[are you satisfied with an average life]

[soonerbee]

On Wednesday I had my piano lesson. My teacher told me to play my dorky little Beethoven piece, and I did; and when I was done, she said:

"Sarah, in all my years teaching, I have never seen anyone so insanely, insatiably obsessed with being perfect. Every time you screw up, you won't keep playing-- you have to go back and fix it. Well, stop it.

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[code_gorilla]

Now this is something I get. I've got a little of the same thing going on - though I don't know if it's me or if it's my environment telling me "perfection or failure". Probably some combination thereof. And the one thing I've learned about it?

Sometimes you've just got to throw caution to the wind and run on impulse. Of course, this leads me to do phenomenally stupid things like go out for walks at 2 AM when I'm sick, or hang with my friends for hours when I should be working. Or ask someone out when I'm 95% sure the answer is going to be "no." The thing is, at least I tried, and had fun with it. Maybe it's a little short-sighted and hedonistic, but sometimes that's what has to be done. *shrug*

Perhaps that's not what you wish to hear, though.

[soonerbee]

No, I agree. I do believe, this year, that staying sane > getting everything perfectly done. It's much easier to find motivation for things when you've had a break! It's not hedonistic; I think getting everything done but not being happy, not having any small stupid random things to be happy about, is sad.

...I say as I'm taking yet another break from this goddamn paper. >>