LJ Idol: introduction

[sonarvampress]

Sometimes I think back to who I used to be. The teenaged girl who started to journal, the one with the bright green hair. I think back to my first tattoo and how I was sure I would be coverd head to toe in a few more years. Back when I switched to live journal I was just starting college. I was a perfomance theater major who often passed out on

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[xlovebecomesher]

*hugs* There are days I'd give anything to be my teenaged self again who always had somewhere to be, something to do, and still believed in soulmates.

[sonarvampress]

I still believe on soulmates, mine just happen to be a 3 year old girl and a 8 month old little boy. I mean, there's also my husband but he's not even a close third. But this is not the life I imagined. I dreamed of a tiny little apartment in the city doing yoga with my hot boyfriend.

[eternal_ot]

Welcome back to writing :) May you find solace here.

[sonarvampress]

Thank you. I hope writing and I can reconnect the way we used to.

[jake67jake]

I *heart* this... very much.

Maybe you can recapture that green-haired girl again.

Good luck

[sonarvampress]

I am considering dying my hair green just in case it made all the difference.

[banana_galaxy]

Dyeing my hair made some difference for me. I know the last time I went brown, I felt like I lost a part of myself, that I found again when I dyed it red (and then various other colours after that). I only recently went back to brown, but it doesn't feel so bad this time because I'd recaptured other parts of myself in the meantime.

[baxaphobia]

Welcome back. Hopefully some of your feelings can be sorted out by writing them out. Good luck!

[halfshellvenus]

I think of that Talking Heads song. Even if this IS your beautiful car and your beautiful house, there will be days when you wonder, "How did I get here?" and none of it seems to be quite right.

Those early years with kids can be that way in particular, because they need so much of your love and attention. But it does get easier, if that helps. And I hope writing for Idol will help you get there a little sooner.