual to begin with anyway, Jae. I don’t want to lead you on any further, I’m truly sorry. He would never forget those words hurled into his face just a month after he announced she was his girlfriend, or how his heart had broke and shattered in ways he never thought it could.
He had no idea how long he had stayed in depression, but as people would say, one end leads to another beginning. Two months after his breakup with Yoona, he met the second would be significant woman in his life. Her name was Lee Yeonhee.
Yeonhee often noticed him as he drops by almost every day in the grocery store she worked at.
He would sometimes linger around for a long time before dropping a pack of cigarettes on the counter or occasionally some junk foods and fizzy drinks. He would almost never say a word to her, and this was what made her noticed him. He seemed rather mysterious to her, and she was curious.
She started a conversation (that she would regret sixteen days later) with him, and his curt answers drawn her even more to him. He wouldn’t stay long in the store after paying, but he made it a habit to visit every evening. His purpose at first was simple; to buy things he needed. After she made him talk though, his purpose shifted from that to something more relevant; to see this Yeonhee girl, because he knew she was curious about him, and he has to admit, she was pretty cute too.
He learned her name was Lee Yeonhee, and she was working part time to pay her tuition fees. You’re independent. I like that, he would throw compliments here and there, just for the sake of making her vulnerable under his eyes. Sooner or later, she fell for his sweet words, and after just three days of having a proper conversation, Yeonhee lets Jaejoong capture her lips in the alley behind the shop she worked at. I love you, he mumbled as his lips glaze against hers, his hands finding its way to the nape of her neck.
But eventually, Jaejoong got bored of playing around with her.
He was young and immature, stupid and heartless. Jaejoong would never ever forget the look of betrayal and hurt in her eyes when he called it quits. He still remembers vaguely in his mind how she had fight an urge to slap him in his face and how she had looked away with tears streaming down her cheeks.
Yeonhee became significant to him immediately after that night, because he knows he had broken the heart of an innocent young lady, and there would be no turning back.
Jaejoong’s thoughts were interrupted by the shrill rings of his mobile phone. He glanced at the screen and frowned at the name flashing on it. Debating whether or not he should answer, the ringtone eventually stops, and Jaejoong sighed in relief. The name that had flashed on the screen now flashed in his eyes repeatedly. Before he could drift into his thoughts again though, the familiar ringtone reappears.
“Yeobseyo?” He finally answers, sighing.
“Jae? Where are you? Why aren’t you here yet?”
“Umm…traffic is really bad tonight.” He lied. I don’t want to see you, to be honest.
“But Hana’s asking for you, and it isn’t good to disappoint the birthday girl now is it?”
Jaejoong lets out another sigh. “BoA…I can’t control the traffic, you know that.”
“Yes, that’s true.” BoA said from the other line. “But you’re lying, and I know that.”
“…”
“If you don’t want to come to your god daughter’s birthday party, then fine. But don’t expect to see her anytime soon. Or us, to be exact.”
Jaejoong groaned. “Alright, alright. I’m on my way now, okay? Gosh, BoA.”
He could almost see the smile forming on her face all across the line as she merely chuckled and said; “I’ll see you soon.”
There were three significant women in Jaejoong’s life. One was Im Yoona, another was Lee Yeonhee. These two respective women had been out from Jaejoong’s life since ages, and it has been years since he last saw them. The other one however, the final woman listed at the top of his list was a total exception. If there was a right word to describe how to avoid her, it was the word impossible.
Kwon BoA, no, Jung BoA, stood right in front of him, smiling.
“You’re finally here!” She announces happily, her eyes sparkling under the dim lights of her porch. Jaejoong could hear screams coming from inside the house, and he knew immediately the screams belonged to Hana and her friends. He forces a smile on his lips and shrugged. “Traffic was fine after all.’
BoA smiled brightly in a way where her eyes would disappear into crescent shapes. That smile of hers caused an inevitable heartbreak in the inside, and he forcefully shoves the bitter feeling piling in his mind away. He was invited in and was glad he could tear his attention away from BoA and instead towards the group of kids in the living room.
“Uncle Jae~!!!” A distinctive squeal belonging to Jung Hana was heard and Jaejoong smiled before enveloping the little beauty into his arms.
“Happy Birthday Hana!” He said as happily as he could, knowing BoA was watching him from aside.
“Look what Uncle Jae got for you,” Jaejoong continued and brought out a small box wrapped in white ribbon from his jacket pocket.
Hana squealed again and grasped firmly around the box. She flitted away from her spot and towards her friends, waving the box in the air and laughing. Jaejoong stood up and shoved his hands into his pockets before exiting the living room quietly when he realized BoA was no longer there.
He padded towards the second nearest space he could find, which was the kitchen. As he slowly reaches the opening, he could hear soft giggling and whisperings coming from the place. The door was half opened, and with a harmless peek, he could hear and see his two friends near the refrigerator. At first glance, it was rather obvious that BoA had been finding for something, but as he continues watching silently from behind the door, her original motive of heading to the kitchen had been forgotten.
“Yunho, stop,” Jaejoong felt sick in his stomach as he hears her laugh. “I mean it! I’m trying to find-“
“Just spare me a few seconds, BboA.” He could hear his friend chuckling, and unwilling to witness anymore of what he had already seen, Jaejoong turned around. As he walked away, he could feel pieces of his heart falling on the pathway he had walked on. Stupid Jae, you shouldn’t have come here in the first place. You shouldn’t have. You shouldn’t ever, his mind lashed angrily at how reckless he had behaved. Just because BoA threatens never to see you again…gosh, you’re a fool, Jaejoong. A fool.
“Yes, I’m a fool, but I can’t help it.” He snapped back at his inner self.
Jaejoong’s first and most significant woman had always been Kwon BoA, his best friend since elementary. He never could have predicted that she would become so important to him eventually. She was the woman Jaejoong realized he truly loved, but had already been claimed by somebody else. She was the woman that could and would make his heart break over and over again not because of something she did, but of something she didn’t. She was the most important woman in his life, yet she can never truly be his.
And that, to Jaejoong, was the worst heartbreak anyone could ever experience.
a/n: dedicated to aoza , for being a good friend and unnie. :)